Beetle I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your precious little ones. It is so recent for you, no wonder you are feeling a million emotions right now. You mention that you think your tragedy is less than that of people living in poverty or enduring natural disasters...but I personally think that the pain of losing a baby is comparable (or worse) than many other types of hardship. If you have your family with you you can face anything. So its very natural that you are feeling that life is unfair, because in our case it really, truly has been. You will gradually feel a little better in time, even though now it doesnt feel that way. What did the ObGyn say?
Littletulip hope youre feeling a bit brighter? No it doesnt sound awful that you are avoiding certain people at the moment, I think its the best thing to not see people who can upset you even more or are just plain insensitive. Not sure which day is your birthday but I hope that you have/had as happy a one as possible under the circumstances
Sleepingstar hope youre feeling brighter too? You so shouldnt beat yourself up about not picking up on something that the even the doctors didnt. We put ourselves in their hands and hope they know what theyre doing, although unfortunately (as in our case) they dont. Cant believe you got sent home from delivery for 'constipation'
Ruby I am so sorry to hear how your parents are reacting, that is so bad. It really is hard to come to terms with how people can behave isnt it? I have found its better to just cut them out of your life, but of course thats very difficult when its your parents. Its good to hear about your friend finally achieveing their dream after 11 IVF cycles, if we do go for another it will be our 8th cycle. So much heartache and so much money spent (and still not repaid) it really is a tough journey especially when there is no happy end result :( Sorry, no idea even what a CBFM is, but Im sure someone will give you some advice and I hope its all going well.
Spacefrog its good you got answers from your meeting, and it sounds like you have supportive people looking after you.
Owl hope the scan and visit went well
How are our other ladies-with-bumps doing?
AFM Today was the day one year ago that I was admitted to hospital, and although I'm really, really trying I cant help but keep thinking "right now so-and-so was happening" and its all coming back. Torturing myslef thinking of decisions we made or should have made. Just feels like I'm going to be hardly able to breathe until Xmas is over. It is really upsetting me that people are wishing me a "Happy Christmas"...even people who know about us losing A on Xmas eve. How on earth could I have a happy time? And I think the worst is that I got a Xmas card from my best friend and she has written "Wishing you a very merry Christmas and a wonderful and exciting new year". Is it just me being over-sensitive or is that a totally inappropriate and uncaring thing to write?? If I were a hedgehog I would just roll up into a tiny ball with all my prickles on the outside and wait till the festivities were over to unroll. Its my birthday in a couple of days too, so that reminds me of how the years have gone by and my arms are still empty :(
I hope everyone is managing to face the Xmas run-up as well as they can, and hopefully finding some happiness in a season that should be full of light and hope.
Love to all, sorry for not namechecking everyone xx