If TTC # 2 has turned you into a nut job this thread is for you! (Part 3)

[fedupofrainydays]

Still here, still ttc, still POAS, still symptom spotting, still counting days, still temping, still shagging and still absolutely nutty!!!

2be - absolutely wonderful news. So thrilled for you. I hope you've started a run of BFPs on this thread!

8dpo here, nothing to write home about so far.

I have had some pretty thick creamy discharge today which i don't remember having before. So that feels like a possible positive sign.

Morning ladies from Spain! Yay 2be glad it's getting darker.
Hurrah for new house sebs!
I'm currently feeling pretty ropey after going on a wine and tapas crawl basically 4 pm to 12am - best fun i have had in ages! Missed my boys tho and can't wait to see them both later today.
No idea what dpo I am and dot really care this month as laying of the obsessive ttc, at least til the new yr!

Sounds like you had a good time, fedup. Probably just what you needed.

Yes, threepiece really hope it does start a trend!

Sebs - yay!! Finally in your new home! And hope that the creamy cm is a good sign!!

Hey, how is everyone? Hope you all had good weekends xx

Hey all
Fed up how was Spain? Are you relaxed or needing a relaxing holiday after Spanish antics?
Well officially day 35 here!!! Always have a 28 day cycle but I am confused as bfn on Friday, Saturday and Sunday on Dtd once but at right time I think? However not had a cycle since mc so maybe this is why late ? Would love to symptom spot but non to spot so a tad fed up wanting a bfp or a period now so can start again! Even though I should wait til after gynaecologist appointment but as that's approx a 4 month wait I don't want to stop trying
Oh hell I do depress myself at times xx

Still here, still crazy. 11dpo and was hopeful but just seen spotting and cramping to death so looks like I'm out. Cycle 25 awaits...

I'm 10 dpo tomorrow (I think). No symptoms to spot here either. I have resigned myself to another out this month. The witch should appear on thurs assuming my LP stays at 12 days. But as this is my first cycle since giving up bf it could lengthen, have to wait and see xxx

Hi ladies.
Thanks dildoos, I had a fab time and was so much fun! Forgot ttc for a few days which was amazing!
Sorry to hear bout bfn and no af. Aren't you a late bfp'er as in take time to show? Otherwise, could it be the gross drink extending cycle??

3 piece have you been to dr? After 24 cycles I'm sure you will be entitled to fertility help on NHS? I'm going to get myself back to doctors (if I can get appointment) sometime soon as I want to see what's next after a year of ttc. We pay tax for times like these so push for it!!

No symptoms is sometimes a good thing sebs as I have the most 'symptoms' when I'm not pregnant!! Stupid I know but true.

Not long now til Christmas and I'm quite excited about it all this year, and cheese and bubbles and DS's stocking and going to take him to see FC this year as hoping he will be big enough (he's 2) to semi get it?!?!
How's new house sebs? So lovely you can be in by Christmas.

Oh and DH came home from work yesterday announcing, 'I dreamt we had twins last night and woke up all happy, so when is your period due?' I was like 'you don't even want twins'... Apparently he does now we have been waiting so bloomin long. I wish we could. I know would be so so hard but would love it. I can wish can't I?!

Oh bless you fed up, that twins post made me smile so much as OH and I say the same. Twins would be amazing when previously we were terrified of twins lol.

I'm actually really proud of myself as I could have POAS this morning but didn't, I really couldn't be bothered lol. I have one Wilkinson cheapie in the house and knew it would say bfn so thought what is the point. I'm sure a few months ago I eod have used it though.

House is great, but cold!!!!! It needs work and we don't have the funds to do the work so that's a bit annoying. But least we setback on the property ladder again and away from landlords and petty Letting Agents.

OH is away tonight so I'm going to wrap myself up in a duvet and watch some crap TV.

Really glad you had a lovely time away, you sound upbeat and refreshed which is fantastic xxxxxx

Sounds like a great evening sebs and impressed with your resolve. I would be POAS just because I can!!' But that's silly me.
My short lived high has been smacked back down by hearing my next project posting at work. Miles away. I know I need to talk to them about this as dont know how it's going to work with childcare.
I've already made mind up am leaving my job, but not handing notice in til April.
So want to leave now !

So woke up feeling pretty miserable at prospect of being away from DS for another 3 months :( so thought if I'm pregnant I have a new get out clause. BF bloody N.

Clearly not the month for the twins :(

Fedup - do you know when AF is due? Could it be a little early? And can you leave your job any earlier? It seems harsh that they could make you work so far away from home.

Oh shit fedup, that's just fucking bollocks. I'm so sorry :(

Well I ended up POAS yesterday yep my resolve didn't last long did it!! and bfn.

Woke up this morn and used an opk and it is showing as string a positive as my peak stick this month (yep I kept it sad sap that I am).

I do have a few other potentially positive symptoms but in my heart I think it's bullshit again. My body playing games and giving me phantom signs. I am due on soon so I don't have to wait long to find out xx

So just to dig the wound a bit deeper, I went to the doctors this morn and they won't help me for another year :(

Seems so unfair when I've paid my tax and NI all my working life and now I want help I can't get it and others that pay nothing get babies galore and we have to pay for them
To do that. Doctor told me to just relax. FFS, I can't fucking relax!!

Sorry bout your bfn sebs. I think af is due for me on Friday so bfp would have shown by now :(

I have no symptoms. Sore boobs yesterday and day before but gone today, which usually happens when af on her way :(

Sorry for the doom and gloom I'm just sad about it all today

Fedup - that it really unfair! Won't they even do tests or anything?! I'm not surprised you're down about it.

Sebs I'm not medical but it seems odd. Either your body is acting weirdly or the OPKs aren't working for you. Have you been to doctors?

Pos opk can indicate pregnancy...

I've had a scan and progesterone test and DH has had sperm test. Guess they won't refer us to a clinic or for further fertility help. Not working today so having a good cry on sofa.

So your only option is to relax. Not good enough. It's bad enough when well meaning people trot out that old line, but when a medical professional says it!

Fedup that absolutely stinks. I wonder if you could escalate it further? I know PCTs used to exist where you could go over the docs head and ask for a higher decision. I suspect they are taking into consideration the fact that there us nothing medically wrong, you have conceived previously etc, to their mind it's just a matter of time, but if course for you it's not as simple as all that.

I am absolutely convinced it is just a waiting game for you and at some point soon you will get your BFP and we will all be dancing around like loons

Please think about doing something like acupuncture etc.i think it will make you feel like you are actively going something to help and will put you in a good mental place.

Well my interesting symptoms continue. I have been monitoring pink cm since dpo 8 and now at 11dpo I have very dark brown cm. It could be AF on her way but I have never had this before on my TTC journey and I wonder whether it could be linked to implantation as it's been going on for a while.

Trying not to get my hopes up but obviously I am!!!

I think it's just the triple whammy of crap job placement, bfn and no help. I wasn't really planning to get help just yet but know these things take ages when you get an appointment (she actually said come back on 6 months as will take 6 till you get an appointment - FFS!)

I've got a glass of wine now and watching naff TV. I'm going to talk to work tomorrow and not sure if telling them am leaving or not yet... Tbd.

Thanks for your support ladies, means a lot. Really struggled today to be honest. I'd been doing so so well. If only hasn't gone to stupid doctors!

sebs oooo sounds like it could be! Lets watch this space. I've no symptoms, sore boobs gone and some light cramps so no doubt af is round the corner. I vow not to test til Sunday now (assuming af hasn't showed by then - think due fri)

Ps. After chat with DH tonight I'm most likely resigning from my job tomorrow. Eeeek!

Wow!!! I think that'd help. Certainly would give you more time to spend with your ds.

Sebs - fingers crossed!

Fedup, that sounds dreadful. I'm 35, bf'ing my one year old, and had been trying for 6 months when I went to the GP, but they did blood tests and a scan straight away. I was honest about exactly how long, and also that my first came along in the first cycle.

I paid to see a consultant last week because the day 21 showed low progesterone and the GP didnt seem to know what that meant in terms of any remedy. It was just under £200.Anyway, he was brilliant. He said that despite my low progesterone at day 21 he was fairly sure I was ovulating and he could see I had low FSH levels at day 3 which was apparently a sign of either breastfeeding, too much exercise or being underweight and in my case it is the first. he said it was a good sign because FSH is higher when perimenopausal and I had no sign of that.He advised some tests in January to scan exactly when the OV is happening. Somehow it has really relaxed me about the whole thing and that was worth the money alone.

Hello to everyone else.

So AF here this morning. I've had a relook at data and i now think I ovulated cd 13 and had a 12 day LP. That would mean a 25 day cycle which is blimming short no?

Not sure what to think really. Aside from onwards and upwards.