If TTC # 2 has turned you into a nut job this thread is for you! (Part 3)

[fedupofrainydays]

Still here, still ttc, still POAS, still symptom spotting, still counting days, still temping, still shagging and still absolutely nutty!!!

Ha ha I don't feel positive in the slightest. I have a pad in place just waiting for her to turn up.

When are you due on fed up?

I think I'm realising that my cycles are so haphazard that there really is no way of knowing what's normal now. I used to have 27 day cycles, sometimes 28, now it ranges from 25 days up to 30!! I need a few consistent cycles I think to really know what's going on.

Fingers crossed the witch stays away xxxxxxx

Me too on the pad front. I think she's due tomorrow. But feel her on her way so could come tonight. :(

My cycle length ranges by 8 days so from 20 to 28 days. It used to always be 25. DH out tonight and could do with a hug as another cycle goes and I brace myself for cycle 10 since mc... Ugh.

AF arrived today for me. Cycle 20 starts today
Had 3 'so when are you having another?'s at the hairdressers today. If only they knew.

so grateful for all of your support. The bleeding has stopped, was only really brown goo. I am still pain free. I am deep down desperate that there is a baby in there growing happy as larry. The first bleed I had was after sex and this bigger bleed is after the scan which was transvaginal scan. Of course I'm praying that those were the reasons. I have bought 4 superdrug tests to test every morning to see if the line gets lighter before my scan on tuesday.

Fedup I wish I could give you a massive hug. You've been through the mill XXXX

Three piece, it's so upsetting when people are making idle chit chat that hurts so deeply. Haven't seen you on here in a while, how are you feeling?

Dildoos, thanks for that. I am hopeful. Can't bloody help it. How are you getting on?

Sebsmum - can you get hold of a frer? They're the only ones that show early for me.

Oh Geta that sounds so much more positive. I am sure you will be reassured when you have your next scan. Just remember that at fine point within the pregnancy tests stop showing as positive. I can't remember at what point I just don't want you upsetting yourself needlessly xxx

I could have bought a FRER today but decided not to. I will with get my period or I won't and at some point a standard rest should show positive. I am showing plenty of symptoms, just no positive test!!

Good work sebsmummy! That's the philosophy - only problem is we're all a bunch of nutters. So you're not really sure when af due? Are you going to keep testing with ic's?

Well I would have expected AF today, could be tomorrow, but then last month I had a 30 day cycle as I ovulated cd18, this month cd16 so I've already added a day to my luteal phase - from 11 to 12.

Basically I have no idea lol

I have ICs and also some standard tests. I suspect AF will arrive before I have a chance to use too many of them.

Have had an evening of horrid cramps so pretty sure af is on its way!
That sounds like good news geta and given sex and the ultrasound seemed to trigger the bleeding it does make me think its all ok with the baby! Fx for your next scan!!
With my mc I had cramps and bleeding and not after any triggers so I really do think the lack of pain is good news and maybe lay off the sex for a bit!!! Xx

Hey!!!

Well AF is here this morn. I know I should feel upset but it honestly feels a total triumph. Perfect 28 day cycle with ovulation on day 16. No luteal phase defect, clear ovulation dip with positive opk backing it up. I feel like my body is working again from this cycle, so this is probably month one for me TTC realistically.

I've gone from a 21 day cycle after the pill, to 26,27,26,30 and now 28. LP was less than 10 and is now 12. Obviously hoping I stabilise now.

Not sure whether to fully wean seb in two weeks when he hits one. I can't see that occasional nursing is having any impact on my fertility but at the same time I have this nagging doubt it is what is preventing me from catching.

Hope everyone else ok xxxxxx

Bfn here. Pretty broken to be honest. I'm just so gutted I can't seem to provide my ds with a sibling. Feel sick and so miserable. Sorry ladies for the neg post but you know how it goes :(

Of fed up that's an awful feeling, I hope you feel better soon you need to snuggle your son tightly today xxx

Quick update went to see Indian Canadian yesterday , he said i need an immune suppressant jab from gp as this is 100% the problem with 4 miscarriages in row that we are not white cell compatible! He said shame on gp to get this bad :-) got a lovely horrid drink I have to boil to take to make me ovulate more and make lining sticky! It is foul makes me want to vomit but hey I want a baby yesterday x

Fed up there is nothing I can say is there darling. Huge hugs from me xxxx

Oooh dildoos that sounds interesting!! Is the GP investigating the miscarriages? I bloody we'll hope so!!!!

I have reverted to having the period of a teenager. Cramps, PMS, I haven't had cramps for years and years!!

I am having a comprehensive blood profile done on Thursday at the doctors. Interesting to see if that throws anything up thyroid wise or anything else!

Sebs- I too get pain now which seems mean as we are disappointed by af arrival!
Being referred for miscarriage investigations on 15/11 but hoping me taking the awful drink and dancing round after every mouthful like a red Indian will result in a bfp that makes it term
Your results should be interesting ?! Good luck xx

How did you find out about this Indian dude dildoos? Sounds interesting!! Been crying about it to my mum today and she's been talking about some injection my cousin got in Ireland and got pregnant so perhaps I should do that.
Spent most of the day crying but had a nice evening with our neighbours for dinner and fireworks which I actually forgot about ttc for about an hour! A record! But then the cramps came back with a vengeance! Lovely.

Fed up it's not over till the witch arrives, so don't give up just yet!!

I too have spent a lot of time crying today. We are packing up the house and I was taking apart the nursery which I only put together a year ago. I can remember bring pregnant do clearly and I was looking through all the baby photos and filling in his year book etc. Everytime my OH walked into a room I was crying in it lol

I was reading the sperm meets egg plan today and she said that even with perfect intercourse timing there is still only a 25% chance of success each cycle. Weirdly made me feel a bit better that it's not me just being defective, it's just stats and at some point they will be in my (our) favour.

I have bought the clearblue opks that have the flashing and static smiley this month - Boots are doing a bit of an offer this month. We were going to follow the SMEP but OH is away with work and we are moving so it's not the right month for that. Will do it December instead if we are still trying then.

Fed up- my neighbour uses him for every illness and her partner had a cough for a year and the gp said asthma and gave inhalers but didn't get better so went drank the medicine and 2days latercoughwent!!!!! I thought I wonder if he can help me so opened up to said neighbour, she had a sister that used for infertility 3 months later pregnancy which lasted!!! After already had dd who was then 8!! He added some stuff that resembles scraping from compost bins in mine that act like clomid, make my lining sticky ready for egg, clears any endometrial tissue in tubes and will lighten my hideous periods! His name Is john hall he travels the uk and his company is east meets west, my first consultation and medicine was £40 and will be £65 per month here after but will treat me just for 3 months as he said not infertile as getting pregnant and at same time he wants me to get the immune suppressant injection done.
Trust me am not into all this weird stuff but he really has my trust as could see it in it to make money and my neighbour and loads of her friends and family swear by this guy!
I will strongly say the medicine is vile but I have managed to finish my first lot today! Have to drink it twice a week but hoping for great results

Thanks dildoos I am going to look into it!! If you only have to drink a gross drink I will do it every day!

Do my lovely it may help pop you on the positive I am going roger pregnant stretch again I feel uplifted by my positive appointment with him xx

I looked on the web and it seemed to mention just some £500 thing for infertility - is that what your doing?
It's also Chinese medicine on his site... I thought it was going to be Indian!!! There is a Chinese medicine place in my town.. Perhaps I should pop in there!
DH is going to hospital tomorrow morn now to do his sperm check. He's going to have to have a wank in the loos. That makes me chuckle!

He is Indian Canadian but Chinese medicine but not like these shops as I tried that in tablet form but didn't work it go try yours yes ! No not on that programme as not infertile just miscarrying. But if you do goon that programme you pay at the end if get pregnant not at start Ashe discussed this yesterday it felt 100% was this injection required and herbs to mKe everything too top etc xx

Wonder if we should have a new thread for November?

I am looking into affordable acupuncture. There are clinics around here advertising for shared clinics where people are treated simultaneously for £15. Seeing that I have no income right now and my OHs income is hugely squeezed due to all the house moving costs, that could be a plan

how does acupuncture work, sebs? I too am thinking of looking into it so any help gratefully received. Feeling rather despairing after the GP (not the usual one) called this morning and said that low progesterone was frequent and they could do little to help if ovulation wasn't happening, also that breastfeeding had nothing to do with it once cycles were back (which doesn't look to be the consensus on here I see).

I'm seeing the usual GP next week anyway and I've stopped breastfeeding just in case that helps (the baby is 20 months and I didn't get cycles back until she was 1, so rather impressed with all the trying you have got in already sebs).

On the other hand, AF is due today and hasn't come and doesn't feel imminent so maybe the day 21 test was just a bit early this time if AF is delayed. it's been a hugely stressful month for other reasons incl work and bereavement so I gather that can put cycles out (and also the baby fed a lot after hardly feeding at all for one week when she was unwell). (Clutches at straws). Has anyone paid to see a consultant privately and is this worth a shot?

Very best wishes to everyone.

No af here yet but another bfn :( talk about painful. Quite literally too as been cramping since Saturday :(

DH had to have a wank in a hospital loo today for his part in the testing process. That does give me a giggle. Pleased we get to find out if anything is up with his swimmers tho.

zippy I think I'm going private early next year if no other answes by then. Going to my cousin for her recommendation as she was told she would really struggle to have kids by her dr but went on to have two lovely girls with the help of this guy. Happily share deets when I have them.