If TTC # 2 has turned you into a nut job this thread is for you! (Part 3)

[fedupofrainydays]

Still here, still ttc, still POAS, still symptom spotting, still counting days, still temping, still shagging and still absolutely nutty!!!

I thought stress might have caused my mc. But I don't think it did. But.. I did totally reevaluate my situ with work. I was working insane hours - despite being PT I was working both weekends and my non working days and was so stressed. I tell myself now it's not worth it, if I was ill or worse died my employers would replace me... My family couldn't so easily. Oddly it's helped. I worry less about stuff and just do the most important things and delegate where I can. So far my work life balance is heaps better (and that was back in June) I don't know what you do geta and whether you can do that kind of approach to take some of the stress away...

Right.. I'm taking my loony self off to bed and depending on my temp I might POAS tomorrow morn.

Rest well everyone, particularly you geta and fx the spotting stops as you rest xx

Geta - big big hugs. I so hope you are wrong. I know there's nothing you can do either way, but so try to rest as much as you can. It really could go either way at this stage, lots and lots of people have spotting/bleeding in successful pregnancies. Hugs and fingers crossed.

No idea why but got home and decided to POAS. Why did I do that? Too early and not even fmu!! Dickhead! Bfn of course. Officially mental.

Fedup - I love you!! That was me this time last week! I hope you get a different outcome though.

Oh and I'm not here remember!

I think I spend time every day thinking about having a baby. I can't help it!

Well my temp has recovered but I've got myself so wound up that I slept badly again so at this stage I think they mean very little.

Right now I'm just focusing on each day the witch stays away meaning my LP is reasonable.

I have reserved some FMU for testing later when my cheapies arrive. I already know it will be bfn though.

Bfn here :(

Temp also back up but have a cold and drank some red wine last night.

2be i am a loon. Tell myself each month I won't do it but then I do. At least I managed to 9 dpo this month - was only 7 last month!!! I just want to know.

Ha ha scrap my last comment. My son found my small pot of FMU and poured it all over the floor and himself lol. Prob did me a favour

At least he didn't drink it.
Ugh. Feeling rough as. Cold more than preggo symptoms.
Also almost cried with rage earlier as another person told me to 'just relax' as 'their friend who went for adoption, their first ivf appointment... Etcetc got pregnant as soon as they stopped trying' this DOES MY HEAD IN

I can imagine!!!!! I hate to think of the cliches I might have helpfully rattled off before I started and failed to conceive myself. Best to view it as these people mean no harm.

Well I tested 2nd morning urine and BFN. Was pissed off but as I said earlier, this is now a luteal phase test and the longer my LP is the better as I am still nursing and it was

Ha ha I like that logic!! A successful failure! It might not tho and that dip in temp could have been implantation....!!
Banging headache and desperate for today to be over...

So I am defo not pregnant.

Last night I was so so cold again, weirdly so, and have been like this for a few weeks. I started looking up reasons online and low thyroid popped up which has lots of other symptoms that I have and have attributed to wonky hormones generally. For exa

For example hair loss, palpitations, heavy periods etc, but also infertility has popped up. So I want to rule it out and am going to make a doctors appointment today and ask for some tests.

With this in mind I decided to take a clearblue digi as I didn't want to be going in there sounding flaky as to whether I could be pregnant.

Good luck everyone else testing this month xxxx

Good to go get yourself tested sebs a simple blood test will find out if there are any issues. Good luck.
Not pregnant either. Bfn again. So miserable about it all but I should be well practised at this now :(

How are you doing geta? Been thinking of you lots xx

Bless you.

I guess we will reconvene here this time next month sigh

Thanks for thinking of me fedup. I have just been sent home by my director as I was sobbing my eyes out in a conference room. I had just been to the loo and seen fresh blood. I really am so so sad. I don't know what to do.

Went to the epu yesterday, they saw a sac, the right size, and said to go back next week. I reckon it'll all be over by then.

I feel so disappointed. Two losses in a row just feels so heartbreaking. I don't know whether to put my efforts into feeling hopeful that there's atiny chance this will be ok, or to just give up and try to move on.

Ds is all that's getting me through this. We are so lucky to have our little ones.

Sorry to hear about the bfns, just as heartbreaking as it feels like each month having a loss.

Oh god I can imagine how devastated you must feel just waiting for news geta. That's good news re. the scan, try and focus on that. Are you absolutely sure the blood is coming from your vagina? I know that sounds like a stupid thing to say but in my third trimester I had bright red fresh blood and was monitored in hospital for it. It was only when someone examined me they realised I had a cyst on my urethra. So of course to all extensive purposes I was bleeding, but not from anything associated with the baby. Everything crossed for you darling xxxxxcx

hello, i am a long time lurker. i love the support given to each other on this thread. i am ttc 8 cycles now, i have a baby who is 1, conceived first cycle. i am still occasionally bfing, but in Sept after 6 cycles of trying I went to the gp and she ordered some blood tests this month. I am 35. I also had an ultrasound and internal scan for PCOS etc, but all was normal. the day 21 test this week showed a progesterone level of 3 so despite always getting cb digi smiley faces around day 17 and having a very regular 27 day cycle it seems I may not actually be ovulating, or doing so very late in the cycle.

It was made worse last month by being the only time ever that AF was late, by 3 days. At the scan, the day AF was due, they said they weren't sure but thought they could see a gestational sac which obviously really got my hopes up more than usual but all tests, including the hospital test they gave me were negative.Sadly AF arrived 48 hours later and went on a long time which was devastating. I hope all get BFPs very soon.

Gosh zippy I'm actually very impressed with all the investigations you have had. I was under the belief that GPs were pretty hesitant to help out when TTC if you already had a child. That's good to know that isn't the case! Have you been charting your temps too? I was convinced I wasn't ovulated a few months back but now my opks and bbt charts seem to concur with each other that I do.

Do you know how long your luteal phase is? It seems to be a common problem when breast feeding that your luteal phase is often too short to sustain a pregnancy. Some women are able to continue to bf and fall pregnant whereas others seem to have to fully wean. I'm having the same dilemma. My son is one in two weeks and I'm thinking about fully weaning him at that point just to give myself every chance of conceiving sooner rather than later (I am 39 in February).

Fed up, please give me a swift kick up the arse. I've peed on an IC and convinced myself I see a faint line

Oh geta my lovely - I so hope it's ok for you. If it was be I would also be preparing myself for the worst.. Think that's how I work, but there would also be something in me hoping and wishing. The waiting is the worst... Stay resting. And as sebs says it could be something else bleeding - even the cervix can bleed. Is it a lot of fresh blood?

sebs aren't you only 11 dpo anyway? It could well be a bfp!!! So am not kicking you just yet...
I feel nothing still. No pms and no pregnancy symptoms.. Just a stuffy, coldy nose and general cold feelings!! I'm not testing tomorrow morn as we are staying at friends tonight. And I'm having wine.

Welcome zippy
I am no expert but could bf stop ovulating? I know it stopped my periods altogether (I bf ds for 9 months) and kind of assumed I wasn't ovulating then too. Not suggesting you give up but it could cause the annovulatory cycles?
Also when I cried on the nurse at my smear test she went on about how it can take a long time for bodies to right themselves after pregnancy. Whilst some people pop them out in no time other bodies take longer to prepare again. Could just be cos your dc 1 is still young? Same for you sebs?

I've also had scans for pcos since ds, and they also thought they saw a sac!!! But it had gone by my next scan so they concluded it was a clot. Not great for the hopes but I was also worried it was remnants from my mc.

Hi zippy Hi All
Having a really rubbish month couldn't help but poas and as per usual BFN Af not due till Monday but I couldn't help myself ??
I wonder if this feeling of anxiety and helplessness are normal feelings attributed to broodyness I'm thinking back to when I was trying to conceive DS and can't remember such heartache?
sebs I was also told by my Gp tests were a no no until you have been trying over 12months zippy I need your Gp hahaha
Ps I will still test tomorrow and the day after I'm just going to remain in denial until then xxx

It might be 6 months at my age, but I decided not to raise it today at the GPs. I went in and asked about thyroid and she is doing a full blood test profile on me to check everything is ok.

I am moving out of the county at the end of this month. So if I'm still TTC in the new year I think I will ask at the doctors what the best course if action is, if any.

Hello, yes I was a little surprised but as I am 35 I thought I was meant to seek help after 6 months of TTC (already 5 months longer than I had expected, hilariously). So I went along, with the baby, and explained it had taken a month last time and I was bfing but she was great and sent me off for the blood tests and hospital scan anyway which all happened within 4 weeks. Oddly, whilst I was of course pleased she was taking it seriously, it made me worried that meant something must be wrong (as indeed it now seems it is given the progesterone is so low). I am trying to see it as positive they have found out what might be delaying things (but inevitably and also hoping it is some sort of huge mistake and I am actually pregnant...)

how does charting work? just done cb digi here.

So 12dpo today. Still showing super faint line on an ultra early IC but not pregnant on my last clearblue.

I have a feeling it will go like last month. I will bleed out before anything really had a chance to develop. If I can get past today then my LP has got longer which is a great success for future successful pregnancies.

Fed up, how you feeling?

Sounds promising sebs - if your temp dip a couple of days ago was implantation it can take time for hcg levels to rise. Fx for you.

Feeling a bit hungover and not at all pregnant. Temp dropped slightly this morn so most likely af is on her way. Haven't tested as at friends house and wasn't POAS there (plus have only one FR left at home)

Geta I have everything crossed for you. My dd was just like that if it helps? She is fine! So always a hope ! I put my feet up and took easy and next time I went they could Seeher but no heartbeat so waited another 2 weeks and there she was so all hopeful for you xx