If TTC # 2 has turned you into a nut job this thread is for you! (Part 3)

[fedupofrainydays]

Still here, still ttc, still POAS, still symptom spotting, still counting days, still temping, still shagging and still absolutely nutty!!!

Sounds promising sebs. When are you testing? 7 dpo also here and nothing to report. Short stabbing pain last night in uterus area but think was just cos I stood up too quickly!!
Not hopeful for me this month. Tired of ttc to be honest, and the emotional roller coaster it brings.

2be how are you feeling today? Hope a bit better. Hugs to you xx

Fed up I think I will wait until 10dpo. If my symptoms diminish I might even just wait for AF to turn up as symptom spotting is so annoying. Over analysis is the mother of all evils.

Big hugs chick, if I thought it would give you a BFP this month I would happily give you all my baby dust. You've waited long enough now xxxxx

Ah thanks sebs. I think it's all just luck and I'm not very lucky with #2!

Hi all
I just read through the whole thread?!?!?
I laughed I cried and laughed again and hope u guys don't mind me imposing but I need some pals right now!
I find TTC has become a daunting process especially with my history - I was pregnant last year me and DH wer elated then I was struck with severe hyperemises and was hospitalised for over 5weeks I had just centered a new job and had pilling bills after problem after problem DH decided a termination was for the best...subsequently I destroyed our lives we knew it was the most horrid decision ever it almost tore is apart as I feel into depression lost my job and became reserved even from my son who's 8 b4 getting pregnant I had removed the implant and was actively trying for 2months and BFP on the 3rd.
We have now decided to try again I think he givung in because he can't bare to see me suffer anymore as I constantly punish myself for the Mistake I made.
We have been TTC 3+ months and can only begin to think God is punishing me.
I'm praying 4 a BFP for all and wish u all the luck on this tiresome journey that will test is all xxxxxxxxx

Hi bianca
Wow... That must have been the toughest decision ever to make but you cannot believe you are being punished. You aren't. If you believe in God I would ask for forgiveness if you haven't already. I don't know if this helps but a bit of my story to share...
My mum had an abortion when she broke up from her first husband. Turned out it was twins. she married my dad and moved away from the area making a new set of friends where i grew up. she didnt tell people about it but two of her friends seperately told her about dreams they had where my mum had twin boys with dark skin (ex husband was mediterreanean) and another person handed her a book one day - i think about aborted and miscarried babies - in that the babies go to straight to heaven. I also happened to read a book after my mc that said the same thing. It was about a little boy who kept talking about how he had met his sister when he 'died' on the operating table. His parents had never told him about the miscarriage (he was only 4). It gave me comfort in that I hope I will meet my lost baby in heaven one day. And same goes for you if you believe.

Hi fed
Thanks for the response reading your account of a similar situation gives me a lil solace!
I prayed for foregiveness but sadly had my own hangups with the fact i never challenged DH decision when I clearly knew from the get go I had the power to I think my spirit was weak with hyperemises and other responvibilities(that I now know wer unimportant) knowing I had to stay in hospital for the duration of the pregnancy threw me...in my prayers I vow to be stronger and hope that baby is in heaven xxx

Sorry to dampen the mood everyone else this is a new start a second chance x
Ps I have exhausted my supply of opk's not sure if I'm using them right trying not to reorder but dear Google keeps reminding me Amazon is available haha

We aren't here to judge you and you don't need to explain your reasons but you need to forgive yourself and your husband too if you are going to ttc successfully again. You had your reasons and you clearly regret that decision but you can't beat yourself up about it forever. I'm sure your little bean is happy and healthy up in heaven.

I so hate the 2 ww. One week down another to go. It's odd as you can't do anything, just deprive yourself of things you love like bottles of red wine and countless coffees and wait, wait, wait!

Hey guys would it be ok if I came back to join you all! After a bfp 2 weeks ago now had miscarriage number 4 so back on with the trying but I feel I am now insanely mental. I am sorry to seesone old names still here too. Xxyo all x

Welcome Bianca. Bless you, that story is so heart wrenching and I certainly am not judging you. I have read stories if women with hype remodels begging for terminations, so I suspect you are not alone in your decision. I also don't think anyone is punishing you. TTC is just a waiting game for the right month and the right healthy egg and derm combination.

I am posting from my bed as I have had a dull pain in my stomach all afternoon and evening and it wore me down. I've just woken up and feel much better. To be honest when I'd heard of implantation pain feeling like AF was coming I would say today was closer to that pain than the strong pain I had on Saturday night.

If I am not pregnant this month I'm going to make an appointment with the doc as I'm very overdue a smear having had treatment for abnormal cells pre- sebby and I don't think I should be getting these random stomach pains otherwise.

Tsk, phone helpfully changing the word for me hyperemesis that should have read!

Omg dildoos I often wonder about you! So sorry to hear about the mc. How long is that between this and your 3rd? I've missed you but was secretly hoping you were off having been successful ttc #2, which I guess you were until now. So sorry dildoos :( big hugs for you xxx

Ps. I think it's only me still kicking around since you were last here. Cycle 9 since mc now and nada. Nada.

I'm wrong actually, 2be and 3piece* were here too. And probably others I've missed! Sorry ladies I just feel I've been here an eternity and no bfp news of my own to share, ever :(

Hi all dildoos sorry for your loss stories like your own remind how foolish I was and hope things get better xxxx

Sebs thanks hunny xxx message to all I'm going loco --- I have used the opk for a over a week getting the same dark lines every time so I'm unable to differentiate between them so confused can any1 recommend a different method or tool?!?!? /emo/thl/11.gif

Bianca I couldn't make the cheap strips show me anything but the faintest of lines. I ended up using clearblue digital opks which you can use in FMU and the two months I've been using them it's detected ovulation each time that had concurred with my bbt graph. So I would recommend.

8dpo today feeling bloated, gassy and my stomach feels tender and keep getting little sharp twangs coming from it. Have done an HPT in FMU and negative. Going to keep testing every morn with cheapies but won't waste a clearblue Digi unless I get a pink line on a IC or miss my period.

Have you had an implantation 'dip' sebs? I've not. My temp is still going up! Also gassy and bloated (can't wear one of my pencil skirts as too tight round waist) but sure this happened last month too so not reading into it here!!

No I don't think so. I'll try and link to my chart again;
www.fertilityfriend.com/home/a296f

Can you link yours fed up? You just get the link through the 'share' button.

Hi ladies.

Hope you don't think I'm ignoring you, except I kind of am. This months experiment is to not think about it too much. I will be popping back on every now and then to see how you are all doing (and back in a few weeks to share my BFP news of course )

Welcome Bianca. No judgement, only support here. Whatever brought you here, you are in the same position as we are. Fingers crossed you're not kept waitng much longer.

Welcome back dildoos. Yes I was here! Am an original nutjob - been preg but back here too. I'm really sorry you've been through another mc. I've 'only' had one and I'm not over it. I have no idea how you're coping. Big hugs.

Sebsmummy - I hope it is implantation pains. Hope you get a BFP in then next few days.

When are you going to test fedup?

2be I totally get it and honestly, I was thinking I might take a step back myself if I'm not successful this cycle. I hate the hope and crash mentality. Look after yourself xxx

Well I'm having a lot of watery discharge now soaking my pants, really can't help but get my hopes up.

2be I get how you feel. I did step back a bit after missing the milestone of being pregnant by my EDD. But in a way it helps to get it down as lack of RL people to talk to about it to be honest. I will no doubt be rock bottom this time again in a week.

Sebs - try not to get too hopeful although that does sound good. I'm ignoring all my 'symptoms' as history shows they turn out to be nothing!! We are so much more aware of our bodies when ttc so notice every little thing but I admit yours does sound promising!

Just incredibly hungry here today but could be many reasons!!

Testing def no earlier than Friday but am going to try wait as spent a fortune on tests recent months.

Will see if I can link chart later. My temp is just a steady rise...

Hope all having a good day.

Lots of luck to you fed up xxxx

Sorry what's FMU?!?!?