Doll ? i am desperately sorry that is all so unfair. 
big hug. I hope you are ok. Also i love the fact you work ?in the field?. I?m afraid i would say that if i could because it just sounds so cool!
Nelly ? what brilliant news! that?s really fabulous. I would love to sit and watch the process of my eggs and roy?s sperm fertilising and I would be mum cheering them on from the sidelines. I?m not sure whether they are all in darkened rooms though so that may make it impossible. Obviously your decision but I would put 2 back in not because I?m desperate for twins (i am) but it gives you more of a chance that one will take. I was really quite surprised when i looked at the stats at my clinic how much difference there is in success rates with 2 v 1 embryos. Also, great to hear about how EC.
Art ? i ?m glad the counselling went well. You and MrArt have had a bonkers few days ? it?s enough to stress anyone out.
Pout ? i think we have had this convo before but i have had moments where i have thought ?shit i don?t want to be pregnant? (when i thought something was trying to implant). It really prayed on my mind because i thought that was a very strange reaction. I think it?s because conception and pregnancy has become such a negative connotation in our heads and I don?t think it?s really about whether we truly want a baby, I think it?s more about the fear of failure and heartbreak especially when the stakes seem so much higher with ivf. It?s a self protection thing. That?s fab you are at the top of the ivf list. Take every day as it comes, do what you need to do in the present and don?t try and think about the future (says she who keeps wondering who will be at my funeral if i have no kids).
Euro ? being unexplained is my biggest struggle with going forward with ivf and I keep being told and also reading that ivf really must be ?last resort?. That pisses me off because I don?t know when the last resort is but I have really got to the point of ?i give up?. We have had operations, nearly all the tests under the sun, lots of sex at the right time and nothing else can be done. For me now, ivf is going to have to be the ultimate diagnosis tool and that?s how I?m going to look at it. This is where we will see what happens. The thing is, unexplained could be just a series of multi factorial issues such as hostile mucus, elevated nk cells and sperm morph issues - all of which adds up to zero pregnancy. My friends? friend tried for 6 years, totally unexplained and ivf proved successful and it just seemed that sperm and egg just needed a helping hand in meeting. That?s all it was but they wouldn?t have discovered this until ivf.
Madness ? you torture yourself! The trailer was hideous , I don?t know how you put yourself through it. Watch ?we need to talk about Kevin? ? that is good at putting people off having kids 
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Cosmos ? i?m not sure I have that bible book in my library. Will have to check it out.
Princess ? fabulous news. how exciting! I must say i can?t imagine having that moment, i just hope one day i will be proved wrong.
Thrush has got me with a vengenance. Bloody sore and itchy , people must be wondering why i?m walking funny. Annoying as i?ve been so good with taking probiotics. Fed up with my bod. But good news is i have a date before xmas for surgery on my lump.
Big waves to everyone else.