Morning all,
sar sorry that you are still feeling scared and anxious. These are very normal feelings. I haven't been through IVF, so there's no way I can give you any sensible advice. Not to mention how meaningless it would seem. But I do know the feelings of needing, not just wanting to be a mum, and you are so close so it must seem really scary because you are on a knife edge at the moment. (sorry if that's sounds overly dramatic). As Artemis says, whatever happens you will be fine. You are strong. You are so positive and you give us all a good kick up the bum with a big positivity boot, so I hope we can help you out right back. Everything is looking in your favour - good embie, mayan massaged inards ready for an embie, new and positive doctor, great mindset, healthy body and mind. The odds are all in your favour. Wishing and hoping for you xxxx Great news that you found a hotel for the meet up. It will be lovely for you and DH to have a break too. Big hugs Sar, we're all rooting for you xxx
artemis and critter great that you have signed the petition!
artemis critter and gin yes those men were utter knobs (for want of a better word) and it was hard to try and fathom what they wanted to add to the debate besides tits are nice, I like tits, I want to see tits in Newspapers and podiums, I am man, I like tits. SIGH I think I waved the word libertarian under their noses, they googled and then said, "uh-huh-uh-huh (imagine chimp laugh) yeah that's what we are we're libertarians, that means that we want freedom of everything. That means we can keep strip clubs because it would be against libertarianism. Haha feminists you lose" They hadn't really thought that through as freedom of everything would lead to a very horrible society with lots of people being exploited. As you can see I'm still One of them came back this morning with, yes I agree that we should agree to disagree. I guess that's the difference between feminists and libertarians. WHAT? And then said they are like the north and south on a compass, meaning that east and west are right wing and left wing. WHAT? Hey-ho. And one of them has a daughter. So Ok Friday morning rant OVER.
Well, not quite....
artemis That 'you haven't lived until you've had a baby screaming all night' get's right on my tits. My mum has made comments along those lines, my friends with babies make those kind of comments, even a bloody estate agent gave me a lecture about that... I often think, you haven't lived until you've dealt with the possibility that you can't have kids and you have to immerse yourself in books to find the meaning of life without children in a quest to find yourself and find some sort of inner peace. And be tormented by the fact that you can have children and there is nothing wrong yet your body is choosing not to do this, so you are stuck in TTC limbo. Anyway, I've been woken through the night every night for most summers in Brighton by screaming sea gulls, tramps, drunks, crying horny cats and have had many a delirious day at work having not slept - does this count I wonder?
But do keep coming here for support. We need you too. You are very witty, sharp and bright and we need you too. We all know how you feel. I've had to do my brain stuff to cope because I was a wibbling, sniveling, looney mess. I think I may have hidden it a little on here because I didn't want anyone to know how bad I really was. Poor DH has to cope with a lot.
I totally don't need to do my anger exercises this morning (which I've named anger time out original - I had to stop an argument mid flow last night to say, I'm going to my office to do anger time out and I will return when I'm done because this will get out of hand otherwise - it worked a treat - I was tres impressed with myself)
Oh and I'm thinking more and more that my purpose in life is to explore my feminist side a bit more as well as the philosophy. Engaging in debate the past few days and getting stuck into reading has taken my mind right off TTC.
Gin I'm very sorry that you are on the pre-IVF roller-coaster at the moment. As I said to Sar, it must be an even more heightened TTC experience because you know that a good embie is going back in. I am glad that I can't see the embie each month and then a period because i think that would make me feel so much worse. I'm sure that we are making them but that they keep failing, hence the occasional brown snot and sometimes delayed periods that I got before the brown diet. I am really hopeful for your next round. Hope you have a nice weekend planned.
Cosmos I loved your mind flip technique. I am thinking that i may treat myself to some official Kabat-Zinn for my kindle so that I can keep myself busy at the PiLs. Pension revision (boo) and feminism and philosophy and mindfulness (yay) :)
Rabbit I think I felt a bit like that after the failed second brown diet cycle. I think I was so excited about not having tried for 5 months because of weird periods and brown diet abstinence and seeing all these positive things happening in my body that I really had built my expectations up for an instadiff. I have no expectations of this month at all and like you just feel as if this is it until they offer some other form of help next year. I feel neutral. I'm sorry you are so tired and hope that you too have a nice weekend planned.
Right, I seem to have angrily and manically abused my keyboard to get this all out, apologies for not name checking all of you. I do think about you all on a regular basis and wonder when the next BFP will be. You are all great. Even though I haven't met you all I know that I will remember each and everyone of you in years to come and the kind words and support you provided to get through this truly shit time. Ladies you are all amazing and inspiration and tenacious. Have a great Friday xxxx
A huge feminist tail shaking at all of you (sort of like a huge big peacock display) xxx