Hi again, twice in one day! I'm getting my mojo back 
Tha is for the hugs rumours, you are all skin and bone, another one on a diet? congrats on finishing all your work stuff.
So many sad faces on this thread 
I guess the thread will peak and dip. The second round for most ladies seems to be proving tough, I'm sending loads of love to Buddha, 4ever, monkey and blackrocked. You will get there my lovelies. We are supporting you all the way.
Moon, darling moon... Tears ran freely reading your posts. U wish I could do something to help. Stories like your really make me think of being a surrogate. However two emcs puts pay to that. So all I can do is offer an ear when you need it, hugs and hair strokes too. My period before conceiving dolly was exactly as you described. Something is happening to your body, we just need to work out what! Chin up my lovely...
Blue, barbiemobile might be gone and a citroen c4 might not have the same effect but I can come and help kick some butts...dh has just interrupted me to read your email. I am so so proud, your sons will grow up to be just as proud as their mum as we all are. Keep going, there is a rainbow at the end of the grey skies x
I'm on my phone so I can't check for mistakes to I apologise for the crappy posting!
So much more to say but I'll do more personals tomorrow.
Just a little to explain my absence...
While in uk ended up in a&e with Henry. Never heard a baby scream so much. Turned out to be a stomach flu type thing..a few days later dolly had to go to doctors as she started blinking to excess. Worrying times, suggestions of ticks, epilepsy and other motor neuron stuff.
Back home in France Henry got the flu on top of the stomach thing, dolly got it, then me. It wasn't pretty!
Dolly started school and they mentioned blinking, back and forth to docs. It seems to be easing ( touches wood). Both kids nearly over flu.
Our car has fucked up again, sorry for swearing but it's a death trap. Found myself in the middle of a major roundabout unable to move and just had to brace for impact. Fortunately a kind person stopped and we manged to get it to garage where I threw the keys and broke down in tears with two crying babies. It was the final straw. France is beautiful but oh so tough, every day is a struggle. I feel like I dont belong. It daunts me. I'm usually in control but I've been totally floored.?
Everything takes so long to do and it's such a challenge.
In top of this we have to prepare for Korea. I'm trying to sort out an Internet business to keep me busy and to give me a purpose. Both children will be at school over there and I need to regain my identity. I feel boring, dowdy and generally lost.
The school on the island hasn't enough space for all the families due to arrive with the project, same for Housing so all my spare time has been on the internet forwarding and composing emails, so forgive me for not writing here. I have missed you all....