TTC for 10+ months, part 9

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Ladies, number 9. The lucky one.

lemon I really am so sorry, its heartbreaking and the waiting is so hard, my fingers are crossed that everything will be ok. If you want to chat or ask questions as sadly I have been in this position I'll pm you my number, super big hugs to you and Mr Lemons x

Ladies I am sorry I rather posted and ran before going on holiday for 3 weeks, with no access to Internet. I have just seen your post lemon and I am so so sorry, that is terrible news.

lemon so so sorry. You and Mr Lemon are in my thoughts. X

Oh and lemon I think this happened to izzybizzy? With a good outcome. I will hope with everything.

Will catch up with people when can. I'm at the tail end of a very long training day.

oh my god lemons - no. I am so very sorry and I?m just hoping and praying that they have made a mistake like they need with one of the 10plussers, Issy. Life is so fucking unfair considering how long it has taken. I am thinking of you.

Will catch up with others later. Last night was fine. Was in a twitch about nothing.

joyce I got myself into a state this year with a friend who actually wanted to talk about paint colours

Lemon I am so sorry to hear that. I really hope that you're ok, thats so unfair. It will happen for you eventually I am positive.

Shit lemons I am so sorry. You so don't deserve this at all. I am thinking of you and send you so much love.

oh lemons just saw your post (I still lurk here sometimes, hope you don't mind) and am so sorry to hear that.

but... I had a scan at 6+0 by dates, following bleeding, and there was no heartbeat. Hospital said it was too early to see one at that stage and were not at all worried. Next scan was at 7+4 and there was a hb. 6+4 is only a few days after 6+0 (and maybe not even that if you conceived/implanted a little later than you thought?) so I would have thought still borderline for seeing a hb. So sorry if this turns out to be false hope and just adding to your stress but I really hope not - I will have all fingers/toes crossed for your rescan next week. Take care.

No! No! No! No! lemon my thoughts and non-denominational prayers are with you.

Oh lemon I'm so sorry. I will have my fingers firmly crossed that this is a false alarm. It is still early so there is hope but I have been there and my heart goes out to you at this utterly shit time.

Oh lemon I'm so sorry. I will have my fingers firmly crossed that this is a false alarm. It is still early so there is hope but I have been there and my heart goes out to you at this utterly shit time.

Lemon - sweetheart. . We are all here to hold your hand and send super big hugs. I guess at the moments you are in shock. Whatever happens next, be very very kind to yourself. No going to work or doing stuff. Will be thinking about you! xxx

Oh lemons, I'm so so sorry. It's so fucking unfair. I really really hope that they have got it wrong. Massive hugs. Am thinking of you and mr lemons

Shit no no no lemon. We won't allow it. :( I can't believe this. Like others said, izzy went through the same thing and mini too by the sounds of it. But maybe it's too hard to get your hopes up. I hope so much it turns out to be one of those ^^ stories, but we are right here beside you whenever you need us. Sending all our love, any sticky lemon cakes we can find, and the biggest hugs to you and MrLemon.

Thanks for all the support, lovely ladies. I know it ain't over. But with my excellent HCG numbers at 16dpo, it definitely was doing well then. So it just delayed/stopped since. So no real hope. Just waiting a week to give a miracle a chance... Will be back on here now and again, but it all just hurts like hell at this point in time...

Oh lemons, I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. Hoping and praying that it is just too early and your little miracle comes fighting through next week.

Just to add to what mini and others have said, most clinics don't scan until at least 7 weeks because there is no guarantee of picking up a heartbeat before then.

Thinking of you xx

Still keeping everything crossed for you lemon. Much love xxx

Am feeling a bit frustrated here. Having decided to go with the other clinic, we can't have our fertility assessment for another 3 weeks. Then a consent appointment a week later. This means, as flare starts around week 3, we won't be cycling until oct/nov. and getting very close to the wedding . And trying to figure out Stag and Hen nights getting increasingly complex.

NHS appointment was useful last night but I'll try and post about everything tonight.

Have been having odd womble pains that I convinced myself were meaningful at 10 DPO yesterday. But looks like I'm about to start spotting so I guess not.

Not a happy 10+ thread just now. We need our tail feathers fluffing.

Hi Nelly, how frustrating. Ps have realised I havent heard of flare protocol if thats something that starts in week 3. Hats off to you for doing it all plus wedding too.

Lemons thinking of you.

Ps this is carebear, felt like a name change. Cant really recall why I came up with carebear, but it was back when I was on threads where we used to wish each other babydust. Say no more.

Cosmos you don't sound like a Carebear, I always read it as ironical ironic.

Nelly tricky. If it makes you feel any better, I just spent all morning sorting out a professional thing that would have made any IVF this year tricky, only to find it's not going to happen anyway due to someone elses time constraints which they didn't bother looking into before. From my reading it seems that some clinics use LP for their own convenience and timetabling. Natural cycles are a bitch.

Lemon thinking of you.

Argh nelly how frustrating for you. That's a lot to think about before your wedding. Not sure what flare is.

lemons - crossing fingers and hoping for you.

cosmos - I pm'd you on your Carebear address. Shall I forward again or do you still pick up Care stuff?

I hope everyone else is ok.

Still thinking of you lemon, and wishing with all my might that some of the positive energy being channeled towards you now can help your little bean hang in there.

cosmos I like the new name. Never thought of you as a fluffy carebear either!

doll that sounds like sod's law. How annoying.

nelly I have heard the term flare protocol but don't know what it means either. Can you call the other clinic and ask them if they have any cancellations if they can move your appointment closer? The squeaky wheel gets the grease, and all that. Can't hurt to hassle them ask? Glad the NHS appointment was useful.

I did my first gonal f injection last night and it was easy, didn't hurt a bit. What a relief, and thank heaven for Youtube demonstration videos.

Well not sure I can explain well. I will google later! But basically you take two lots of drugs at once. You start with something like the pill for a few days, then stimms then you add in Down regging drugs at the same time, or maybe just after? But just for a few days. The reason LP is so long is that actually the DR drugs give you an initial "flare" of FSH which is why you have to take them for 2 weeks in LP. In flare, you piggy back off this boost which means less artificial drugs. Or something .

www.resolve.org/diagnosis-management/infertility-diagnosis/poor-responder.html

If you go to the treatment section then bottom of the 4th para, that mentions BCP starting in advance of your period.