TTC for 10+ months, part 9

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Ladies, number 9. The lucky one.

Tieu - really sorry about 2 x a* announcements. But I reckon 2 at once is better then spread out so all the anger goes in one big blow. It's just a crap feeling those isn't it? Big hugs.

Pout - that mutual freind is an uncaring idiot! I agree that what he said is pure coincidence.

Hello to Doll!!

Princess - thanks for the coffee cake - I like the way you added WALNUTS to it . And the mocha froting is most delish. Good luck for your sesh this afternoon and well done you for doing somthing proactive to help you along the way to babydom.

Thanks to everyone for the reassurance about BFN. I am a daft bat! Mild back cramps mostly to the left have started up in the last hour. Am mostly scared this is a new 'problem' eg severe endo. Oh how the mind does run away. Slap slap slappety slap!

Hello to everyone else.

at doll yippee, glad you found it, give it a try tonight! MrC is used to seeing me covered in blobs of the stuff before bed, very alluring!

at sarlat and princess and the walnut-festooned coffee cake... and the 'mocha froting' - isn't 'froting' something rude? or is that 'frotting'?

princess outfit sounds perfect. Very relaxed glam.

nelly soak up that sun girl!

joycep so sorry about the appointment times

nelly enjoy your trip

teu I think a cattle prod might be better than a stick, sorry about the announcements, its totally crap

frannie I think it was nelly who asked about this for her honeymoon so she might be the one who can answer also euro commented on it too. i've just noticed nelly has responded, as part of my treatment I'm on Hydroxychloriquine?? Which is a malarial drug and I would stay on it for part of my pregnancy if it ever happens

doll don't pick the spots otherwise you'll have scabs and they are difficult to cover up, honey is good for face/spots

sar I think we are cycle buddies, sorry for the bfn when will you test again??

coco you can get a BBT from Amazon for £4.99 I think, I sometimes take mine a bit after I have woken up. I just keep a record on my computer. pre ov i'm 36.65/80 then I usually drop to about 36.40/50 for ov then up to around 37.00 post ov

pout does the cretin who made that comment have kids?? Maybe he was secretly thinking about himself or may he was just being a twat?? Bet he has a tiny penis though :)

critter you need to set yourself up as an alternative beauty therapist rummages under bathroom sink I always get spots along my jaw line

princess hope all goes well with your appointment

not much to report from my corner of doom, did meet a patient who has a grand daughter thanks to Shehatas immune treatment. I'm sure it would work if only I could get pregnant to test it. Have had a few emails from MIL, I think she might be slowly getting it

sar its only natural, I keep having cramps on my left side and I think yipee, then I get all emotional and crawl back into my box :(

Glad you having a good time Nelly

X-post Princess yes we are still sorbeting. He likes using the little electric citrus juicer. He bakes with his Dad, I cook a lot but I've never been a baker. I don't like the precision needed nor am I all that interested in the end result. Fresh fish for dinner tonight but I'm distracted by my interest in bedtime. God no not shagging, it's for the sudocreme....

pout your 'friend' is an knobber. I agree with the others, that's no premonition, that's just him being envious and nasty.

How did it go this afternoon princess are you all floaty and zen now? I hope he was impressed by your rather fab sounding outfit

sarlat sorry the monthly mind fuck got to you. FX that it'll be a big juicy round pink and blue striped positive when you next test. (that sounds odd but I'm posting it any way)

doll like buzzy says resist the squeeze. I do it every time without fail and have the scars to prove it is a bad idea.

The giggles made me google frotting:
"Frot is a slang term derived from frottage (ult. from the French verb frotter, "to rub")"

SNIGGER SNIGGER FROT FROT SNIGGER

Buzz - my bubble is a little burst but may do another test Friday if ERTD doesn't grace me with ther presence before then - but I bet she will. It's nice to have a cycle buddy. Fingers crossed that your left sided cramps turn out to be a bean digging in deep for the duration. How does this 2ww compare to the times when you became pregnant? More metalling - sorry.

sar the first time I fell pregnant it was the first month of trying so didn't really symptom spot, didn't really think much about the 2ww. I had now idea what I should be looking for, I had a bit of spotting 8/9 dpo and though AF was due, it was only a couple of days later that I thought I should test, the 2nd time again I didn't really notice any symptoms and had spotting at 10dpo, felt a little emotional but that is more because I tested and got a bfn. I also ovulated later in the month back then. Now they seem never ending, the first week I am hopeful but then 8dpo I notice my mood changes and I get really emotional like now :(

sar you are right, cycle buddies is a nice warm feeling. Look up Princess makes me feel a little 'normal' like I'm on one of those threads were the possible is just around the next corner. I know I'm such a freak even here with those who have waited and waited. I still have that tiny hope and never was even aware of such places on the Internet until these last months. Good luck sar and buzzy We should have at least one more before this thread closes, beat the stats right rabbit ?

X-post buzzy I have my toes crossed.

Thank you for the reassuring messages ladies. You never fail to amaze me with your support and kindness! IUI nurse said that I needed to check with docs to see if any vaccines were 'live' or if I needed anti-malarials, as that would mean 3 months off trying. She looked at me as if 'I thought you wanted a baby...why do you want a holiday!'. Maybe she's right but hard to say that after 2 and a half (nearly) years you need to stop putting your life on hold at some point!
Enjoy your hols nelly- you goddamn deserve it! Rabbit- I feel you on the September fear-not sure I can remember how to do it. Have a fab night away. Princess- no fear, both my updiffed BFs (one on her fourth) swear they have no EWCM! Critter GL with the appointment and care hope this month isn't a painful one.
Loves to all xx

I am soooo bad at mumsnetting.....posted and hadn't refreshed screen to show next 2 pages. You ladies move so fast! Anyway thanks for all the other advice. Sar you made me do a little inward breath gaspy sob! Thank you for being so kind. His mum is being amazing, I'm in awe. Hits home how hard being a mum is, from preconception to way beyond. Sorry it was a BFN today, your symptoms do sound promising and it is early. Everything crossed for you.

Teu- so sorry for the shitty announcements. My 2 A* moment was absolutely heartbreaking, I cried more tears than I ever had over any relationship break ups. However, I've now realised that it was the worst scenario in ttc terms, so it couldn't get any worse!
Doll- feeling you, as I have pcos acne around ovulation. I find wrapping ice in a tea towel and using as a compress really helps when red and angry. I do often have to ehem get rid because otherwise they throb massively but I know I shouldn't as I have scars too.
On that lovely note......

Joycep -did you mention recently that they picked up ureaplasma infection on your DH's SA? If so have a read of this forum link, especially Agate's bit. A lot of this stuff you will already know but she mentioned ureaplasma. Sorry if it's no help to you but just thought would show you.

www.fertilityfriends.co.uk/forum/index.php?topic=259188.0

Frannie I totally agree about keeping good stuff in your life. All fine and well for the nurse to look disapproving, but keeping everything on hold for years is just shit. Planning good things is the best way of making it all bearable, I think!

Waves and hugs to all in the tent. Especially buzzy. And teu for the A* announcements, GRRR. Apologies for not keeping upto date. The new job is fairly full on and I collapse on the couch (fast asleep) by 10pm every day...

Doll you are most def not a freak, you are very funny and make me laugh, and obv very loverly warm and caring. 've realised the last few days I wont ever give up hoping and trying either.

wow its very quiet on here, well I've come home to spotting on CD25, feel very crampy so AF is going to come early :(

buzzy hopefully not AF coming early but something else, fingers crossed
And sar hope testing tomorrow give BFP.

Frannie you shouldn't need any live vaccines I don't think - where in SE Asia are you going and I can check it out for you.

Thanks to everyone for thoughts on laparoscopy from when I last posted on Tuesday (can't believe how quickly this thread moves!) sorry I didn't get back to post but was trying to get lots of work done for days missed today and tomorrow. Had Lap this morning - was ok actually - some pain around scars (3 little ones), am a bit woozy from GA and painkillers, but not too bad -joy I think you were asking and you have a few crap dates coming up - it is really ok. I have a totally blocked left tube - they tried to unblock it in theatre unsuccessfully and the right is fine. Otherwise all looked ok. So when produce egg on left = wasted egg. Although gynae still thought increased risk of ectopic on left (how the sperm would get there if dye couldn't I don't know?!! ). So plan is to see this cycle out, do stimulated cycle next month with tracking and if Right ovary dominant, trigger and do IUI. She felt 3 more stimulated cycles was worth it. And if no success, then she thinks we should consider IVF. I guess because there's no evidence I ovulate on my own and can't keep having ovulation stimulation forever....

love the sudacreme tips - doll hope they clear up on time - I too use tea tree oil with good effect - why is it always the chin?! I've also started getting spots on my back, very unattractive I had a salicylic acid 'stick' once that was really good too.

princess how was woo?
sorry about the announcements.
I'm missing people but my post anaesthetic brain is a bit fuzzy, very sorry.
off to zzzz

Just a quick sympathetic hug for buzzy. It's not over yet. And a very gentle post-op hug for mellow. Sorry about the blocked tube though .

Spent a lovely day in the sun. Had an afternoon SFF and am now having a very good glass of the local white. Went for Tap-Ass () for lunch and a small child cried all through and I thought thank god that's not my problem .

Waves to all. Still crossing fingers for BFPs

mellow its too late for implantation bleed :( i'm 13dpo, sorry they couldn't unblock the tube, did they think it was worth trying again later on. I think sometimes the other ovary makes up for the one not performing. Make sure you rest up

nelly have a glass for me :)

Ha Nelly totally get that. I went for pub lunch with a playground, was sooooo miserable because of all the families and young children but had simultaneous thoughts of how tedious the constant entertainment seemed!
mellow Thailand.
Hope you're having lots of post-op attention and that all heals quickly. Sounds like you have a plan though, which is always good.
Sorry about AF buzzy
lemons don't work too hard please!

Hello to Lemons!!

Mellow - glad the lap wasn't too ouchy but sorry to hear about the blocked tube. This in itself won't prevent you getting pregnant as you know but it still a little unsettling to get news like this. Big but gentle hugs!

Buzzy - sorry for the cramps. I guess you know your body well so I assume this means that AF is def on the way? Bit I am keeping my fingers crossed for you. Hopefully won't show.

I am out this month! Have bright red blood up at the cervix! I am confused though as this period appears to be 2-4 days early. But as I wasn't tracking ovulation this month, I could be wrong. Plus I still have the metallic taste. But there is no point in clinging on to the fact that this might be an implantation bleed as it wouldn't be bright red. And, BFP's just don't happen to me. Sorry - I know I am being a miserable old bat! Just got sooooo sucked in this month - again! I mean cramps at 9 and 10 dpo with funny taste and zingy nipple sensations? I ask you.......anyone else in the world would be pregnant with those symptoms! Sorry, I'll shut up now.

Working late so just a quick post.
Hugs to you buzzy hope it's not AF.

I bought some clearblue OPK at lunch today and peed on one in the loos at work.
It said O not , bit bummed because I have ewcm and weird aching pains in the right area, so I thought maybe the post-mc cycles might be different. Apparently you're more fertile for six months after a mc, but that could be bollocks. Was planning a rare mid-week shag but guess the late working and lack of smiley scraps that idea...

Going to eat some of this lemon drizzle to cheer me up.

MrsM - goodness, well done with the lap but sorry about the blocked tube. I don't understand how they can see a tube is blocked did they put dye up there whilst you were under? Anyway, I am pleased there is no endo or anything. Do you feel ok about the plan?

Frannie - I hope your nephew is getting on ok as can be. I am afraid I don't know anything about injections. But thailand...so envious!

oh sarlat - thank you for that link. I don't think MRJoy had ureasplasma, his was something else a bit weird. His ureasplasma came back negative. Thank you anyway. . Also, I'm really crossing fingers for you - it really sounds like something is going on. wOuldn't it be amazing if you got an ironic bfp. Keeping everything crossed. And fancy us being nearly birthday twins.

Buzzy - oh I am sorry about the spotting. Massive hug. It's just so difficult isn't month after month.

Teu - sorry about the double A* announcements. What a double blow . I find it difficult to handle the single one.

THanks for the sympathy with the dates. Blurgh. I should be grateful I have got them. I have been a bit melodramatic about the b-day one, along the vain of - "I always thought I would die on my birthday!". MrJ got a bit cross. I think i need hypnotherapy to deal with the fear of being put to sleep.
Anyway, for those who asked my lump is a benign tumour and i had it looked at 4 years ago. But it has got a lot bigger and I think it is now affecting the nerves. My GP said it would never become cancerous but Dh's friend had a similar thing and it turned cancerous last year. I wish they would just remove it (preferably whilst I'm under for the lap) but if it's not cancerous, it is considered aesthetic so they won't remove.

I'm sure i've missed loads of posts but sending lots of hugs and good lucks to those approaching d-day.

X posts. Sorry to hear that sar. You say things so well and I wish I could articulate something to help you through the disappointment.
We all try and stay positive and lighthearted about it but that only makes the ERTD harder to deal with.

Hugs

oh bottoms, Sarlat you posted whilst i was writing. What is going on with these odd things with you? I wish you could get a blood test to see if you have any hcg in your system. I mean metallic taste and cramps?? I can't remember whether implantation bleeding is bright red or brownish.../? I am sorry if this is AF. I was desperately hoping for you.

Coco - I always thought you were more fertile in the months after a mc but it depends on the person. I know 3 people who took a year to conceive after a m/c and one of those people conceived all her 3 kids in the first month of trying...apart from after a m/c. So it really it depends. Anyway I would get down to biz anyway even if there isn't a smiley face.