Hello ladygee how lovely to have you still near us :) And formal actual congratulations to lemon. This is such awesome news. Hooray!! Yes like princess I want to know what your affirmations were, haha!
Welcome back from hols princess. I do totally understand the need to take a break from TTC, I was there very recently, albeit my recent news has rather changed that 
. For what it's worth, I believe you will get your sticky BFP very soon. You are young still, you know you can get pregnant. And much as I hate cliches, the New House New Baby may be just what you need. A friend did have some problems with early miscarriages and aspirin seemed to solve that for her, just putting it out there. But otherwise, I think at your stage the plan to just enjoy life and keep busy is a good one. Maybe we can start a different thread in chat, where we don't talk about TTC at all, but we can all still keep in touch??!
Oh rabbit I am very proud of you for being strong at the docs and formulating a plan. I am feeling much calmer myself having taken back an element of control. By the way, I think the terminology of fragile eggs is good; it helps me to think of them that way; and that with care and lots of luck, they just might hold out to do the job :) You are right though, it's a bloody miracle anyone conceives ever even if my overly fertile SiL did so on first cycle, the cow. Did you ask about counselling?
sar I forgot to say earlier, don't give a second thought to DH being an older Dad. I think age is so less obvious these days for a start, and families are whatever you make them. So unless he's driving around in a Rover wearing a flat cap (in which case, you should start calling him Grandad until he stops 
) then I reckon you are alright.
mrsmellow - about this stress making us better people. There is one thing I can say for certain, MrN and I have come together so much through this. We've opened up and talked like we never have in the past 12 years! And I wouldn't change that for anything, actually.
mrsden you and MrD arguing over nuts made me chuckle. I do think the more hospital appointments we have though, the more MrN tows the line. He's witnessed dildo-cam and my AMH blood test so far. It slightly makes me sad though, that before I didn't even tell him when I was ovulating, and now I've had conversations with docs (in front of him) about length and strength of period, spotting, cervical mucus and on and on. Although still nobody has asked us if we are doing it in the right hole 
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Thank you all for your custard stories . I feel like a poor Domestic Goddess when I confess I've never tried to make it. But buzzy I'm slightly disappointed that the line was taken from a book title. I still love her though
Re booking the HSG artemis. I think my hospital say the first Thursday after your period ends, which I guess could be up to say CD12. Yes the instructions I got said it was due to the risk of ectopic. Despite the obvious irony, I'd say it's not worth the risk of having it too late in the month; but if you are sure you ovulate later than normal, definitely lie. They can't see your ovaries on the x-ray unless they for some reason scan you first. They will ask you to confirm you've not had unprotected sex since your last period. So if you can try to squeeze it in on say day 13 you would be before you ovulate hence no risk of ectopic. And as for process re IVF. Yes for private we just booked. They asked me to bring copies of my tests (not sure if you recall the farce of the NHS hospital telling me I needed to write in with both our signatures on it). I got all the other results from my GP including bloods, chlamydia, rubella and last smear. Mine did a mini-tour which we went to, they showed us round and told us most of this info and we could ask questions, which was helpful. Cost - mine is £5k. My sister had hers in the US and said "oh is that all" when I told her . Full on woo option - well if you live a relatively healthy life anyway, it's probably tinkering at the edges. That said, I'm actually most excited about the hypnotherapy which is possibly the most Woo of all. For me I'm: Cutting out most booze, taking aspirin, heaps more water, fish oils, pregnacare multi vits, Q10, grapefruit juice, avoiding cakes and too much processed food, reducing caffeine intake, increasing fruit and veg and trying to eat organic. And running. Well there had to be a down side! For the most part it's easy. I like grapefruit juice, eat organic anyway, was already cutting down the wine. I read that dehydration can be a big impediment to blood flow, so that seems easy to rectify. I'm not being religious so still have Earl Grey tea but trying to avoid the lattes. I eat this sort of diet and always mean to eat more fruit, so that's all good. (One benefit already - no more shitting bricks . Seriously, I've been producing poos you could build houses on, which hasn't been great for the bumgrapes . I've already noticed a big difference though, so if nothing else I won't have to grip the sides of the loo any more. ). Anyway very long winded but just to say, I don't think this will necessarily make me pregnant, but it might help, it's not that much of a lifestyle change, and it makes me feel like I'm giving it a shot. The running isn't even hard. I'm currently only going out for 20 mins alternating walking and running but it's a start. My reflexologist said to watch with running as it can be a flight or fight exercise which raises your adrenaline levels; but I think with the type of running I'm doing, that's not really a problem 
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pout I will go and look at that link as haven't had time yet. You are right though. Eliminating fear is NOT Just Relaxing! I am sorry you had meltdown. I am too familiar with those just now. Firstly to add to mentalling, I don't think 15DPO is conclusive if your LP is longer. And some people don't get the BFP for ages. Plus I have come to the conclusion that a lot of those ICs are cheap for a reason which is why I've never seen a line. So don't be starting the vodka shots yet. As for how to make the pain stop? I have no idea. But if I look into my childless future I see it full of love, because I have MrN and you have MrP and that's pretty special. I also don't want to be lying on my death bed thinking "damn I wish I hadn't moped about for 50 40 30 years since TTC". And I know I would also regret having excluded friends with kids from my life, so at some point I best address that. I don't know if the pain will ever stop; but I suspect the trick will be to still enjoy life as much as possible. And get more pets
joy interesting on the progesterone. The month I had that tested was the same month my FSH was 11. It's all so confusing. No the consultant has not bothered his arse to worry about why I might not have conceived yet, he runs an IVF clinic so I guess he might have other priorities . The NHS one, who broke the FSH news to me, said I would probably be unexplained, but at that point I hadn't had the HSG (which was fine). So to be honest I still really don't know why I might not have conceived. But my sister was the same and still ended up in IVF so perhaps there is a link? My mum is always commenting how she drank through all her pregnancies and look how well we turned out (though obviously this was a long time ago!). So perhaps the long term effect is we have pickled eggs? That said when sis had her IVF the eggs were good quality. I know it's not all genetic, but I find it helpful to compare to my sister, and indeed use her as inspiration that it might work! I am sorry you had the panic last night though. It's shit, isn't it?
That's also very interesting about how you felt about being pregnant, and pout too. I will indeed post back after my appointment (next Monday though) and if it is good I will have you all to stay so you can visit the fertility master!
Oh it has taken me forever to write this, I will post then come back if I realise I still have more insightful wisdom to impart.