The BESH Republic Of Rulvakia

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Welcome to The BESH Republic Of Rulvakia. The national drink is of course gin, state funded to get you into a state. We have many traditions and customs, such as sechsing, swearing for the fun of it (optional) and urinating on little white sticks.
Enemy of the state is Droid, who must be heckled heartily should it put in an appearance. There is an ongoing lottery to win a baybee, being granted citizenship of The Republic is your ticket to the lottery.

As a democracy all members are entitled to put forward any customs or rules they would like and we can all adopt important but silly titles if we like. See the George Carlin sketch about hats and religion and make your own mind up about whether you would like a ceremonial hat to accompany whichever title/role you bestow upon yourself.

Newcomers should find and complete the BESHtionnaire so we can make sure you are cynical and non-fluffy enough to be granted Citizenship.

It does get better Dor. I felt awfully guilty for wishing the days away instead of relishing every second - but now I really am enjoying it and I can't wait for you to do the same. Of course there will always be worry, but the joy will start to outweigh it. Lots of love.

How are you blondie?

Oh Faith. Today we heard the heartbeat. It was the single greatest moment of my life. I cried and cried and I'm crying again now writing this. I really hope it isn't too insensitive of me to share that. I want so much for you all to have this too. Really can't describe how much I hope each day when I check this thread for a win. It's the only thing that could make me happier.

So er... to summarise, very happy (and quite hormonal).

That's beautiful :) I'm so happy for you.

I would like to whine about the two friends going on about their #2 babies on a FB shared message between a group of us, how much I'm dreading a mutual friend's wedding now since even if I'm diffed in July I won't be able to say but now it sounds churlish. I will instead say Ow. My pain is not going away. I will have to go to the GP again tomorrow. Boo. At least it's in the tww so I don't feel I'm missing out on an opportunity.

Thank you Faith, that means a lot. But do feel free to whine away. I always find it odd when people don't seem to have any inkling of how others might be feeling, on all sorts of subjects.

And to be honest, you have been through so much in the last year as well as ttc, you are more entitled than anyone. I am sorry you are still in pain. I hope things get sorted out and you can have a bit of gin stability in your life again.

evening all.
I have had a brilliant weekend, with good company and great music. Feeling a little subdued though because this evening have been told that a friend has the big C Am just stunned right now, and on the verge of tears.

Thanks blondie. I think any win for a BESH -> PESH is always a positive thing. It's a hard fought win for anyone and we need PESH to pop back in to remind us there is light at the end of the tunnel! Sitting in church yesterday I imagined MSB and I grinning as they announced I was with child after my 12 week scan and it gave me hope! I think today I am :( because of my hormones - droid not expected and I'm so very frustrated that this pain is back! But I managed to ask MSB to help me without shouting at him for not being psychic so I'm pleased with that

queen I'm glad you had a good time. What awful news to come back to though :(

Congratulations, blondie. It sounds amazing and wonderful.

faif, if you are diffed by then you will be so happy you won't mind about not being able to say.

I have spent the evening listening to my sister talk about how she and her husband plan to "start a family." I just said "mmm" a lot. But now I feel ruffled and depressed and sure she will be diffed at the drop of a hat.

Cross post, roly. What dreadful news. Where is the cancer, if you don't mind my asking? :(

breast cancer, I don't know more than that and the fact the chemo starts next week.
I know the C word is so frightening to hear, and brings an immediate response of shock. I've seen both ends of the spectrum though. My dad had cancer, but it was found very early (completely by happy accident) and he had a very short course of successful treatment. Also had a friend who was diagnosed and we all knew it was a matter of months before he went. So I do know that it could be anywhere on that scale, but as she only found out herself today it doesn't feel appropriate to talk about it in depth with her yet.
Don't really knwo how to help. Not close enough geographically to be of daily practical use....

Oh roly. Let's hope they caught it early. From a distance I'd send cards and texts offering an ear to bend in the first instance. Not easy I know :( how old is she?

In Faithland, urine dip has confirmed there's stuff growing in my urinary tract so I'm waiting to call my GP. Need to nip it in the bud early this time!

Morning Rulvakians!

Loads happened since yesterday. So sorry about your friend queen. Agree with faif that all you can do is let her know you are there for support... Very sad.

Loved the mushy post blonde but I did not cry, so clearly I am not diffed. Great to hear you're doing so well. Adn dor just hang in there, you will get there eventually.

Sorry that the evil infection is back faith. Good luck with sorting it out. Pain is not good! The thought of your pg being announced in church made me smile. I really hope it will be your turn soon!

I hate those planning families, norf. Even if they are related, or maybe more so. Do people know about your ttc woes? If she does, the comment is bloody insensitive... I have been on tenderhooks for most of my SIL's pg worried she might encourage us to get a move on, in her charming way . But SB has told them about our situation now, so if she does I am fully within my rights to kick her (perhaps not in the pg belly, though).

Oops I killed the fred. Sorry!!

Thank you Lemon.

Just to echo what others have said, sorry to hear about your friend Rollo. Everything crossed for them.

I fink it's a bit quieter in here at present. I'm busy at work so not posting in the day. bugs is on holibobs. I guess sometimes that just means less day time posts?

I haff seen nice laydee GP who has provided more antibiotics oh yay but said she's worried we're not really getting to the bottom of it so she's going to do a urology referral to see if they know what's going on. I don't think this is going away on its own! Ah well, at least it's a step forward :)

So, is it nice and sunny with you too?

yay - progress of sorts Faif.

I've had a pretty busy day so not been around much.

Dancing? Nekkidly? Anything you want to tell us, laura? not just that you like to check out our buzzwams

Evening all [salutes LP]

Rollo, so sorry to hear about your friend . I hope that she has a speedy recovery.

Faithy, glad you are getting a referral. Hopefully they'll get to the bottom of it this time.

Nothing to report here. CD 10 and I'm being naughty and starting to use the cheapy OPKs and Shag Dictator again. If I don't I'll have even less of an idea about what is going on!

Beautiful evening over here in the beautiful rulvakian countryside.

Yay to the baby heart, a resounding punch in the face to cancer. And fingers crossed for some urological brilliance...

Tis a bit quiet. I blame the luffly weather. After work I did a couple of hours gardening- can now sit out without wincing at the mess.

Am on cd32 and having all sorts of womble aches and a dose of ewcm. Am so fed up of it all, am almost successfully managing not to menkul. Almost.

How long would you expect your cycle to be?

Does anyone have any matchsticks? I need them to keep my eyes open. Multiple trips to the loo in the night + pain = grumpy faith. But apparently it will be sunny later which means I can get some washing done. Which will be good.

morning all.

more news from friend, grade three aggressive cancer. More tests this week to see if it is confined to the breast or has spread. Still feeling very stunned and pissed off that this could happen to such a wonderful, kind person.

Personally I'm CD16 here, just secshing for fun and not bothering with the 'right time' because i'm one month post lap+dye and trying not to get my hopes up that a miracle had occurred and I am suddenly all fixed.

where's the gin? I feel like i need to bathe in it as well as drink it. this weekend we're away again and then the following Thurs we head of to Spain for a week. How come going on holiday feels so stressful?

Oh rollo that's awful news for your friend. Hopefully tests will put things in a more positive light and they can fight it off.

Faith, sorry that you're still suffering. It won't improve things massively I know, but are you a cranberry juice fan? My mother swears by it for keeping the plumbing in good nick.

In Cavey news, I just called the hospital to see if I could get a cancellation instead of waiting till July. It turns out they don't do a cancellation list, you just have to keep phoning up to see what's available. Grr!

Oops, didn't mean to cause confusion...TOM and I aren't TTC...I just meant I was waiting to get nekkid for one of you lot.

Come an' get it, ESHes!

Mmmmm, booooooze. Luffly luffly booze. I have a work do tonight so there will be the best kind of booze - free booze!

It's good to have you drop in Laura. I hope all is well.

I'm 10dpo I think. I'm sure i'm not diffed. And feeling relatively unmenkle about it. I'm sure that won't last past the hormone dip that;ll start in a day or two, just before the Droid's arrival.

Rollo I'm so sorry to hear that. My mum had very aggressive breast cancer. It was diagnosed in '98. She is still going strong. The chemo and drugs have nasty side effects but they do great things.

It's so nice to have some sunshine finally. My mood lifts immediately with a bit of sunshine.