The BESH Republic Of Rulvakia

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Welcome to The BESH Republic Of Rulvakia. The national drink is of course gin, state funded to get you into a state. We have many traditions and customs, such as sechsing, swearing for the fun of it (optional) and urinating on little white sticks.
Enemy of the state is Droid, who must be heckled heartily should it put in an appearance. There is an ongoing lottery to win a baybee, being granted citizenship of The Republic is your ticket to the lottery.

As a democracy all members are entitled to put forward any customs or rules they would like and we can all adopt important but silly titles if we like. See the George Carlin sketch about hats and religion and make your own mind up about whether you would like a ceremonial hat to accompany whichever title/role you bestow upon yourself.

Newcomers should find and complete the BESHtionnaire so we can make sure you are cynical and non-fluffy enough to be granted Citizenship.

excessive use of the " " key there. Better check the real docs too!

Boo to stupid Dr's surgery Faith. Can you go to the surgery and camp out demanding to be seen? My Drs will try to slot you in if you do this.

Spoke to clinic and a lovely nurse who agreed that the Clomid is not doing its job in making me ovulate regularly so she's going to talk to the Drs about changing my dose. [crosses fingers]

Norfy you were lucky with your lap. I had quite a lot of gore. I remember gently soaking the plaster off in the bath and then the water turning pink cos my whole belly button was full of blood! It wasn't bad though, lemons. And if I had been using a mooncup back then I think I would have been totally nonplussed by that quantity of blood!

lemons I am supposed to start downregging at 7dpo so it's a bit early to test beforehand, but I think I will test daily from about 8dpo.

I completely agree with your statement about the problem of being unexplained. I was whining last night that I have a need to know what is wrong.

I am starting to enter pre-IVF panic mode. I spent most of yesterday feeling like I wanted to cry. I've booked in for counselling but couldn't get an appointment until the 25th, when I will be several days into downregging if I start as planned.

GP booking systems are invariably daft. At our one, you have to call at 8am for appointments that day, that could be at any time. There is no prebooking. So, I end up having to bring my laptop and papers home the night before so I can work from home on the offchance that I can get an appointment that day. And if, as often happens, I spend 45 mins trying to get through only to find out when I do that all the appointments have gone, I have to do the same the next day! I have tried to explain that this isn't the best system for those of us who work, but it falls on deaf ears! I hope you can get seen faif.

I am so lucky with my GP surgery. I phoned yesterday for an appt but was told it was full, and that I could try at lunchtime or 8am this morning but I explained it wasn't urgent and so she booked me in for Thurs. Only a couple of times has it been so busy that I couldn't get in when I needed to. In fact I have just phoned them to cancel my appt for tomorrow.
My Cons secretary said I could certainly have an early scan if I wanted, and so tomorrow I'm going in for a Beta HCG blood test to confirm pregnancy and to check levels and then she will book my ultrasound for the 6-7 week mark. She said it would avoid confusion if i waited for the GP to refer me to community midwife until after the scan.
I am so releived that I am not having to fight for this scan to check for ectopic. I've had to fight this dept every step of the way so far, and this is a welcome change.

That is good news, queenie. What was your path to diffage?Had you just had a lap or am I thinking of someone else?

that's me Euro - had my lap at the end of April. I've had a year of TTC before GP referred me to the clinic and then the usual bloods, ultrasound, HSG and then the lap. In all two and half years TTC.

Did they find endo or do ov drilling or anything?

It's great that you have a natural BFP after so long!

I had a blocked left tube with hydrosalpinx (discovered on HSG), they found the tube was stuck to the ovary. They released it and it was fine, though very stretched which why I have increased risk of ectopic. They also found endo while they were in there which they treated.
I did have a chemical pregnancy at the beginning of the year which was discovered at my pre-op for the lap and dye, so that was cancelled and i had to wait three months for it to be rescheduled.

It's great that they got some answers as to why it wasn't happening and were able to treat it. Let's hope after all that you have a nice easy pregnancy!

Hi all, I'm back at home having had a wobble at work after talking to the clinic. I spent 15 mins sobbing in the toilet at work before puling myself together enough to tell my boss I was feeling ill and needed to go home.

That's the first time I've had a meltdown at work

The upshot of my chat with the clinic is that the Dr thinks Clomid is not working for me and there is no point in changing the dose. They'd only change the dose if it wasn't working at all, whereas for me it seems to be intermittent. Of course my reaction to this was as above.
I spoke to HWHNN who offered to call the clinic back for me and talk about the next step. Bless him. The nurse (same one) was lovely again and explained that the next step was likely to be a different drug coupled with follicle scanning. Because the issue is not with egg/sperm quality, more one of timing, they are in no hurry to look at IVF.

The way she explained it to HWHNN, and I just need to learn to get my head straight, is to look on it as a positive step. Clomid is not working so why bother sticking with it, move on to the next step.

So here I am, sniffling away on the sofa with the cat and trying to think positively. I am going to do an emergency chocolate run to the local shop in a bit.

Oh cavey :( are you having any clomid for this cycle? Lots to get your head round and you're definitely entitled to a chocolate run and a snuggle with the cat!

lems personally I would probably go for it but then I'm a head first kinda gal. I wouldn't be satisfied with the vagueness and wouldn't want to leave that stone unturned....but that's just me!

Finally got appointment and with nice doc who did original urology referral so that is good. What a palaver though!

Good for you for taking care of yourself and heading home, Cavelina. The nurse's attitude seems spot on re: moving on the next thing.

I've not taken any Clomid ths cycle due to the blood test cock up in my last cycle. I do have one lot of pills left and the nurse said if I want to take them when this cycle ends then I can, but they won't give me any more.
I guess there is still a bit of hope this cycle as I haven't ov'd yet, but who knows when that might happen!

Feeling less snotty now, I've been to the shop and bought 2 large Galaxy bars (buy one get one free!) and am back on the sofa watching my Sherlock DVD. It's not possible to be sad when watching the divine Mr Cumberbatch

An hiding in my own work loos, cavey, so can only be quick, but the quickness in no way diminishes the massive Rulvakian sympathy I am sending. Moving on is all very well and sensible, but when you have placed your faith in something, and thought "this is going to be the thing that diffs me", it is a horrid disillusionment and crash to accept that it isn't.

Sorry for the wobble cave, let me add some more gin(& optional tonic) to the comfort mixture. I hate all calls with fertility types while at work, I try to make SB do as much of the phoning as possible, because they always reduce me to tears. Fingers crossed they find something that does work, though!!

Glad your GP and early scan are all helpful queenie and thanks for sharing the road to diffage!

Fingers crossed your good GP can sort you out, faith. It has been way too long.

GRRR at only getting counselling on the 25th euro. But good for you to go and get it. Much pre-IVF nerves sympathy. It is so difficult, especially with the not knowing why the hell it is taking so long and what is wrong... (Otherwise known as unexplainedness-sympathy!) I have been having a few days of teariness and not quite brave enough to talk to someone properly. I really miss SB at days like these (he's away for work) and not only because it should be shagweek...

GP has given me prescription for the good codiene again :) yay and said to ring and chase my appointment which I will do tomorrow. I have a bit of a crush on her now for understanding :)

How are you feeling now cavey? lemmy?

I have a massive crush on my GP, faith. In fact, I named her my lesbian crush in the BESHtionnaire.

YAY for lovely GPs, mine is old enough to be my dad and male, so no lesbian or other crush for me. Although he's been reasonably helpful so far.

I am feeling much better as I decided to call it a day early and went for a (short) run. Been going twice a week since the hols and it is making me feel good. Now I am starving so it is cook some tea with the contents of the fridge - and the left over trigger shot does not count.

I'm feeling better thanks. Went and had a nap for a few hours, then HWHNN called to see how I was doing. Have demolished a large amount of chocolate, but hey ho!

Glad to hear it cavey :)

How are people feeling this morning?

I am a bit and have no oomph for work since my gut response to every task/email is I don't really care!

My new strategy for pain management is t try alternating cups of tea with peppermint tea and I will purchase some cranberry juice. When I had course 3 of antibiotics I felt tonnes better and in retrospect I drank lots of cranberry juice at the time and wonder if it was that rather than the antibiotics that helped

How do you feel psychically bugs? It's understandable you're menkulling...

I'm better. No spontaneous sobbing, though if I think too much on it I do well up. Being back at work is actually helpful as it is distracting me. I'm seeing my BF at lunchtime, not sure whether to tell her or not as I'll probably sob on her - never a good look in a public place!

Sorry you're feeling down too. Have you anything to do that can take you away from people for a bit? Sometimes working on something in peace and quiet helps.

Bugs, menkul is totally normal [strokes hair]