midge I was just thinking the other day that when I was pregnant with DS1, I worked full time, had DD (who was 2.8 when DS1 arrived) and I absolutely breezed through that pregnancy (well, as much as you do with five admissions for bleeding when you have placenta previa...). But I had no sickness. Bar a single moment on a bus. And metalling didn't even exist in my vocab (I didnt even worry when I was in hospital for bleeding - just blindly thought everything would be fine!). And I was 23.
DS2 was not too bad, despite being 12 years later -I was already a sahm, so no 'work' to worry about, and with my other two being older I could go off to bed when I felt I needed to. Grinding nausea weeks 7-14/15 and reoccuring uti's (couple of hospitalisations for those, too) but all in all, I didn't consider it a rough pregnancy...
Then losing Teddy. After the grinding nausea again but the inability to rest when I needed/wanted because of DS2. Then the whole emotional turmoil of the following months/ttc. Then straight back into another pregnancy.
I'm exhausted. Like, truly. And for the first time in late pregnancy, I'm damn uncomfortable. Groin/pelvis periodically plays up after that inital agony about 5 weeks ago. Barely slept last night, kept waking with pain in back, or groin, or under bump. Layed there thinking - talk about caught between a rock and hard place: I am so uncomfortable I want the pregnancy to be over, yet on the other hand I'm emotionally and practically unprepared for the baby. So... I'm stuck in some middle land not wishing for either but wanting both? How does that even work?! I'm 38 now. I don't really think it's my age, per se, that's had such a massive difference in my experience this time. I think I'm just emotionally and physically exhausted. I think we forget, in the days of ttc (desperately!) after a loss that our bodies and minds need time to recover and recharge... But we do we do because we kinda have to, right? Talking sense with hindsight is all very well and good but I think most of us will recognise how rabid/low/desperate the need to ttc can make us to the point that we just. Won't. Wait.
Oh, and we viewed a house saturday. Made an offer that was turned down and with some detective work (the house is down the same rd DF's mum lives down) we've discovered the offer they're accepting is only 10k more than ours (it needs work. Quite a bit) but has a huge chain involved - we're chain free. So are going to make the same offer today.
midge what I think I'm saying is I probably need a bit of a lick 
Great result on your NT - mine was 1:3200 or 3400 but the consultant at the FMC said the results couldn't have actually been any better at my age so as much as it was a lot 'higher' than the 1:13000 I got with DS2 it's still a fab result. As is yours!
mumtum only half an hour to wait - really hoping for some good news from you!
boris good idea re: downloading - they've uploaded it to youtube so I'm sure it's possible but not sure how. Dd or DS1 will know, I'll have to pick one of their brains.
Wow, that was a bit rambly. I have more on my mind than I care to admit most of the time, it seems.