Mums of angels! wishing, carrying and holding rainbows.

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May this thread bring us luck and lots of support through the journey of life after the death of our little ones.

count I am horrified at that doctor. I could not have held in my anger and complete dismay at her insensitive questioning. (my father is a GP too) Are you going to complain to the clinic?

So far, my midwife and GP have been good, but dealing with admin staff on ever-changing hospital appts is a bit stressful, as they don't have my notes. And don't think there is a sticker for me

angel hope Phebs slept more restfully last night.

whatever hope you can forget about work and the stressful headstone situation, and just enjoy your holiday - the sun is shining here!

On my phone, so at everyone else.

Thanks Miaalexandersmummy think the air purifier is helping slowly but now she's decided she wants a bottle at 01:00 ish!!! Luckliy was Ant's turn last night!!!!
Hi all ; xxxx

I have been up since 5.30 Spatz has been seeking attention which includes climbing my leggings and getting tangled under the dress I'm wearing. I can't do anything for more than 5 minutes without him being there being nosy. He's funny tho.

How are you today greengoose?

Just a quick one to say - 24 weeks and our little girl is now officially viable. Yay!! Pretty good birthday present

Heading off shortly, think there's wifi there so will check in.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying the sun? How's Spatz Fan?

Good news whatever. 24 weeks!

wtw yay for viability and happy birthday Enjoy your holiday! looking forward to ours next week!

wtw happy birthday and yay for the good news.

Spatz is doing well, he got a bit hot yesterday and was a bit sleepy but he's fine this morning.

I'm not though, had an arguement with DH last night and I decided to sleep on the sofa, never do that. It wasn't that big but when DH has had a few beers, you can't talk to him without it turning into a point scoring match. Oh well he's still in bed, after telling me last night that he wasn't drunk (slurring his words!) If he has a hang over I have no sympathy, and also I won't believe him as he wasn't drunk! (I can be a total bitch if I want to be)

Hi girls, just a quick check in with you all. Sorry haven't been about for the last few months. I cut myself off from all things online for a while. I have millions to catch up on though!! Good news is that I only have 4 weeks to wait until we get Ruby's little sister!! Yep, as per so many on this thread I'm having a rainbow baby the same sex as my angel. Pregnancy has been very uneventful apart from an unexplained bleed last week, but everything is looking good so far. Everything crossed and not just fingers. I'll hopefully manage to get up to speed soon xx

mel hey, so good to hear from you. 4 weeks to go, wow. Are you having a ELCS? Or is it induction?

It's an induction at 39 weeks. I know I'm being optimistic about it all happening on one day , but it can happen

Fan same here!!! Knob head Ant went out last night for " a quiet few drinks" knew it was turn to get up early to see to Phebs but was so pissed didn t I had to!!! So , that's the last 7 mornings I ve been up at 6 not one lie in... I m fuming ... He's walking round feeling sorry for himself , all delicate now... While I m make him go swimming with us... So selfish... Next week he's our on an all day sess next Saturday ... What annoys me is these " last minute quiet drinks" never are.... Woke me up at 2 this am stumbling around... He ll pay ... Knob head!!!!
Congrats Whatever
Congrats Mel
Hi all xxxx

angel mine didn't want to go out to a mates birthday drinks bash said he wouldn't be late and then text me at 11 to say won't be home till later. I was fuming because we had made a promise to quit drinking for the next two months to give my fertile period a real chance. Also we have a near maxed out credit card that we are supposed to be paying off, so I was annoyed and tried to ring him, sent him a test. Then ended up speaking to him, when he said he wasn't drunk! Then called me the c word and other swear words. When he got in, I was told I was inreasonable to ask him to come of the drink for two months, that it didn't make a difference before why now. I'm so fuming with him.

He's still in bed now, I'm sitting watching telly with Spatz!

I love my DH but I don't like him when he's had a few, he's a know it all, he's the only one right wanker! Who goes on and on about the same point. Sorry for the rant!

Morning all.
Happy birthday wtw, and Yay for 24 weeks!
Congrats Mel - I hope the next 4 weeks pass smoothly for you x
Grr at your DH's fan and angel - I hope you make them pay today!!

I am looking for a personalised necklace for Nancy - I want something I can wear everyday, any suggestions? DH wants us to go down to the jewellery quarter in Birmingham, but we can't do that for a couple of months, and I want it NOW!!! Any suggestions where I can get one? I want silver, and I think I want to have her name & DOB on. Maybe a locket, so I can put a pic of her in, but not sure. I have seen a locket with angel wings on on ebay, but I don't think I'd be able to get it engraved with her details. Just not sure - have any of you got anything like this?

Thanks guys

Wow 4 weeks Mel hope they go quickly for you.

Fan and Angel sorry to hear dh's being drunken fools. Hope they are suitably apologetic today!

Elly have a look on Alexandras angel gifts they have some nice jewellery

Right back to I-Spy with Miss K

elly I wear a locket with Ophelias picture and a lock of her hair. The jeweller sealed them in the locket so they can't come out. The locket is round so better to put a pic in. I got it from a local jeweller and then I had her intials ingraved on the front. I wear it everyday. The jeweller was so nice when I explained what it was for.
The link wtw has put up has some nice pieces to, we got our memory box from them. Also my mum has a pandora bracelet with her name on it and every birthday she buys a bead for it.

Oh should have said went to the local engraver to get the locket engraved, the jeweller didn't do it.

Thanks wtw and fan - I knew it was a good idea to ask you lovely ladies on here x

Fan I ve made him go swimming, take us out for lunch & do his jobs whilst he's been suffering!!!!.... I don t mind him going out but every time now he goes out for " quiet" few drinks he rolls in very late, pissed & is a right off the day after!!! Now we re getting on it takes us ( him) longer to recover... I ve heard all the normal spiel today !!!! He's sorry, won t do it again!!! Blah, blah, blah.... But he ll be eating plenty of humble pie in-between chucking up!!!
Men are so selfish.....

angel they are selfish, I ended up waking mine up by putting Spatz in his face! He is now cooking my dinner, I usually make him a few brews throughout the day, he's made his own. And he's had no sympathy from me for his headache. They are wankers angel!
I've had ago at him about the money situ so he's going to be living on nothing very soon. I don't mind if he wants to piss up his money as long as he's paid the bills.

Just wanted to pop on here to say hi. I recognise some names. Tomorrow a year ago I was being induced and had my angel son. One year on and the pain is less but I still miss him everyday.

I hope you are all getting your rainbows and that you are all doing OK. Thinking of you all.

Sorry about your man trouble Fan and angelGeorgie... Sounds like you've made them pay though!!

lemonSherbet...I don't think we've 'met'... What are your plans for tommorow? I can't imagine how I'll cope with anniversaries to offer any wise words, but I hope you have loved ones around to think about your little boy with you. Take care....

My daughter Merryn would have been 1 month old today, so that's been hard too. I have been quite angry today, and spent some time in her room crying. I think already people think I should be moving on with life, but I don't know how yet... I'm just moving through the days and hours.... Sometimes I forget for a second or two, and then remembering is like being stabbed. My planned date for c section was next wednesday... So that will be another tough one. I don't even look pregnant anymore, it's almost as if she never existed. I was trying to think of one happy memory of her, and all I have are memories of her suffering or dying, or of being scanned every two weeks to see how big the tumour had grown. I can't recall any moments that were good. I wish I could. I'm still twitching at our mobiles ringing and anything that sounds like a NICU monitor, and then it's as if I can even smell the smells from there again.... I hope that stops soon.

Sorry ladies, Im not always this negative. I'll try to perk myself up a bit for tommorow. I hope you've been enjoying the sunshine?

Big hug - lemon- its hard to have to go through days that hold such hard memories and sadness! Cyber hug for you x
Greengoose- big huge hug to you, just reading your post has made me cry! Seconds,minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years!
Your special angel Merryn -will always be in your heart and watching over you making you stronger- to face tomorrows without her here!

green I am going to work. I have made sure to have a lighter than normal day at work. I know it sounds impossible now but things do get easier. You are right people do expect you to move on and to be honest I do not think any member of our families has remembered. To be fair my Aunt is very unwell at the moment. Just take it one step at a time. I remember having qvc on in the background helped me-nothing baby related on it.

blessings thanks for the wishes

lemon hugs for you today! x

and hugs for everyone else too!

I had a rubbish night after being kept awake by DH's snoring. I tried to tell him to go and sleep in the spare bed or on the sofa but he said if I couldn't sleep that I needed to do that. So at him! In the end I did end up on the sofa with the tv on as I could still hear his snoring and it was driving me crazy! Tonight he's not coming in our bed that's for sure! I need to be close to the toilet and close to DD1, cause he doesn't wake up when she does...
He really needs to sort it out cause I can't live sleep like this any longer. sorry for the rant... as you can tell I didn't sleep very well