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Mums of angels! wishing, carrying and holding rainbows.

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fanjodisfunction · 23/03/2012 20:05

May this thread bring us luck and lots of support through the journey of life after the death of our little ones.

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spilttheteaagain · 19/04/2012 09:18

Thinking of you this morning fan and sending you love xx

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fanjodisfunction · 19/04/2012 09:53

I have a doctors appointment at 5.10 this afternoon, the only time they can fit me in. I am feeling a bit better, but I still dont feel right. I do think I have an infection, I feel like I did last time I had a uti. I am hoping that that is all it is and Im just spotting heavily. But I dont hold much hope, all my hope has gone. Dh is still in bed, he is trying to sleep the day away so that it goes quicker and the docs appointment comes quicker. I cant do this so Im playing on my laptop, and watching shit telly.

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TooImmatureTurtleDoves · 19/04/2012 11:27

Fan, big hugs for you. I hope the doctor can get you a scan so you know for sure. Roll on 5 o'clock! Maybe you could manage a nap at some point - think DH has a good plan there with the sleeping. Have been thinking of you all night.

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fanjodisfunction · 19/04/2012 11:36

Thank you too its just so hard, I keep second guessing how Im feeling, I have no clue if Im imagining not feeling pg, as my boobs really hurt last night. Or am I imaging feeling pg, making myself have these feelings.
Im not cramping anymore, which Im not sure is a good sign. I guess I will just jave to wait and see what is said at the docs appointment. I guess I need to take a urine sample.

I hate being in limbo. Why is life sometimes so crap!

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blizy · 19/04/2012 11:37

Fan- Just popping on to let you know I am thinking of you. X Thanks

Whatevertheweather · 19/04/2012 12:04

Roll on 5pm Fan what an impossible situation for you. Big hugs xx

Bluetinkerbell · 19/04/2012 12:16

fan so sorry they couldn't fit you in earlier! I'm on a countdown with you! much much love x

AugustMoon · 19/04/2012 12:45

Me too fan, here with the virtual hand holding. Roll on 5 o'clock Thanks

RueDeWakening · 19/04/2012 12:47

Thinking of you fan

TooImmatureTurtleDoves · 19/04/2012 13:18
razzdazz · 19/04/2012 15:59

fan my thoughts and hope are with you. Really hope you get a empathetic gp who will maybe take hcg serum bloods for you today and repeat them in 48 hrs to maybe give you an idea of what is happening,not knowing is so very hard to bear. So want luck to be on your side xx

Ellypoo · 19/04/2012 16:08

Hi - just caught up, big hugs fan - keeping everything crossed for you x

shakeyjake · 19/04/2012 16:13

fan thinking of you and dh. x

TooImmatureTurtleDoves · 19/04/2012 16:24

Not long to wait for gp now, Fan.

Razz, is there a 48 hr wait before any sort of answer with the blood tests? Unless they refer you straight to the EPU for a scan, I suppose. FX for a swift scan.

CheeseandGherkins · 19/04/2012 17:28

Thinking of you fan, I hope they can scan you xx

Whatevertheweather · 19/04/2012 17:30

Checking in for Fan news. Hope you're on your way to epu to get some answers xxx

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fanjodisfunction · 19/04/2012 18:15

Just got back from the docs and he was so nice to me, but there is nothign they can do, he tried to get me into EPU, but they will not see anyone before 7 weeks apparently. He was told that I had to wait it out, if I was expereincing pain or severe bleeding then Im to go straight to A&E, if not Im just to wait it out.

Im so distraught, I dont know what to do. I guess I just have to wait and see if it increases and I have a full blown miscarriage, or see if it subsides and then Im still pg. This really sucks!

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Whatevertheweather · 19/04/2012 18:20

Ah Fan did he take any bloods so he can monitor hcg levels over 48hrs? What did he say about the fever etc? It must be torture for you - when will you be 7 weeks? xx

MiaAlexandrasmummy · 19/04/2012 18:21

oh fan that is just rubbish. It's like we are invisible until we reach that magical timeframe. The system really doesn't take into account the emotional turmoil that the uncertainty creates... I don't know what to advise you, although I hope like anything that it is just a scare.

blizy · 19/04/2012 18:29

Fan- no words just hugs and hand holding. X

Ellypoo · 19/04/2012 18:41

Oh fan, sending huge hugs to you & your DH, I truly hope that things turn out well for you xx

When I just got into my car to come home from work, the old S Club 7 song Reach was on the radio - when it got to the line 'and when that rainbow's shining over you, that's when all your dreams come true' - I thought that was so apt for us who either have their rainbow babies, and for those of us ttc ours.

Bluetinkerbell · 19/04/2012 18:42

fan thinking of you! the waiting is the worst! we are here for you every step of the way! x

Ellypoo · 19/04/2012 18:45

And those who are pg with their much longed-for but very much worried-over little rainbows xx

CheeseandGherkins · 19/04/2012 18:48

fan that's awful. Could you get a private scan for now? x

Whatevertheweather · 19/04/2012 18:51

Fan there is a private scan place at Cams Hall - First View Imaging - they will do a dating scan from 6 weeks - just had a look for you it's £60 xxx