We're all in this together - Mool and the Gang's magic flying mattress ride to Switzerland!

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Right, I bit the bullet and started the new thread. Hope it's OK. Here's to mucho more laughter, tears, support, tea and biscuits! xxx

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY. Rock on Festie and LOVING the new title. Hope I get to Switzerland very soon :) bring on that HSG and don't spare the horses!!!!!!!!!

Surely it's not horses pulling the flying mattress, but those big hairy flying dog things from the Never Ending Story? Or summat.

Oooooh yes Rusulka nice - or those invisible horses from Harry Potter?

marking my place even though I am now not pg OR TTC!!!

i'm just here for the craic.

someone enlighten me as to what the switzerland reference is please!!

I don't even know what the Switzerland ref is about berries!!!!!

Yes, you're right moo - we shall be pulled by Thestrals [geek emoticon]

berries I actually have no idea what the whole Switzerland thing means. But it's quirky........and I kinda like it. I am sure someone more knowledgable will come along and enlighten us.

Can't believe we have a brand new shiny thread again so soon. Also can't believe that I am spending a lot of time here when I should be working. Oops.

Switzerland was a couple threads ago to do with being neutral territory - ie both conception and ante-natal!

Yay with the new thread Festie and glad we're all together again! (I'm not loving my ante natal group - hundreds of people and I don't know anyone :( )

I too had better get back to work as the bell has just rung!!!

Nice thread title Festie!

This might be a bit bizarre Rusulka and Mooley but I'm imagining the magic mattress being bourne aloft by giant flying sperms.

Berries I'm glad you are getting some counselling (whenever you reach the top of the waiting list anyway). The loss of your tube is a big deal but you've just got to keep reminding yourself that women do conceive again. In your bad moments you'll think yeah right, whatever, but in your good moments it will bring you some hope.

I'm finding it hard that I haven't been able to talk about stuff to anyone face to face - just doctors, nurses and my brilliant DP. The phone is ok, and texting is ok but it's not the same. I have 3 friends where I live who have had to cope with stillbirth, repeated miscarriage and one miscarriage respectively but I haven't seen any of them on their own so we can really talk about stuff. Hopefully I can meet up with them soon.

Mooley I'm delighted for you about your HSG and CD1, let's hope it all does the trick!

Lil it really does seem to be random as to when you actually conceive doesn't it?! For some people it's when they've gone on a totally wacky diet or something, for others it is when they aren't doing anything. I'm going to have go back to the gym as it seemed to work last time. Drat!

Festie you are sounding a lot better now. Thank you for being so supportive. When is your scan? It's soon I seem to remember.

I started temping this morning, it was pretty high but I suppose that is still the progesterone in my system. The bleeding is definitely getting lighter but my boobs still hurt, are bigger than pre-pregnancy and I'm finding it a bit hard to look at them to be honest. Other hard things have been: eating brie, finding ginger biscuits in the cupboard, getting flowers from my mum, doing my first load of washing since friday, a squirrel (honestly). Still, the things that set me off first time around I can cope with now. Even squirrels. Things are getting a tiny bit easier every day, my next trick will be to not get totally obsessed with TTC and not get totally crushed every time my period comes. I've been looking at the gallery on FF of first cycle after miscarriage charts to get an idea of when ovulation is likely to occur (it varies wildly from CD12 to CD35!) and about 25% have a positive pregnancy test at the end of it.

Right, I've been writing this post on and off for about an hour, better finally post it.

Hello everyone!

Love ths shiny new thread, thanks festie. Let's hope it brings a bit more magic and joy with it!

berries I am so sorry. You sound so strong. I hope you can keep positive. What a horribly traumatic thing to have to go through. I really feel for you.

disco glad that things are starting to slowly get a bit easier. Don't rush yourself. And I totally get the squirrels thing. I cried at a picture of a seahorse and that was just with PMT. I know! Hope you get to have a real heart-to-heart with someone face to face v soon. Book in some time with your friends! And keeping fingers x-ed that ov happens soon!

moo - not long to go now until HSG! Hope it all goes well!!

Bad news from me I'm afraid. In fact having an all round sh*t day (clearly no where near as bad as those of you who've been through mc etc.). POAS this morning and bfn. Then went to gym, came home and AF arrived in longest cycle ever. Normally am average 29/30 days but last month was 34 and this month mammoth 35! WTF?! Is this a new trend now that we're TTC? Could that affect things?!

Have also found out that my great aunt died this morning and the electricity has been cut off in my hallway (of which we are freeholders) as it is "unsafe" and needs huge quantity of money thrown at it. I have no idea what to do. DH is away skiing so am coping with everything on my own and feeling hugely emotional and FULL of PMT and bad AF cramps. Oh and am at work. And breathe... Sorry, rant over.

At least it's sunny.

Yeeeah! Loving the shiney new thread!

Jam here, named changed as mnhq didn't like my last one, guess it was a but gross.

Anyhoo, 9dpo here, nothing going on. Lots of cm, cramp have gone. I know AF is days away as my skin is shite, legs are weak and belly is bloated like anything. Next cycle will definitely be more relaxed, less obsessive as it's getting me down.

moo glad your on cd1 in time for you appointment, not long to go now! Glad you're excited.

Disco you're bound to be emotional still, lovely. Be easy on yourself, you've been through a lot

coveredinflour don't you fecking hate it when you poas and your period comes right after, horrible. Sorry about your aunt x

Oh flour - i am so sorry to hear about your aunt. And AF arriving. why can't she just FUCK OFF AND LEAVE US ALL THE HELL ALONE.

Lil - how did docs go?

Thanks everyone for all the support. I am physically getting much better. Still bleeding lots which is a painful reminder but i'm told it's normal to bleed for 2 weeks :( I am just so worried about the future but as we're not TTC for a while I am trying not to think about it. Disco I am totally with you on not wanting to get obsessed about it. I'm sorry to haven't managed to see your RL friends yet... can you book them in to come and see you soon? I had brie for lunch yesterday and it made me cry so i hear you there. It fucking sucks doesn't it. At least we can find others on MN who understand how we feel.

jam/chips - so why didn't MNHQ like your name???!

They just said they didn't think it works, dunno. Couldn't think of another except what I had for dinner!

Oh Flour what a rubbish day, so sorry to hear about your aunt xx

Like the new name jam - guess it will have to be chips now!

Doc was actually lovely! Think all the horror stories left me expecting the worst but she was lovely. Agrees I am 5 weeks and did an internal feel and prodded around to check the cramping. Says everything feels normal, but it is early days blah blah... Feel a bit better anyway and looking forward to meeting the mw in a few weeks.

Hello All!

Just checking out our shiny new thread.

Disco - glad things seem to be getting a little easier, although I know that you can still have set backs when you least expect it. Hope you are able to meet up with your RL friends soon, and that you get the BFP as soon as possible. Sending hugs!

Berries - sending you lots of hugs too! Can understand that it must still be raw, and all the uncertainty as well....... but I'm sure when you're ready to start ttc again, it will be a more positive experience.

Flour - sorry to hear about your aunt x. And AF as well..... I hear you on the surprisingly longer cycles - I think our bodies just throw these things in to confuse the hell out of us (as if we weren't already).

Jam/Chips - love the new name! How weird that MNHQ didn't like the previous one! Keeping my FX for you that AF doesn't arrive, but I also concur on trying not to obsess so much next cycle. It does wear you down after a few months!

Lil - glad the GP's visit went well and has been able to reassure you. Hopefully the appointment with the MW will be just as positive.

Well it's CD17 for me. I thought I actually ov'd yesterday (my previous guess had been on CD10, but I think all my temps had been skewed by my having a virus) - my temp took a sudden dip and for the absolutely first time EVER (I'm serious) I had EWCM, so I figured that my body must finally be starting to work maybe? (Now I know what people are talking about when they mention EWCM!!).

However, temp was the same low level this morning, not the rise I was expecting. And I still had EWCM (yay! I didn't imagine it!) today albeit not as much as yesterday. So not sure if ov is therefore today or still to come.... so just waiting for things to unfold. So far I've not been too obsessed and would like to stay that way, but it's intriguing me. I have a feeling that this may be another slightly longer cycle as well, but maybe not as long as last month (which was 36 days). FX.

Alex yay for ewcm - a phrase only ever found on MN!!! Glad that you are feeling better, I found it really interesting too but don't get too obsessed. My ewcm didn't always match with ov - usually I got it a few days before ov and it vanished the day or 2 before I did ov, but think everyone is different.

Love the flying sperm / dog thing from neverending story. I like HP too but hope it's not the thestrals as I find them a bit freaky!! I was seeing it very much aladdin style, soaring simply on magic, surrounded by a cloud of baby dust (yuck I went too far, hate the baby dust!! )

Disco hope you get to catch up with some rl people that you can have a proper chat with soon and I'm sure it will help you to get things off your chest to someone else. From some reading you chances of getting pg after a mc are just as good as they were previously, if not better due to the hormones in your body. Hope that when you are ready it all falls into place for you.

Berries hope things get easier for you too and that you have lots of support around you.

I just know the hag is on her way, broke down and tested 10dpo bfn

Disco sorry that things are hard for you at the moment and hope you get to speak to some RL people. Temps are probably still high because of the progesterone but they do say that pg success is higher than normal because your body is well aware of what it needs to do. If you are jumping back on the TTC bandwagon then i am crossing everything for you.

Flour so sorry for the loss of your Aunt. And that the bitch got you. And that you are on your own and having to cope with a load of sh*t at the moment. In fact, I am generally just sorry :( hope you are ok.

Lil urgh...............baby dust but I know what you mean about the thestrals, they are a bit creepy. How are you feeling? Exciting news about the MW appointment coming up. Does it feel real yet. Glad the doc has helped ease your mind a little :)

Alex as Lil said, YEY for EWCM; it's like getting the holy grail. I don't get much EWCM (and I can also get it in patches throughout my cycle thanks to the PCOS!) but when it does arrive it gives me a glimmer of hope. Fingers crossed that your temp went up today [fingers crossed emoticon]

Chips loving the new name btw. Can't imagine why MN disliked the old one though. I am sure I have seen much worse. And 10dpo is still very very early for testing. Most women don't get a positive until 13 or 14dpo and even then it can be very faint. When is AF due?

Rusulka and Festie hope all is well with you guys.

Berries when do you start the counselling? Hope you are doing ok.

Nothing to report here. Waiting to have my pre-op on Thursday and still waiting to hear from the estate agents over our house proposal. Hope that we get some good news soon. Also, my DH has applied for a new job and the closing date was yesterday, so am waiting to hear news about that. Seem to spend a lot of my time waiting for other people It's his dream job so do hope we hear something soon. They said he would definitely know either way by the end of the month, so not long to go now.

Phew that was an epic post.

New stats list.

BFP Neverland

Rusulka
Festie
Lilliana

Sitting aloft mattress and dtd

MooleyWooley (30) TTC #1 - cycle 11; AF due 09 May

Waiting to POAS

Please add yourselves to the list!!! :)

Morning all,

Lil - glad docs went well. I am sure everything will be good for you from here on in. Just remember the MOST LIKLEY outcome is that everything will be fine. Enjoy it :)

disco how are you today m'love? It sounds like you're ready to start TTC again which must mean you're feeling stronger?

Sometimes i think the only thing which will make me feel better is to see a 12 week baby in my WOMB. But i'm fucking terrified to try again. Weirdly I really want to do some love making with DH (this has brought us even closer) but I'm not sure if and how long i have to wait before we can dt (condomed)d. I'll go and have a google.

My counselling doesn't have a start date - i am just on the list..... I feel better than I did a few months ago actually, which is weird but I have realised i am a strong lady and with my family i will get through it. I can't think that i won't have another baby ever as that is just unbearable so i have to focus on the fact that my baby will come when it is ready, and maybe i won't have the 'perfect' 2-3 year gap but what i do get will be MY family, and that is perfect.

chips A bfn at 10dpo doesn't mean you're out altogether. I haven't ever got a BFP before 14dpo even on an 'early' test. I'm going to adopt a stern tone now and tell you not to test till AF is due. but I know how hard that is.

moo - i have lost track of what is going on with you and your TTC - any chance of a brief update? Where are you moving to? Your babydust comment made me smile!

Have a good tuesday one and all x

berries I would be glad to give you an update. :)

I still don't ov and still have hideously long cycles, although they seem to be getting shorter as they have gone from 77 to 63 to 23 to 58 (ignoring the 23 because that was when i did actually manage to lay an egg). Since being to the docs I have had a transvaginal ultrasound that detected cycsts on both my ovaries and basically confirming PCOS. I had my gynae appointment at the beginning of January where he did an internal exam, took some swabs and some more blood. DH has submitted 2 SA's but don't know what the results are from them (am assuming nothing untoward as not heard anything). I am now awaiting to have my HSG, where they put a catheter into my uterus and release a dye so that the sonographer can have a better look at my inners. Then I will be prescribed Clomid. I can't have the Clomid until the HSG because if my tubes are blocked then the Clomid won't work.

Hopefully all will be ok though. I am a bit anxious that they might find something else.

Moo - fingers crossed for your HSG appointment. So hoping that it's all fine and that you can finally be prescribed Clomid!! Am I right in thinking the appointment is 26th March? That's coming around quickly now!!

Chips - it's too early to give up yet.....wait until AF is due and hopefully when you test then it will be a BFP!! Really hoping that this month will be the month for you.

Berries - glad that you're feeling a little better and that this experience has brought you and your DH even closer together. It is sometimes quite an eye opener when you do realise just how resilient you are, and though we do have heart breaks along the way, we do get through them becuase we're strong, and because of all the support we have around us. Thinking of you and sending hugs!!

By way of update, my temp shot up this morning and EWCM seems to have disappeared (which I think is a good sign). So I think yesterday must have been ov (now I just have to wait two more days and hope for high temps for them as well)!

Have a good day everyone!! x

Moo, I love the new stats list.... brilliant!
For now adding myself to the Sitting aloft until I know for certain re OV.... (hope that's right)

BFP Neverland

Rusulka
Festie
Lilliana

Sitting aloft mattress and dtd

MooleyWooley (30) TTC #1 - cycle 11; AF due 09 May
AlexEliza (35) TTC #1 - cycle 3; AF due 02 April (approx - not sure!!)

Waiting to POAS

Thanks berries, moo and Alex. I needed a kick up the arse!

Good luck Alex sounds good. Welcome to the tww!

BFP Neverland

Rusulka
Festie
Lilliana

Sitting aloft mattress and dtd

MooleyWooley (30) TTC #1 - cycle 11; AF due 09 May
AlexEliza (35) TTC #1 - cycle 3; AF due 02 April (approx - not sure!!)

Waiting to POAS

chipsandmushypeas (25) ttc#1 cycle 2; AF due 22nd March

BFP Neverland

Rusulka
Festie
Lilliana

Sitting aloft mattress and dtd

MooleyWooley (30) TTC #1 - cycle 11; AF due 09 May
AlexEliza (35) TTC #1 - cycle 3; AF due 02 April (approx - not sure!!)

bonking for fun and enjoying the mattress without TTC
iloveberries (31) having a TTC break after ectopic

Waiting to POAS

chipsandmushypeas (25) ttc#1 cycle 2; AF due 22nd March