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[Northey]

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Dear oh dear oh dear, is all I can say after watching BFGW

Norfy, it really isn't. I spent most of that fortnight in a basement conference room/shouting at reception because the wifi kept stopping working at crucial moments! I do however love my job, most of the time. And we only just managed to get a timely shag in before I left. I think I ovulated on the day I shipped out, so it was nearly a miss (for all the good it did us anyway).

There is an AIBU about that thread???

There was one. Did it get deleted? Hang on. Will hunt.

m.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonable/1406109-To-expect-not-to-be-attacked-on-mumsnet

It's all a bit tornado in a spittoon, but somehow I can't stop reading.

m.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonable/1406109-To-expect-not-to-be-attacked-on-mumsnet

Oh FFS. How pathetic. I have posted on that one.

I have stayed away from that thread, with the exception of one snarky comment right at the beginning.

I have been all upset all day today. Initial appointment at the fertility specialists tomorrow. I am really nervous.

I don't know why the OP irritates me so much. But she does.

Are you upset BECAUSE it's the appointment tomorrow, dor, or something additional. I don't want to tell you something you already know perfectly well, but it's absolutely to be expected that you would feel sick and anxious about it. You've been through so much even to get the damned thing in the first place! I really really hope you don't come away frustrated or disappointed by them. In fact, I feel killy towards them at the thought. Do you have an idea of what you want out of the meeting?

I want to know what investigations they are going to do next. I just want some idea of where we go from here.

I have been upset all weekend and continue to be upset. I think the unfairness of some people getting pregnant easily has just upset me loads and loads this weekend.

I am just proper tearful. I did have acupuncture today though and that made me feel a bit better.

I just want a fucking baby! That's all.

Dor, gd luck tommorrow.

Droid arrived here. Have the most excruciating cramps, and still on nights and having to "lead the team". Which I'm currently doing hiding in an empty office. Ow ow ow.

Shall try and read the aibu thread. Prev v amusing, but I'm too chicken shit to post...

Oh Dor, I know how you feel. In my experience the anticipation of the appointment is far worse than the appt itself. I found it really useful to make notes of anything I wanted to talk to the Dr about: it's so easy to forget things when you're in the room.

Hope it goes well and you get lots of answers.

In Cave-World my temp is still up and there is, currently, a lack of pre-droidal cramps . I'm assuming nothing. Droid is due anytime between Friday and Tuesday, but I'm under instructions to test on CD42 by the fertility nurse, which is Sunday.

My poor dorling. I hope it goes well today. Maybe look up a list of the standard investigations and take it with you and if they don't mention a particular thing on it then ask why not etc. and don't forget to ask about timescales for different interventions (ie when they move from trying one thing to trying another) and things like age and weight barriers and so on (in case you get to the point for clomid and thn they tell you they need to wait for you to lose or gain a stone or something - it's good to get cracking on that sort of thing in advance).

well I have already lost 1st 9lbs, although I am sure they will tell me to lose more.

I am upset this morning, my aunt upset me last night and it has just carried over to this morning.

Why can't I just pull myself together?!

Because you are at a crunch point for something incredibly emotionally important to you

Well done for weightloss, btw. I was told I needed to get to BMI 26 before they could give me clomid. Though they have seemed to find plenty of other reasons for fannying around Are you within range of that?

How did your aunt upset you?

Nope my BMI is still way over that.

My aunt upset me because she said that she felt that she wasn't able to be utterly delighted about her new grand-daughter as she knew that I would be upset. My response was that I am neither responsible for her feelings nor what she does with them, like she is not responsible for mine. And then she basically told me that I was unreasonable for being honest about the fact I am feeling so so that I am not diffed yet.

Thanks all for the progesterone related info I am expecting doc to call today or tomorrow so will report back.

Dor I hope it goes well today, and that you come away with a definitive plan.

Cavey sounds like a good thing? Fingers crossed.

I POAS yesterday, far too early for any sensible outcome. I am an imbecile. I just suddenly had a fantasy of being able to tell JJ I was pregnant for valentines (which we don't tend to make any pertickular song and dance about, but you know). I had convinced by myself that mild discomfort in the belly area was definitely implantation twinges and not the fact that I had eaten an entire pizza to myself the night before.

I have form for that kind of behaviour - I test when I can ignore the BFNs because its too early, even with FMU, and then bottle it* and stop testing before its actually likely to be a definitive negative.

*bottle it psychologically I mean - not the FMU.

Oh Dor [strokes hair]. Your Aunt is, quite simply, a moron. Hard as it is, please try to ignore her.

It's all too much at once, isn't it? Stupid aunt.

The frustrating thing is that usually she isn't a moron. Which makes me wonder whether it is just me being out of order!

Gah. Just have to sit through some Child Protection training before I can escape at lunchtime!

Hey dor. Sorry missed yr aunt-posts earlier. I'd have been upset too. Sometimes even lovely people manage to be quite startlingly insensitive about all this stuff. It's hard for people to see people that they care about hurting. FWIW, it sounds like her not dealing with that well, not you being out of order.

Bugs I admire your dedication to the cause. My sleep outfit at the moment involves PJs, long sleeves and cashmere socks.

Dor I hope your appointment goes well.

Have got another interview for something! Hurrah for the end of joblessness being potentially in sight!

And I managed a shag this morning. Surely I must triumph in one area or the other soon.

By the way, I discovered your parcel when I got back last night! Yum! Thank you very much.