TTC for 10+ months, part 5

[MuddyWellyNelly]

Filled up our old one, I'll put our updated list on a separate post so that it's not a huge chunk of text at the top of every page.

Old thread here. Newbies always welcome, much as we'd like to hope nobody ever gets to this stage of TTC!

pixie congratulations!
I have still been reading as I was sure I would be back again (I still feel like I'm TTC one month on from my BFP). I hope it all goes well. I know they'll be some more good news.. Let's hope they hurry up!

Citysnow - I know what you mean about still feeling like you are ttc - I still have flashes of that and I'm 32 weeks tomorrow!

Hi again. I got the results of my bloods today. The fertility nurse called me and said my result was 20 which she said is sub optimal as they want to see 30+. So Clomid it is I think! Have it waiting just need AF to show now.

Good luck with the Clomid Izzy - let's hope you're following after pixie with another Clomid BFP

Thanks again ladies for all of your good wishes.

I forgot to mention in my earlier post that I did a couple of things differently this cycle (though obviously have no idea as to whether they made any difference). Firstly I didn't have any alcohol at all, and secondly I started accupuncture. I've only had 2 sessions so far (cds 17 & 24), so it might have helped with implantation, but then again... .

Good luck with the Clomid Izzy & for everyone else

Hi ladies, hope you all had lovely weekends!

Firstly, Pixie, that's great news. I'm thrilled for you! And yay for another BFP on here.

Mrsd Welcome back. Your holiday sounds lovley - I'm tres jealous. Sounds like the perfect way to forget about ttc.

izzy sorry to hear your results were "sub optimal", but at least you now have a plan of action, which I find helps immensely.

joy that's interesting about the progesterone cream. And no thinking bad thoughts about mrjoy regretting marrying you.

Can I just echo everyone else's WTF re the scan wine. Izzy's advice sounds sensible and try not to worry about it being something else. Have you got a date for your private scan? Good idea to throw some money at it and get an answer asap. And bless re your rabbit. I might have to try our guinea pig with cheese. She liks chips oddly and steals them off our plates, if we have her out when eating them! Junk food piggy...

ladyg I am v v on your behalf about your work and the leave situation. Totally unbelievable and unacceptable! It's not like you're having a face lift or boob job. As if any of us would have IVF if we didn't have to. The lack of understanding about it annoys me intensely and also makes me worry about telling people. Well done of the injections. You seem to be dealing with it all really well and I hope I will be as sane as you are when we eventually start! Interesting about taking the 2ww off. I'm trying to save my leave for when we start, but aren't really sure what time I would need to take off.

Kitty, I'm pleased to hear you had a nice weekend away and well done on the healthy food! Now it's almost February, I've kinda given up and guzzled lots of wine and chocolate yesterday. MrGin has stuck to his not drinking for a month though, which I'm really impressed by.

Pleased to hear that nelly and lemon both were having nice weekends. And hi to everyone I've missed.

The tide has started today for me. It's really early for me (the shortest cycle in 19 months), but I'm not too worried after lots of mental googling, as I'm sure I ovulated really early this month too, so the timing is right from that perspective. Not feeling too miserable about it - spent yesterday having lunch with my lovely friend who's also having problems in the whole having babies area (although her story is much worse than mine in many ways). Anyway, it was lovely to drink wine with her and to bitch in RL about how jealous we are of pregnant people we know! On my way home this evening bought a bumper 60 sanitary towels - they were on offer - so it appears that I really have given up of this happening naturally....

mrsd that sounds like a great holiday.

That's terribly disappointing from my perspective, Pixie. I was hoping you were going to tell us you were hammered every night and only managed a couple of half hearted shags well away from ov. Dammit.

Quick message as have people round but YAY pixie!! How good it must feel to see two lines, hope it starts to sink in quickly and boo that I might now have to contemplate a month on the wagon! Enjoy every minute x

evening everyone! no time just now for a proper catch up but wanted to say congratulations to pixie - hooray!

Hi everyone!

Had a quick flick through but haven't got time to write a proper post....
Just wanted to say huge congratulations to Pixie so happy for you

My drugs are due to be delivered tomorrow, quite excited

Thanks everyone for your well wishes when I was feeling down and crappy. I'll catch up properly tomorrow

Hello ladies. Firstly a huge congratulations to pixie . I read earlier on my phone, but didn't have time to write anything. Metallic taste, you say? . Maybe that ERTD I just had was a 5 day implantation bleed then! Seriously though, you must be in shock . It is always nice to hear of BFP pulled out of the bag like a magician's trick, so nice to know sometimes it just does take time. However I can't hear you on the no drinking, especially as I am finishing off a cheeky glass of NZ sauvignon.

Sorry -started this ages ago but got distracted watching Birdsong on sky+! Need to go to bed soon but also wanted to say the doctor called me back today, so is going to do a referral. He did say "which might take a few months". Oh well, no rush or anything. Still, at least it's now going in the system, but I have no idea when I will hear anything. You never know, maybe the NHS will surprise me .

Working at home tomorrow, will try to catch up properly! Even though it's only been a day or two...

Well AF is here so will be starting clomid tomorrow!

Hi everyone,
Congratulations Pixie. Acupuncture hey? I've always wanted to try that.
Fingers crossed on the Clomid Izzy.
Wine Thanks for making me chuckle. I never could believe anyone would rely on the withdrawal method, having been told numerous times growing up by my Mum, YOU WILL GET PREGNANT if you do . Makes me laugh when I think about it as I'm propped up on my little cushion trying not to let any of the little buggers fall out.

Got a bit of a question actually. I've had some spotting today. It's not that unusual for me mid cycle, but I wondered if anyone else experiences this and if you've had any suggestions or confirmations on why it happens. Def not ovulation bleed as the pee stick came up neg. Is it a common PCOS thing?

Well off to bed for me after a gruelling gym class. I have been abs rubbish lately but suddenly it seems very important that I give my body as much help as I can, so it's back to the gym to torture myself for the next few weeks. Oh well if things don't work out at least I'll have a killer body

Congratulations Pixie

Dammit, I always miss the good stuff!!! Massive congratulations pixie That is fabulous news, I am so chuffed for you. It definitely gives us ladies hope that a BFP can pop out unexpectedly. Wishing you all the best.

Sorry if I don't name check but U have missed loads.

Firstly wine how frustrating that you have a shy fibroid. I can't imagine how annoying it must be to gear yourself up for your appointment and then for it not to show on the screen. Do you know what the next plan is?

ladyg I am flabbergasted by the insensitivity of your work, like you need the stress of them being arses on top of everything else. Your plan sounds like a good one and I hope that they see how important it is that you can rest and recuperate without the stresses of work. Good luck with sorting it out.

mrsd I'm glad that you had a good holiday. Can't believe that you're back already, time really does fly though not on the 2ww
Sorry about the mistimed SWI but reading on here about ovulations occuring when they really shouldn't maybe you'll be okay. I am wondering now whether we throw in the towel too early each month.......

nelly Good news on your referral. My first referral took 6 weeks from getting the form thingy and choosing the hospital online so FX you'll be as quick too.

gin sorry about AF and LOL on bumper sanitary towel stocking. Everytime I buy them I always think how with any luck I won't need them but buy them anyway to try and tempt fate. What a joke!

kitty Glad to hear that you had a good break away and I am impressed that you are back in the health kick.

Oh noooo, I've missed loads of you, sorry but big waves.

I went to the GP yesterday. I saw a different one and he took me much more seriously and seemed to actually listen, though he didn't want to read my print outs! He has referred me to a gynae so I have to wait for a letter. He says the gynae will discuss endo with me and if they feel it appropriate investigate. He also ordered loads of blood tests including thyroid and others like blood count and liver function because of my bleeding bowel episode. He wants to rule out inflammatory bowel disease and other nasties that I don't want to contemplate. I also have to have an examination in that, ahem, area but I bottled it and have to go back in a couple of weeks for that. So what with all the TTC investigations all the bases are now well and truly covered in the embarassing stakes. Wonderful

Obviously should ready I have missed loads

Well done pout on going back to the GP's. It sounds like this one is much more proactive so hopefully you'll get somewhere this time. TMI but I'm having bowel trouble today. I feel constipated (although I'm not) and I have cramps and feel generally tender and bleugh in my lower tummy and bowel.

That's good news about the referral nelly, hopefully you'll get that BFP before it comes through.

mess I don't really get mid cycle spotting and I have pcos so I'm not sure they're related. I get spotting two or three days before AF starts properly.

woo hoo for the drugs fatima. When do you start injecting? Are you on long or short protocol? Do you know anything about the woman you are donating your eggs too?

lady can't believe you are already on the ivf journey, you're so close now. Fingers crossed it works for you.

gin I hope you don't need that bumper pack. I always buy in bulk too, in the hope that I'll be left with a cupboard full of redundant sanitary towels. I still have 8 pregnancy tests that I bought at the beginning. Do they have a use by date? I reckon they'll be long out of date by the time I need them.

izzy exciting about starting clomid, just think it worked for pixie

Has the news sunk in yet pixie?

wine I reckon you're a long way off having to think about adoption. I'm like euro and I don't think it's for me because I want my own biological child but I'd never say never because a while ago I would have said I'd never do IVF.

The early / late ovulation thing is such a tease isn't it? I wonder how orthodox jews ever manage to get pregnant because I'm sure the women have to abstain from relations for 7 days after the end of their period which means it would be CD12 or so before they can SWI so early ovulaters would have no chance. I think it's possible to SWI throughout the cycle in the early days but I honestly don't think I could manage it now. My drive is very low at the moment.

joycep where do you have to rub the cream??

I'm not liking being back at work. Yesterday was awful and today's not much better. It doesn't help that I feel rubbish. I'd be excited with the tummy cramps if I thought I'd got the SWI timing right. I'm only on CD22 and boobs are really sore, so this is going to be a short cycle I think. I missed a pregnancy announcement while I was off. This woman gave birth to her first 3 months after I started trying and now she is pregnant with her second. Also, my friend is due any day now and she started trying 6 months after we started. I hate these sort of milestones now.

Congrats Pixie really pleased for you

pout I was investigated in that area when I had very severe IBS symptoms (before I was diagnosed with IBS). I can't say it was pleasant but I would probably take it more in my stride now with all the other prodding and poking I have had than I did in my 20s!

It's amazing that so many of us are starting IVF now. I am still a couple of cycles off that but it is there in the future. I am coming to terms with using it now. I just needed a little more time and desperation to get my head around it I think.

The drugs have arrived, it's a right bagful

mrsden I'm on short protocol, I should be starting injecting around the 18th Feb. Don't think i've ever wanted AF to come around so quickly!

Getting a bit nervous about injecting and the suppositories, but with it being SP there should only be around 10 days of it.

Got an appointment at MFS next Weds where they'll show me how to inject and when etc. Also have another dildo cam and an MRSA swab.
Also have our next NHS appointment at Jessops next Monday as well so a busy week

How's everyone else?

fatima - so what happens first, isn't there something that you have to sniff to dereg you or effectively stop you ovulating? I don't really know the process- and what's the difference between short and long.
pout - hurrah at getting an active Gp after appallingly useless one. Sorry about the back door investigations though- as if front door isnt enough for one person.
mrsd - sorry about tummy cramps - have you eaten something or are they period pains? I can't bear thinking about all these people who are expecting their second in the time we have been trying. 2 years of trying is enough time for 2 babies in a normal woman. Bloody depressing.
euro - what did your scan show?
mess - sorry I don't seem to spot and not entirely sure what it means.
gin - sorry about AF - boo. To short cycle but pleased you have a real life friend to share things with.
DH home must fly x

Hi Ladies

Sorry for not keeping up today, I ended up being very busy and am just shutting down my work computer now, boo. Anyway just wanted to say sorry about AF gin and about the other end problems pout. Exciting about IVF being so close fatima. Welcome back from skiing mrsden I am so jealous and it really is the best way to clear your head isn't it? I too hope I get the BFP before referral, my doc described it as "what usually happens is I do the referal then get a call to say the patient is pregnant". I told him I will try my best .

Still feeling oddly low today, I can't shake it off this month. Is it because we are hitting the 18 month mark? I don't know what it is but feeling a bit panicky again.

Anyway too much work and not enough sleep won't be helping so better go to bed. Before I do though, I have a new theory that the reason I am not pregnant yet is because I'm using the wrong tests. All the threads on here say OOOH the Superdrug ones are very good and sensitive, so I think that's what I've done wrong. I've been peeing on the wrong type of stick all this time .

Very quick post to say I've popped my first Clomid pill!!!! Taking at night to hopefully sleep thru side effects :)

Morning all, a sneaky wave from very busy work! Just wanted to say congratulations pixie! So happy for you. Not much to report here, will catch up properly at the end of the week, for now love and chocolate cake to all!

Morning ladies,

mrsd - welcome back! Glad you had a great time skiing - sounds like the perfect holiday.

izzy - good luck with the clomid. I've taken the same strategy with the down-reg injections, they seem to knock me out so I have no trouble getting to sleep at the moment!

pout - that's great news that you had a better experience with your GP and that you've got the referral. Hope it doesn't take too long to come through

gin - I'm sorry about AF's arrival.

fatima - I know what you mean about the big bag of drugs - I joked with the nurse to say that at least it felt like I was getting my money's worth! I'm quite envious that you'll only have 10 days or so of injections - think I've got at least twice that. Hope your appts all go ok.

nelly - I'm so sorry you're still feeling low and panicky. It's horrible. Maybe it is the 18 month mark, and January is always a month for too much contemplation so I hope February marks the start of brighter days ahead for you.

joycep - glad the progesterone is having an effect. On my job, it can be very stressful as I'm responsible for winning new business and doing all the public facing stuff - so it's a lot of travelling at short notice and you need to be on top form. I just don't want to let anyone down really.

The good news is that my letter to work seems to have done the trick. So much so that I now feel a little bit bad for sending it in the first place I've had an apology and a letter in response saying that they will pay me for sick leave and they are happy to me to take the time I need. I think they must have taken advice from somewhere because it smacks of legalese (sp?) rather than sincerity. Still have to formally sort it, and my relationship with them has probably changed forever, but I feel like a weight has been lifted.

Waves to everyone I've missed