medee Shirley 2009 you came off the pill, not 2010?
I can only speak for myself, but I felt much more 'normal' when the bleeding stopped, it closed that chapter. It was very hard over the course of the next few droids as I kept expecting one of those 'elevated hormone' wins, so the lack of was a kick in the teeth every month. When I went on to get a subsequent bfp 5 cycles later I made the conscious decision to embrace each and every day. I could not control the outcome of my pregnancy, but I could choose to celebrate my happiness and excitement until someone in a white coat would tell me otherwise. I didn't want to live 8 months in fear and terror and scared of lying down in the shower. ;) now perhaps that makes me deluded, but it was the way I chose to be.
I hope things can settle down quickly in here. Life can be really hard, take faith's week for example, this is probably not the time to tell her I went 'mad' at benefit in sephora the other week or that yesterday I took delivery of a giant make-up case... ;) - as I meant, life is hard and sometimes discretion is the better part of valour, nobody goes around giving high-5's at this misfortune of others. Charlotte's mc in SATC series five is imo particularly poignant, when she paints on her happy face and goes to support Carrie.
There was a difficult period in the palais when 4 of us got bfp's in one week and there was some anger and resentment and the group unfortunately felt some division. Thankfully things are better now, but nobody gets a bfp to spite someone else.
Keep BESH bitterness directed at the morons who ask if it's possible they're pregnant given the unprotected sex and then ask 'omg, how did this happen?'. That's justifiable bitterness, their children will go to school with yours!