ciwi how are you coping at the moment? You're very close to the time you lost Ciaran now aren't you (hugs). Definitely ask for a scan if you need one, my consultant has been really good about offering what I need emotionally and not just medically.
too I'm not keen on stay positive either but then I also don't like people saying things will be ok as they weren't last time and noone can promise me that they will be this time. One of the midwives at the hospital said to me that she won't promise that things will be ok but she will promise that they will be there for me and do everything possible to get me through this. Almost had me in tears. I'm the sort of person that really hates crying in front of other people, I hold it all in until I'm alone, but I've been close a few times lately around others.
Thea's headstone is beautiful, we've decided to wait until next year until getting Scarlett's now. I just can't being myself to do it now, it doesn't feel right. The photo of you and Thea is also beautiful :)
jane yay you're now married :o
fan I'm not sure I could do all this again. I'm dreading 37 weeks and really hoping I have the baby before then. It feels to me like everything stops at that point. I'm definitely a different person now. I'm so different to what I was like a year ago, I'm a lot more forgiving and less rash, I think a lot more before I do things and I worry a lot more too. I always think of things in the light of there may not be a tomorrow and hate to argue. I do speak my mind though and I'm a lot more harsh in my thoughts of things that others complain about. I don't voice these but I cannot help think them :( It's odd as last Christmas was technically Scarlett's first but it doesn't feel like it, this year feels more like it. It was only a few weeks after she was born that Christmas came around though and we had her funeral on the 29th Dec too so it was all a bit of a numb haze at that point.
razz what you say about a bubble being burst is so true, this never crossed my mind before and now it's always there. Samuel is a lovely name, I really like it. Not your fault you both like the name, did you tell her that you've chosen that name?
mel 10 weeks, must have your scan soon? Are you having a nuchal? Glad your break was good :)
Angel sorry things aren't going good with dh, I did find it hard with the lack of sleep and a newborn with mine. It really does put a kind of film over everything around you. It's amazing how different you can feel after a good sleep. I hope you do sort things out though, you have been through so much together as too said.
blue the month I bought a clearblue monitor I got pregnant! I am glad I did though and I can keep it for next time (if there is one!) I hope things get easier for you soon. Sorry dh failed his test :( Fingers crossed for next time, I hope he passes the next one. I might put Scarlett's name on all our cards that I send out, it feels wrong not to but also people may think it's odd, I don't care though! She existed and still does so deserves to be on them too. I'm really not sure though, have to have a think about it. I didn't send cards last year though at all. Glad you have your moving date now!
August my monitor cost about £50 I think, I'm sure I bought it from amazon and it's cheaper there than elsewhere.
spilt I had a bauble ordered for Scarlett which came a while ago, it's not too unlike the ones you've ordered. Yours are very lovely. Dreams are so real aren't they :( (hugs)