Hi everyone.
Curly - so sorry to hear about the scar tissue. Were you expecting that news? I don't know what I'd do in your shoes? I suppose I would think about it in terms of what each option offers in terms of chances for a pregnancy. For example - will you get more chances, or a higher % chance of pregnancy if you have the surgery? Will IVF give you a greater chance, and will it cost the earth? And will you feel okay with just carrying on as before? I have heard that women with missing tubes compensate with the other tube swinging over to catch the egg from the tubeless side - but don't know if the same applies for the blocked tube.
I suppose if you have the surgery and it takes two months out of ttc, but gives you more chances for ttc because both tubes work, it might be worth it. It's a difficult decision. ((hugs))
LOL do you have any news on the testing front?
I'm feeling so much better after seeing my acupuncturist yesterday. As soon as the first 5 or 6 needles went in I felt my body relax, which I really needed.
We talked about the miscarriage (it's the first time I've seen her since the mc), and although she doesn't have any answers for me, she did say that we cannot know why the Universe does these things to us, but I should be reassured that it is part of my journey and somehow it will all "fit" in place. She also said that the losses also have made me more compassionate and forces me to live in the present, to feel the grief, which is supposed to be good for me. Maybe one day I'll agree, but for now it feels difficult and unfair. One loss was bad enough, two is horrible - will I have to endure more?
She also said my kidney yin essence is depleted, so I am taking some Chinese Herbal medicine. It should help with all things fertility - EWCM, thickening the endometrium etc. I have been feeling hot and dry, and it should help with that.
I got through my due date - was tough. Wanted to cry a lot, but Charlie didn't like it - it upset him. He'd be by my side in seconds with a tissue, telling me it's "awright". I didn't do anything to mark the day - I wish I had. But my Dh brought flowers home for me. Which was very nice. I'm on the other side of it now, and I survived. But I can't say I feel any better. Still wish I had the baby in my arms.
I'm going to phone my Dr today about the blood tests. I had a letter from the fertility clinic.They want me to fill out pages and pages of information. Which is understandable, but with the section about "previous pregnancies" it only has five places. I need two more spaces!LOL. Don't really look like a fertility clinic patient, do I? Then there was a whole lot of stuff about IVF and treatments and a bit where we both have to sign in front of a witness. It all seems so serious! I just want some advice about miscarriage. I'm in two minds about going. On the one hand I feel like I'll just wait and see what happens - go to acupuncture, take supplements etc...but I did that before, and alas, it didn't work out. On the other hand, this doctor might just have a protocol for miscarriage that works. I have the appointment, and can change my mind, but I reckon I'll go, just to see what he says. I think a dictaphone would be handy, because I'm bound to forget much of what he says.
When you have that kind of appointment, do you make notes while you are there?