ninja just the general selfishness they tend to display - you know, fine when they're doing what they want to but awful when they have to break from that to do what we want to.
Though as an example - he blamed me for the rain that meant we had to leave the beach 
He also directly disobeyed an order, three minutes after it was given. And it was important too, not just a 'don't touch those biscuits' kind of order. I got very, very cross with him.
He is lonely, he told me that directly. He's noticing that other people have siblings to play with. I can't do anything about it. I do try to socialise him as much as poss, but everyone else with kids is so damn busy all the time 
AF due Sunday, I woke at 6am and couldn't sleep so stupidly did a test and of course BFN. Increasingly this whole thing is starting to affect me daily now, I can feel myself starting to become depressed and that's usually a winter thing for me. Being a mum is all I've ever really wanted to do, and suddenly it seems a very real possibility that my part-time parenting of DS will be my lot and it's like having the rug pulled from under me. If i can't have another child what the effing hell am I going to do with my life? I feel like i'm floundering - there is nothing else I have any desire to fill my days with. And even the things I did enjoy hold no pleasure for me any more
Sorry to offload, I have no-one else who I can be honest with about how i feel. I'm tired of the NHS waiting game, and that will only get worse. I think that i'm getting very, very close to stepping away from the TTC completely and having some counselling because this is all having such a negative effect on my life.