Just a quick one from me to wish MLS congratulations - lovely news and a gorgeous name 
Thanks for the the texts Neeko you are lovely.
Sabs I'm a X-Factor girl too - I LOVE it! Thought Aidan and Matt were fab on Sat night, and was surprised too by y'days results, but then they weren't going to win either of them so needed to go at some point! I thought Wagner and John would go actually.
Sorry to hear about the stress with your work, it's so sh*tty that you have to go through this. You never know, they could just be going through some kind of formality and could take into account the way things have changed since you were last working? I really hope that things work out okay...
Barbie Am absolutely 
at the way some of those posters on your other thread have reacted, esp the last lady - I was just rolling up my sleeves to get stuck in when she realised that yes, actually she hadn't read your previous posts properly. What I don't understand is why posters were being so harsh.
I've been trying to think back to what we did with ds, and although it seems like such a long time ago now, I think that we just did whatever we needed to do to get him to sleep. He has always been a good sleeper, so I know we were very lucky, but when he did wake during the night I normally let him fall asleep in the bed with us, and then transferred him into his cot later on. It meant that he was used to sleeping in his cot at the same time as falling asleep easily with us. Probably entirely the wrong thing to have done, but we never had a problem with him figuring out that eventually he needed to sleep in his own bed, and not ours! I know co-sleeping is frowned upon, but it worked for us, and tbh I couldn't have kept my eyes open any longer. I would fall asleep while he was feeding (mastered a fab position so I didn't really need to move but yet he could get to both boobs 
) It really helped, just having that extra bit of sleep, and sometimes he would stir, and just latch on without me having to move!
You probably wouldn't consider doing this, but just thought I'd share in case!
BQ Massive congratulations to you too - sorry I haven't been on earlier to say that. Let's hope this is the first in a rather long line of successful BFP's How are you feeling?
Louey Big (((hug))) for you for last week, and for all the stress you're going through with the boys schooling. Maybe a holiday is what you DO need right now - time away from this situation might help a little? I know it won't go away, but maybe if you manage to enjoy yourself with your lovely boys, you might come back a bit lighter and be able to face things a little easier when you return. Hope you have a lovely time.
Cupcake Sorry that things have been tough for you too... Glad J settled on hols, and that you had a good time. How was the food? I love France I don't know the place you went but my FIL has a place in the Lot/Dordogne so Southern France - everywhere's lovely down there!
Blue Your new room sounds lovely, and gorgeous colour scheme You'll have to post pics when it's all finished, and then we can get you to give us interior design advice
Thanks for the suggestion of counselling. I have been a few times actually, to a lady near here, but just feel like we didn't even touch the surface. I have so many feelings/emotions that need to get out, I know, but I just don't know where to start, and the lady here charges 50 Euro for a 50 min session. With ds having to have speech therapy I feel it's more important for him to go to his sessions. We can't really justify doing both. Also, I found it incredibly uncomfortable sitting there crying in front of someone I don't know. My problem, I know, but it was horrible. I also feel like there is really no-one except me who can deal with these feelings. If mum was still around it would be so much easier as I used to speak to her two or three times a day and she knew me inside out. No-one can replace that 
. Thanks so much for suggesting it though
I'd better go as I need to get ds fed. Lots of love to you all and apologies to those I've missed! xxx