Please hold my hand - cancer.

[Trazzletoes]

Currently in hospital since last night with DS who is 3. Scans show masses on his brain. Drs believe them to be tumours, likely to have come from his abdomen.

Waiting for more scans/tests etc. staff are being overly nice to us which is worrying me more (though they did refer us to social services last night as they thought DH or I had fractured DS' skull.

Feel incredibly sick. He is 3 years old. Please hold my hand.

So sorry to hear this. Stay strong and positive x

Trazzle I'm so desperately sorry to read your posts. Other posts have said more eloquently than I can that your love and strength is there and will be helping you rbeautiful boy. I am praying for your little one & you & your family.

I'm so sorry you didn't get better news. Look forward, not back x

Im so sorry Trazzle. Don't add guilt to your load. You're the same as the rest of us... We're all here for you. Xxxx

Oh you poor darling, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through

I'm so so sorry this is happening, it must be such an unbelievable shock to you all

How is your little poppet feeling? Probably a stupid question but is he ok in himself? Is he comfortable and not in too much pain?

You will get through this,just take each day, each minute one at a time. You will be strong for your darling boy but you don't have to be strong all of the time, no one expects that of you

None of this is your fault and no precious time has been wasted, even when you were doing boring mundane things and telling him off he was surrounded in a cocoon of love, he has been loved since he entered the world and he will know and feel that so please don't feel guilty that you haven't done enough, you have, you are his mummy and all those little things are part of being a mummy

Sending love and strength to you all xxxx

I'm so sorry and sending lots of love xxx hope you get some better news next week

I'm so sorry. Thinking of you and hoping for the best.

I'm so sorry to hear about your poor DS. You may feel broken but you will find a way through this. Do not feel any guilt. You had no way of knowing what was wrong with your DS and you were simply getting on with life as we all do, trying to fit everything in. He knows that you love him.

Please let us know if we can do anything practical to help. There will be a Mimsnetter near you willing to help. Will be thinking of you and your family.

Thinking of you all xxx

It's hard to tell how he is feeling as we were up til 3am so he is exhausted, but he seems to be his usual darling self.

I know it's unwise to post pictures of one's children in public but I've added a photo of him to my profile so you can see how totally adorable he is. His spirit matches him completely. He's so gentle and loving. I'm off to bed now. Really I am. Need sleep.

Where are you? One or more of us will be nearby x

You are in my thoughts and prayers and i just cannot imagine what you are going through.

Please ask for help and there will be someone there for you. I am in Berks if that helps.

xx

I'm in east Anglia if there is anything I can do to help.

I am thinking of you all, and the fight ahead of you, because there will be a fight and you will stand firm by your sons side.

Xxx

Trazzle if it is neuroblastoma, this charity can maybe help and give you support:

www.familiesagainstneuroblastoma.org/

The two families we know whose children received the same diagnosis have used them for support and fundraising for treatment abroad.

Do not beat yourself up about missing this until now or misunderstanding the symptoms. That is completely the norm for this disease. I remember all too well being cross and frustrated with DD for being whinging and difficult for weeks just before her leukaemia diagnosis. It makes you feel awful in retrospect, but doing that at the time is normal too. These illnesses hide and look like nothing much until they are larger than you might think. DD's bone marrow was almost all leukaemia cells at diagnosis, but even then the gp still thought she just had a bug until tests showed otherwise.

Your son is gorgeous! Thinking of you all. xx

He looks beautiful. I am in central scotland. x

You poor thing. You've had such a massive shock. Your ds is gorgeous, one of mine is the same age.
I hope you get some rest and sleep.

I'm in the Midlands.

xxx

Adding to the circle of hand holding x

I am sending all the strength and positive vibes I cAn muster to you xxxx

Oh, he is so adorable!

NE Scotland here btw

I'm so sorry your beautiful boy is going through this. You have absolutely nothing to feel guilty about & you'll find amazing strength because you are strong (although it may not feel like it).

[I'm on my phone so can't access PMs properly but I'm in Solihull if that's anywhere nearby.]

Wishing you & your family all the very best.

Trazzle, he is an absolutely gorgeous child.
I'm praying so hard for you all.
I am in Glasgow and ready to offer any assistance xxxx

Trazzle!

He is a cutey! And with footballer hair already at 3

Try and get some sleep tonight lovey x

Where abouts are you? Just in case one of us can be of some help?

x

Oh no, firstly what a gorgeous little boy you have, such a cheeky smile!

Secondly, I cant say anything to make you feel better, but if I could put my arms around you I would. Thinking of all of you, much much love coming from London xxx

Thinking of you all x