Please hold my hand - cancer.

[Trazzletoes]

Currently in hospital since last night with DS who is 3. Scans show masses on his brain. Drs believe them to be tumours, likely to have come from his abdomen.

Waiting for more scans/tests etc. staff are being overly nice to us which is worrying me more (though they did refer us to social services last night as they thought DH or I had fractured DS' skull.

Feel incredibly sick. He is 3 years old. Please hold my hand.

Thinking of you and your family. Your son looks so lovely. I'm in Yorkshire so please get in touch if you need/want to.

Have just read this and seen your news. I am so so sorry to hear of your wee boy's diagnosis. Sending you loads of love and prayers.

Your son is very cute.
Sending you some strength for the next few weeks

OP I've just seen this. I am sendings all the positivity and good vibes I can, hoping that your darling boy has a chance to fight this. My heartfelt thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH, and of course your lovely little boy.

Trazzle, so sorry to hear about your little boy's diagnosis. I'll be thinking of you all and praying hard for all of you. Stay strong. X

I have just videoed him sleeping. He looks so peaceful and blissfully unaware of the journey ahead.

I have just learned that he sings in his sleep. I never knew that about him.

Learned today that the bastard cancer in his head could eat his beautiful blue eyes and skull. Bastard bastard bastard.

I'm so so sorry. I hope that the treatment is possible. Sending you love and strength.

(((())))) I am praying Trazzletoes.

So sorry to hear of your little boy's diagnosis, I hope so much that treatment is possible and successful. Sending love to you and your beautiful boy xx

Oh honey {hugs}

He has a fantastic loving family who will lend him their strength for what's to come. Let us lend you our strength and use us as a release so that you can keep being the fierce loving mother that shines through in your posts for as long as it takes for him to get better.

Checking in to see how you're doing this evening. You know where we are overnight if you need/want to talk, rant, shout, ramble about seemingly unrelated stuff that you need to get off your chest at 2am.

Thinking about you all. There are no words. Here for you whatever you need and whenever you need it xx

((((hugs)))) Trazzle, I am so sorry. Thinking of you, and hoping you get quick answers and sucessful treatment xx

I just wanted to say I'm sending love and willing you all through this . Wishing you all strength through this journey xx

((((hugs))))

Just hang on when you can to the fact that however evil and awful this is, there are many kids out there who do get through this. I know a beautiful little girl just a little older than your DS who got an aggressive form of neuroblastoma as a baby and the odds were really against her. She is over a year off treatment now and she is glorious and thriving.

When you can't hang on, cry as much as you can let yourself. It took me what felt like forever to come to terms with the fact that my beautiful innocent 3yo had cancer. It is OK to fall apart. It is OK to rant and swear and scream and lean on anyone who will listen. It is OK to have days you feel like running screaming and that the whole world doesn't make sense any more and think you can't do this. You will find a way to pick yourself up again and do what needs to be done, even though it feels like an impossible ask right now.

Hoping with everything I've got that all the tests come back showing this can be fought and beaten. In the meantime talk here and on the other thread as much as you want to.

(((massive hugs)))
Praying for your gorgeous little boy. x

Sending you hugs and prayers Trazzle xx

Oh Trazzle, I am so sorry that you have had more bad news. I so much hope that treatment is possible and this horrible cancer can be stopped.

Lots of hugs.

So sorry OP. I hope you get better news later in the week. Take care.

Trazzle - what a terrible shock for you all :( Cancer is indeed a bastard. It is beyond comprehension when it strikes anyone, let alone a child.

DS is completely adorable - a very beautiful child indeed! Bet he takes after his Mum

Please stop beating yourself up for being a 'normal' Mum with a 'normal' child - we all chivy them along when they're dawdling painfully and get cross with them when they're being annoying and get on with jobs that need doing even when they want to play - it's normal life!

Sending lots of love and strength x

Holding your hand and willing you and your gorgeous little one all the strength I possibly can. Each day at a time sweetie, thinking and praying for you xx

Complete & utter fucking bastard indeed.

Wishing you strength.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about you, your beautiful boy and family this evening. I have children of very similar ages to yours and your posts have really touched me. You are such an amazing, courageous mum.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please do let me know if there is anything at all I can do to help as I am local.

Holding your hand very tightly. I've been thinking about you and your family all day. It is a bastard.

Please don't feel guilty about anything. You are a lovely, kind, amazing person and a fantastic mother to your dc. They have a great family life and know they mean the world to you. We all have to do the normal stuff instead of playing all the time, you can't berate yourself for that.

Your ds is so beautiful. All of us here are praying for him. He's strong and so are you.

Sending you all the strength in the world xxx

More (((hugs))) for you here.
I love that your boy sings in his sleep, how wonderful! really hope that they can treat him before any further damage is done.

Bastard indeed. :(