Hi turkey BakedPotato and hully I did semi-jokingly say "Can I not just have the section now I'm here and prepped?!" as I'd not eaten since the night before and taken all the pre meds, packed for the hospital, etc. But the anaesthetist looked quite horrified and said "Why would you want to still go ahead with it?" He made me feel it was a ridiculous thing to consider. Maybe I should have pushed for it (no pun intended) as the thought of "natural" labour is now really freaking me out, but at the same time the thought of surgery was scaring me too so I truly didn't know what was best to do.
I had gotten my head around the idea of the section and when we left home this morning we kept saying "the next time we walk back in these rooms, we'll have our baby!" etc. so it's weird now to have come home without him
but my husband said he'd back whatever I wanted to do and in the end I said well let's leave it up to the baby to come when he's ready.
I cancelled my 40-week midwife appointment this afternoon as I was so shattered and didn't want a sweep/to discuss induction. Not just yet, today was too much emotionally. We came home and slept for a few hours as we'd both been awake with nerves most of last night.
I guess I'll wait another week at least until my 41-week appointment and see what happens… We did have a second more detailed scan after the first one this morning, to check measurements and blood flow are all ok, which they seem to be. So I'm confident everything is fine.
As we were leaving, the lady who went down for her ELCS just before me was coming back with her baby and I did feel very jealous that for her, it was all done and dusted! 