I'm 5foot 2 and weigh 14stone 8lb

[TellysAndWellys]

How did this happen. I am so, so ashamed of myself. I used to weigh in 13 stone, then overhauled my whole diet and got down to 9stone 8lb.

But I've put it all back on. And so much more. This is shameful and I cannot believe I have let it get this bad. I've even had to buy some size 20 tops. I have tried slimming world but that didn't really
Work for me. So I'm back to calorie counting. And 5:2. From today. I've got to stop making excuses. I am going on an amazing holiday in January with my 2 best friends and. CAN'T be the size I am now.

I am sick of feeling tired, uncomfortable and just plain shit because of what I eat. I've taken before photos (won't post them as they would scar you forever) and have stuck a photo of myself at my smallest when I still thought I looked fat on the fridge for inspiration. I can do this!!!

lambert, if you ate out could you order yourself something healthy? A substantial salad would be fine. Or one of the tandoori Indian dishes.

Go out! You only live once. And you've got to be realistic with a diet. I'd go but try and stick to something relatively healthy (most restaurants have low calorie options on their menu), and that wait you can still enjoy yourself. Make the most of this time whilst you've got it :)

I have persuaded him that we should head straight home tomorrow night because I've just realised we are out Saturday evening and Sunday lunch as well as tomorrow evening and I cannot justify eating out 4 days in a row! (It's no surprise I'm overweight really is it!).

pondering good suggestion - thank you. I will try and keep to low carb / grilled meat and salad / veg at these various meals out.

How is everyone else doing today?

I did ok yesterday. Ended the day on just over a thousand calories.

Haven't had anything eat at all, in finding it easier to not eat in the day now I've given it a few days. I'm having pizza for tea tonight though (pizza and chips night in the welly household!) so that'll cancel out my lack of eating today but it's worth it. I'll be weighing myself first thing in the morning so keep your fingers crossed.

How are you finding today?

Well done telly! You've earned your pizza.

I've got to the end of day 5 of eating just dinner each day. I haven't counted calories properly but should be comfortably less than 800 each day. I will ramp up the calories a bit next week but feel I've successfully shrunk my stomach a bit and broken the habit of eating too much and constantly.

Looking forward to my dinner and drinks tonight.

How is everyone else?

Yeah that's exactly how I feel, I think I'm going try to only eat tea. I might take some little snacks to work to nibble on but I don't feel hungry at all. I was starving earlier for about a hour, but that passed. Enjoy your night out tonight

Properly stuffed my face tonight. Had pizza from Dominos then I've eaten 10. Yes TEN!!! Caramel shortcake bites at 72 calories each. Shameful. But oh so good. My only defence is i feel really full now so I've put the other 8 away for tomorrow whereas a week ago I would have just polished off the box. Ah well, back on it tomorrow. Weigh day tomorrow!

telly I've had aaaaallll the calories tonight! A starter plus a main, a glass of prosecco, half a bottle of red, aaaaand two cocktails.

Glad you enjoyed your caramel shortcake m. Yummy.

I won't be able to help myself but stand on the scales tomorrow morning and I will sooooo regret tonight. Eeeeeeek!

I bet it was so worth it though! And don't you think eating healthy all week makes it taste soooo much better. That dominos last night tasted like the angels made it

Just been to weigh myself.... 4lb off!!!

Awesome telly!!!! You're right, you do appreciate it much much more!

I've just weighed too, also 4lb off. Yesssss that feels good!

Thats brilliant! It feels amazing. I was dissapointed I can't suddenly fit into a size 8 though. 14stone 3 now so I'm hoping next week I'll drop into the 13 stone range. Going to start exercising from Monday so fingers crossed that'll help as well.

We should be so proud of ourselves!

What exercise wil you do? I am hopeless at exercise. I quite fancy doing classes of some sort but I'm very uncoordinated and ì am too pathetic to go along on my own!

Running! Which, if you knew me in real life, you would fall to the floor and never ever get up again as you'd be too busy laughing! Also thinking if trying yoga.

I have eated everything in site this weekend. Been away with a friend and just got home. I will list what I have eaten to shame myself:
Friday night-dominos, side of cheese bites
Saturday (wait for it)-
Chocolate donut
Pizza (again!!!)
3 bags of crisp
2 cheese rolls
3 cans of fuzzy pop
4 bottles of wine

Today-
3 bags of crisps (that's the multi pack polished off!)
2x cheese toasties
The rest of the caramel bites from Friday
And I have just finished it off with a veggie curry from the takeaway with chips, naan bread and rice.

DISGUSTING!!! Now I feel hungover, sick and ashamed. And I've tried on my running stuff and just look like a sausage.

How has your weekend been?

Wow! I'd love to be a runner but I can jog for literally about 10 seconds before I feel like I'm going to die. I keep thinking about couch to 5k but the motivation is just lacking.

Sounds like you've had a delicious weekend!! Hope you enjoyed it. Back in the game tomorrow?

I've stuck to my one meal a day (though right now DH is craving carbs and is trying very hard to persuade me to have noodles or pasta with him, I am trying very hard to say no!).

Yesterday I didn't eat til evening but had a couple of very naughty cheesy biscuit things and a three course meal (pudding was shared three ways so not as bad as it could have been!). Lots of vino involved though, oooops. Today we went out for lunch which was a roast and a stodgy pudding plus two glasses of wine. Ooooooooooops.

Back on it tomorrow though....

I think everyone else has abandoned us on this thread!

I get out of breath walking up the stairs. I need to get fitter. It's embarrassing taking one flight of stairs with someone at work and being unable to hold a conversation because I'm trying to catch my breath.

Yep I've done couch to 5k before. And by done, I mean ran walked around the block at a snails pace, gave up and vowed never, ever to do that again. So tomorrow should be a GREAT success. The running club is through work and I've brilliant things about how supportive/ none judgy they are so fingers crossed it won't be too bad. The thought of actually running. In public. In daylight is just..... I can't even put it into words. Are there any running clubs near you?

Oh yes everything was so yummy. Just so, so nice. You're weekend sounds amazing too. Do you find every social thing you do involves food? Even going for drinks or a movie involves going for tea first/after/during. Which makes it hard because if I'm paying for a meal, I was something hot, tasty and FULL of calories.

But yes, 100% back on it tomorrow. Quite looking forward to it as I feel so full now, it's not a nice feeling. Going to stick to one meal a day too. I find I snack more in the evenings so if I have a bigger tea, I'm hoping that'll help stop that.

Yep, looks like it's just the two of us. Oh well, more cake and wine healthy, nutritious food for us

Ahhhhh your running club sounds great! That's the key for me, it's finding something I could do with someone else. Maybe if I can lose a bit of weight I won't feel so embarrassed going along to a class.

Yes ALL my socialising revolves around wine and food. It's a disaster. I really should find some healthier hobbies!!!!!

DH is stuffing down a bowl of spicy, garlicky, amazing smelling pasta and I am sitting here not being tempted. It's killing me but I feel good for saying no!

Having someone else around to tempt me makes it harder! No DCs here (yet), if and when that happens I imagine losing weight would be even harder! Do you live with anyone else?

If you lived with me you could come with me! I am going to be mortified at taking these thighs out for a run!!

It does feel so good having that self control and being able to say no. And even if you did have some, it would taste amazing but afterwards you'd just regret it so it's really not worth it. You should be proud of yourself for being able to resist

Nope just me and ds. So it's not too bad. I try to buy the crisps i don't like (but he does) so I can resist but he LOVES going out for food so he's always suggesting we go for tea/cake/ice cream. I try to limit it to once a week but I know I use food as a reward which I know is unhealthy. So if he's had a certificate at school-something to eat as a treat. I finish work early-something to eat as a treat. It's raining- comfort food for a treat.
It's sunny- ice cream and cider in the sun for a treat. That kind of thing. And I need to break that habit.

I do that too. I'm all about the food rewards. But I'm working on it!! How old is your DS?

It'll be harder to stay motivated this week because I know my weight loss will slow down after the woosh last week.

I've meal planned for mon-thurs. just gotta stick to it!!

He's 7 going on 27. It's the evenings I find tough as I eat infront the telly. Although to be fair, when I was with his dad we would sit and snack all evening as well.

And me!! Got it all written out on my fridge and I've also stuck a photo of myself at my largest (taken 2 weeks ago haha) and a picture of me at my skinniest and stuck them on the fridge. So I'm hoping this will spur me on

Ahhh that's lovely.

Great idea on the photos! I might see if I can find some similar inspiration.

The scales showed I'd gained half a pound this morning since Saturday morning which feels like a miracle, I was expecting more like 2.

Working from home today so hopefully no temptation! Focus focus focus!!

Yeah it's just good to see what I can look like if I make the effort.

Ah that's good then, that'll come off so easy. Need to stay focussed today, can feel myself wavering and considering getting crisps. These vending machines are EVIL!

Mainlining the water and have just got an expresso to wake me up. Gy my running stuff with me (hahahahaha never thought I'd say that sentence) and know what i'm having for tea. We can do this!

Ahhh VERY nearly wavered. I was so, so close to going get a bag of crisps. Resisted though and got an espresso instead (at 23 calories!). So feel good. Talking myself out of running club tonight though

Well done telly that you didn't waver!! That is a great achievement. Aaaand you've nearly made it through the day, so you can get to the end of work without temptation now!

Ahhh please go to running club! You are my hero for even thinking about it!! (But if you don't go I do understand entirely!!).

I have been soooo busy today that I've not had time to be tempted really, and on the one or two moments of weakness I've instead allowed myself 2 mins on munsnet instead of going to raid the kitchen.

What's for dinner tonight?

I've got some extra lean mince so I'm going to make homemade bacon cheeseburgers, in a bun for DH and with salad for me. I might use the airfryer to make some homemade onion rings (with a few but not many breadcrumbs!) and courgette 'fries'.

Please may I join you? I need to accept that this isn't just 'baby weight' any more given as he's TWO in November. I am a classic all or nothing binge person. 13st 10 at the mo, I want to be 11 stone. I hate that all I think about is food, or how fat I am.

Welcome heir. Good luck! We are mostly using this thread just to hold ourselves accountable, report on progress and have a moan! :-)