WHAT IS THE SMALLEST AMOUNT OF CALORIES I CAN HAVE? FEELING DIZZY.. i dont want to stop bf..but

[dreamingalone]

hello please help! few days ago I had 3 coffees and 2 apples. and it gave me the shakes and made me really dizzy,. i dont understand. i used to not eAt for a week or so before i had kids and was completly fine.. so i am assuming its down to breastfeeding. so i need to know the smallest AMOUnt i can consume while breastfeeding without feeling dead maybe 500?? what foods keep milk supply healthy but not to fattening and give energy, also what vitamine supliments will help if i am restricting , so i can put them in my 'safe foods' list. please tell me what the answer is to my question . i dont want to stop bf but i am finding this tough( baby is almost a year)..I dont need LEcture i just need some advice. so far ive lost 2 and ahalf stones in 3 months. now im at a stand still..

tea- responding to earlier poast i didnt see, my kids are worth everything its not just about loosing weight im not shallow. when things go wrong something inside me says " if you wernt such a glutinous greedy person bad things would happen. then the cycle begins then i dont eat. and things seems to get better maybe just a co-incidence..

HotCrossPun - Thank you hun, I agree I am being silly. x

when things go wrong something inside me says if you wernt such a glutinous greedy person bad things would happen. then the cycle begins then i dont eat. and things seems to get better maybe just a co-incidence

This is extremely disordered thinking, it really is not normal to think in these terms.

I also don't see how you can 'sort' an abusive relationship. It is not within your power to do so, that has to come from the abuser.

I really am very concerned about you OP, and concerned for the safety of your DCs. Please get some professional help.

Rooners- thank you for understanding and wow you are a strong woman for getting better, i know its something that never fully goes away but hun please stop reading this post because the last thing i want to do is trigger you, your amazing and 5;2 great idea! xx i know someone whos bf on that but didnt think of it!

teaandfag- im sorry dont be sad from my post it really isnt that big. honestly i look fine, and i will eat and be fine xxx i apologise for upseting anyone i honestly thought my question was positive , i gues to stop me being more silly but everyone just thinks im a nut case lol

Go to the doctor. If you fair while your baby is on the bath, he could drown. You're making yourself very ill. Please see your doctor and get him to calculate how many calories is a safe intake for you.

No you're not a nutcase but I think you're afraid of getting angry with the people who are to blame for the way things are in your life,

so you turn it inwards as that;'s safer

blame yourself instead

then you punish yourself by not eating,

but the assholes just carry on behaving the same old way and you can't make them stop by doing this.

It won't trigger me - not being funny but I have been there, done that and I know I can, if I want to, so I don't have to any more

not sure if that makes sense! But anyway I am fine reading this. I just want to help you, not because I think you'll die of not eating - you probably won't because it's all in your control - but because you sound so unhappy and like no one in your life is caring about you.

Is that how it is? Can you tell us about these things instead of the eating as it isn't really the issue is it xxxx

Please forget the 5:2 diet idea too! Honestly people, advising diet plans is terrible advice, no diet plan is safe for a person with an eating disorder unless under medical supervision. The 5:2 is absolutely not a good idea for you (and I'm a believer in it) because you will restrict on regular days and just use it as an excuse to restrict further. Forget that, you need to see a doctor.

I'm sorry for saying you were being silly. I didn't realise about your previous ED issues, your abusive relationship and the PND.

Look after yourself, OP

Alibabaandthe40nappies YOUR CONCERNED FOR THE SAFETY OF MY KIDS, ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS! omg I HAVENT DONE NOTHING WRONG!?"!! I LOOK AFTER MY KIDS. I DO EVERYTHING FOR THEM THERE LOVED ETC.

THE SITUATION WITH MY HUSBAND IS NOT PHYSICAL. ITS MENTAL SO WERE NOT IN DANGER. i dont know why i freaking bother trying to do something for myself.. and im crap mum reading that has really made me cry. if you have concern for my freaking kids when i would do anything for them just thanks. i see what kind of person u think i am. i do nothing at all for myself nothing. i havent restricted in so long for the sake of my kids im trying my freaking best. thanks for makin me feel worse.bye.

rooner. your right.. it is a punishing thing :( god i feel awful now im not a bad mum and my kids arnt in danger. im trying my hardest. to ignore what my mind says regarding food. and that i dont diserve to starve my fat self. im so distorted in my thinking but i have been like this for years. when things really bad happend as i a kid. i didnt eat to make everything go away. after a week of not eating and just drinking water i was flying on a high i had no responsibilitys. at christmas when my family members would try and get me to eat a cucumber but i was proud that i had control to resist. because thats what it all boils down to my lack of control for all the crap thing that happens. no matter how hard i try to be the perfect person. perfect mum perfect wife. its never going to be enough.

this is way to much i didnt want to go all deep. thanks to the people that tried to help . il look into vitamins anmd 5.2

If you were to pass out whilst you were in the house on your own, your dc would be in danger. Even worse if you were carrying the baby, or if the baby was in the bath. I think that is what is worrying Alibaba.

Can't take this seriously. Sorry. Eating normally I lost 16 pounds in 10 days whilst bf. I should have been eating much more - breast feeding eventually failed. When you say 'few days ago I had 3 coffees and 2 apples'... HAVE YOU EATEN SINCE?

If you don't believe the OP, report, don't troll hunt.

Sorry, it's not that I don't believe - anything is possible in this weird world. I am just so shocked. This thread has moved very quickly. Apologies if I've missed something.

Sorry if I was curt.

I'm so sorry you are feeling like this.

If you aren't used to eating large amounts of foods perhaps try:

1 piece of fruit a day (apple, banana etc)
1 portion of vegetables
1 portion of rice/pasta or potato/piece of bread
at least a portion of meat or dairy a day.

It's not ideal and probably only about 1000-1200 calories but it's something to start off with and improve with.

You are getting what you need in your system, albeit not in the quantity that you need.

I don't eat very much usually, normally never more than one meal a day and I skip days a lot ,BUT when I was BFing I needed to eat at least one full meal a day to not feel like shit (I mean a proper meal of at least a plate) any less than that and I was ill.

For me it's not about losing weight though, I just forget to eat most of the time.

You really need to see your GP, if not for help then at least for bloods to be done to make sure you're not anaemic/B12 deficient, kidneys, liver etc all still working properly.

OP, I'm going to echo everyone else here and say that you need to speak with your GP.

dreamingalone.. are you actually fat - you used the word 'fat', not me (and there's nothing wrong with being fat at all) or is just your perception of yourself?
Rooners seems to know something about you and your life - at least more of an understanding. It appears there is loads more you are not sharing, and therefore not getting nicer/more helpful replies.
If you didn't eat for up to a week on occasion before you had kids, and have recently had 3 coffees and 2 apples (whilst breast feeding) then I think you are probably not at all fat - the complete opposite. I think you need to reach out and talk properly to someone. Anyone. I have no idea what has happened in your life at all, but I really think you need to talk to someone. Or explain a bit more... I am sorry if you're hurting.

SDTG yes that is the kind of thing I meant.

You want to feel in control and good about yourself. Please go to your GP and ask for help to find ways of doing that that aren't food-related. You have to get help to fight this urge to starve yourself before you do permanent damage. Good luck.

OHH i get the mis understanding. i said " a few days ago i ate 2 apples and cofee" what i ment is i was explaining the reason for the post. i ate that at felt crap and realised i need to eat more. obvcourse i have eaten since. it was a bad day that i realised was wrong. i was explaining that was the last time i seriously restricted .. sorry if what i was writing wasnt clear. typing so fast etc to get my point across. chilli queen. feel free to not take it seriously. weldone for you for loosing the weight. im assuming that was 10 days post partum. so i assumed you lost.. hmm baby weight water weight. the placenta weight etc. everyone looses weight after birth so i dont get your point. but if you think im TROLl. stop responding and reply to peoples post who you think need help, if im a troll then i am clearly wasting your time. i am not a troll im so confused what im saying is nothing to be proud of. or nothing i want attention for. im pretty sure i wouldnt choose something so shameful and stupid to make up.

i wont pass out that eating 2 apples and 3 cofees was a big mistake it was since then i realised i need to sort this out in a healthy way. its hard not to relapse in stressful situations.