Diege sorry for poorly DD3...
bit of a rant/ moan/ and swearing ahead- i'm very stressed and angry and just need to get it off my chest, no reply's expected but i just need somewhere to let it all out...
DD1 is still not walking properly at all, putting more weight on it, doing everything with it when she's wanting to play but then when it comes to walking she just wont. Anyway, this morning our plan was to take DS to school and she would walk there slowly and if it wasn't raining on the way back she could sit in and rest, she agreed and walked about 100m then started screaming at the top of her voice... so i decided to put DD2 in the sling and sit her in so we could get there without such a commotion. 2 mins later the heavens opened- cue DD2 getting soaked to the bone within a couple of seconds (think flooding roads instantly sort of rain) and she sounded so panicked as if she were drowning, then it started hailing and i was trying to push the heavy stroller with her in, DS was getting soaked to the bone and had my arm around the sling trying to keep DD2 close so she didn't get wetter than she needed to. DD1 then started maning about she was getting wqet and needed the raincover on- i burst into tears and spent the next 10 mins on the way there crying my eyes out because of her... Why am i resenting her so much for having a poorly leg? I mean it's not her fault, but it's pissing me off that she can move it in all sorts of ways when it suits but is lavishing in getting pushed around, even at the expence of Dd2.... I know she's not doing it pursosley but i just feel she is being so selfish.
I think this last week has just put me on the verge of a breakdown... and somehow DD1 is brandishing all the blame from me.
What do i do? what can i do?
Plan to go shopping with sisterand mum in a bit, maybe some retail threapy will do the trick- but i'm hating that i'm gonna have to take the double!! But staying in will wind me up more!!