nkweto.... i have an irrational fear of my waters going while i'm driving down one of the crazy back roads around here and the shock of it sending me into a ditch...... beat that for irrational pregnancy fear!
oooogs, they're not supposed to do smears when you're preg and every doctor and nurse i've told since has been horrified, the hospital i was with with dd and ds was a joke though. they have a 33% section rate and a disasterous reputation for most things.
dp has banned me from leaving the house for the duration of the pregnancy after the arse i made of myself today i went to the garage to get a visa voucher for the car seat and payed by laser (debit card), was convinced the card was in my hand going back to the car and that i put it back in my bag in the car, went to the supermarket, got the food for the week, went to the till, packed it all in bags and reached for my laser...... which wasn't there i had the most humiliating ordeal of my life where i spent ages searching my bag and wallet, then convinced myself it must have dropped in the car so the lovely, very sympathetic check out girl let me run out to check.... card not there either.
went back in and the girl ran to her manager to explain the siuation expecting her to let me take the shopping and pay later (country supermarket, generally fairly friendly and relaxed) but the manager wouldn't allow it.... i had 60 euros in my wallet so had to get her to void 20 quids worth of shopping and payed for the rest, absolutely panicing as all our money is in that account and that was the only card so if i couldn't find it at the garage we'd wouldn't have a penny til they sent me a new one! i then had to dash back to the garage where (thank every god i can think of) the girl behind the counter had my card, it had been handed in by someone after i dropped it outside by the car
on top of all that i had to circle around town about 20 times before i found a spot to park to get to the pharmacy... which involved reverse parrallel park in a really shitty spot and we've run out of oil so have no heating.... and i was right by the oil depot today thinking about ordering some and bloody didn't!!!!
i think dp might have lost faith in my ability to cope for the duration of the preg and i'm not sure he's being unfair with that assumption......