Hi Sunnydale, have been keeping up with your terribly sad story, and just wanted to say how very sorry I am that you have found yourself in such a heartbreakingly difficult situation. As so many others have said before me on this thread, no-one is judging you. How could they? What an awful, awful thing to have to go through.
My mum went through pretty much the same as you're going through now, albeit rather a long time ago. She caught German Measles from me when I was little and she was just pregnant. She then had to wait until about 12 wks for the tests to be able to find out if there was damage to the baby or not, which there was. She made the same decision as you, and although she said it was the most difficult thing she has ever had to do, she still believes that she did the right thing.
I'm sure nothing can make you feel any less devastated than you do. I hope you manage to get through this and not be too hard on yourself. I am thinking of you through this terrible time x