Thanks MsSparkle and chefswife.
I don't normally weigh myself at all. Threw my scales out at the end of last year as I usually prefer to go by what size I am and whether or not I am happy with how I look and feel.
I suppose I am just stressing about it as after losing a lot of weight and being really happy with the way I looked and felt, last year my Dad died and I put it all back on through comfort eating - we went through such a lot of stress both before and after he passed due to family complications.
I have been working hard with a healthy diet and exercise and was on target to be about right by August, which is when we were originally going to start trying for no3!
I got so worried about it after I heard some midwives can give you a hard time if you have a high bmi and class you as high risk, that I sent DH out to buy some scales so I could work out my BMI! Had calmed down after I did that, but am worried that by the time I see a midwife I will have gained so much weight that my BMI will have gone up.
I am by no means huge, I am in the overweight category, but carry it quite well and have a good stomach to hip ratio. I eat healthily, am generally active and 'usually' do a reasonable amount of exercise. I am hoping all that will count for something, but had a superfit midwife last time (when I was smaller than I am now) who made a big deal at having to use a larger BP cuff when I was 9 months, despite the fact that none of the other midwives needed to use one on me.
I know I shoudn't be giving myself such stress about this but when I have a day like today, when I feel too rough to exercise and cant face most food I feel helpless.
I think it all pretty unfair especially as my bbs weigh as much as another small person on their own!