I'm glad that programme is on while I will be in hospital, maybe even having given birth. Sigh. I'm going in for 7 pm tonight and I'm petrified still, I woke up at 5 am this morning in a panic. At home I can put the light on/open the curtains in the morning and read when I can't sleep, and get out icepops when the acid gets too bad, and Mike's there. I'm frightened of being expected to sleep alone in a ward of other people I have to worry about disturbing. While at least the induction process will hopefully mean I get my baby and to stop being pregnant, I'm worrying about whether he's okay, whether it will work, whether it will be possible to stay a little bit mobile - I don't think I can handle bein strapped into lying on my back, how long it will take....
I also realised that I've got so used to the routines of listening to baby's heartbeat etc and recently, the checking from feeling my tummy outside where he is, that I didn't notice that stage being missed out on Monday, it went straight on to the internal exam and booking me in - I wish at least I'd had that reassurance.
Still, Mikey's coming home at lunchtime, he really didn't want to go to work at all but I thought it might make it easier for him to spend more time with me later. I'm very lucky in this sense, his employment with the council is as a residential social worker which wouldn't be at all flexible (shifts, the need for there to be care for residents at all times), but he is currently full time as a union representative - stressful and he sometimes has to bring work home, be contacted at odd times, but it does give him so much scope to organise his own time compared to the real job....
Labour vibes to emmymummy, glitterkitty and anyone still waiting. I'm still hoping that something will start before the induction, and then at least I can go into a birth room and have Mike stay around.