Still haven't managed to sit down and type up those individual responses to you amazing ladies, but I do intend to do so as soon as I get myself together.
tams I totally get the feeling of frustration as all those around you pop out their babies. I was always last in my NCT group but the girl closest to me in due date - a week earlier than me - had hers three weeks early!!!
julfin I have felt much better the last couple of days, thank you. Working really hard on enjoying my little Ruben because this is precious time that I'll never get back. And actually if the lump was worst case scenario, it would be even more important to have spent this time drinking in my little man. I'm really glad your DH is stepping up to his new role as daddy, by the way. What a relief!
Cookies, thank you. I did actually ring the Samaritans on Monday night when it got really bad, and the lady I spoke to was lovely. Good on your mum for volunteering; what s fab thing to do. I will definitely keep talking - vital for wrestling things into perspective.
For me at the moment the priority is sleep, as the more tired I get the less able I am to turn off my brain. Ruben is being a poppet and giving me about 2 hours' sleep time between feeds overnight. I am basically doing nothing else though! I can't quite work out how you ladies with other children are managing! I am crashing from one feed to the next, occasionally managing to clean my teeth in between! DH is doing all tidying, washing and cooking - I am crapping myself about when he goes back to work next week! Thank god he is only part time! My hair hasn't seen a brush in days, and today I elected to order a load of nursing clothes online instead of using the time slot to have a shower. I keep looking at the clock and wondering where on earth the day went!
Also finding the disappearance of the bump really odd. I can't quite remember what it felt like to have one! My tummy has deflated massively over the last week, but it's so squishy and droopy! Also, very weird to watch the belly button slowly going back in...