Hi ladies, thank you so much for all the lovely well wishes today, it really was lovely to know so many of you have been rooting for me. EPU eventually called me back this afternoon but as my clots were considered quite small and my bleeding wasn't heavy (by their standards) they told me not to assume the worse and to come in as planned on Tuesday. I couldn't just turn up and wait as I had DS to consider, we don't have family close by to provide short notice care and he has never actually been any where other than with us or preschool so it really would have to be a dire emergency for us to scramble something quickly.
Anyway to cut a long story short (some of this may be TMI) , by early evening I was cramping enough to be quite uncomfortable so DH ran me a bath and when I stood up to get out I passed what I think is the sac (with possibly everything in it) I never had an early scan so no idea if dates matched up to baby but nothing looked recognisable. I instantly felt well, no cramps still very little bleeding and I had two glasses of my favourite wine once DS was in bed.
I never phoned EPU with an update as I know they would tell me not to come I tomorrow but I need to be checked to know everything has passed, especially as I was expecting it to be a whole lot worse. I will bumble my way through it tomorrow and I won't leave without being thoroughly checked over as DS is in a holiday club from 9-4pm!
As for me, I am actually ok. Maybe it will hit me in a day or two but I'm in ok head space at the minute. I have always been a firm believer that in most cases, there is a reason for early losses and if baby had something that was incompatible with life, I am grateful that it happened now rather than later or even worse, that we had to be the ones who had to make the decision. That must be truly heartbreaking. It also helps that I have my gorgeous DS. It took us so long to have him, he is everything I ever dreamed of and more. Anything else was always just the icing on a very much wanted cake.
I will pop by and see how you are all getting on from time to time as my short time with you has been great and will be cherished. I wish each and every one of you a happy and healthy pregnancy and I look forward to hearing your birth announcements in January and February :)
Xxx