June 2015 Thread 3- Bring on that 2nd Trimester glow!!!

[Chookford]

Hey ladies, here we go!

Haha yes probably too early for bed, but perfect time for an afternoon nap!
I sit feeling queasy the majority of the time, feeling guilty looking at all the cleaning and chores that need doing.
Then in a burst of feeling ok earlier I decided to make pizza dough and then find myself midway through trying not to puke.
The initial excitment (getting up 5 days straight at 5am to pee on a stick) has slowly worn off with the icki-ness.
I'm a little worried that when I finally tell people (God willing) in December I'm going to sound so blase about it.

I'm here. Just lost for words. Beyond lost.

I've had some very odd dreams. Last night I dreamt that I found a newborn baby in the park, in nothing but a nappy. I called the police and they asked me to look after it until they could send someone to collect it. I remember cuddling this tiny baby and crying as I didn't want it to be taken away.

Then had several dreams where we've brought the baby home and realised we have no stuff, not even a nappy to put on it.

Dreams are weird!

Welcome newbies :)

Has anyone heard from 'wedding thread lady' (don't want to say her name!). Been thinking about her a lot today

Worst x post ever detective. We're all here for you xxxxx

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

dectective of course you will feel lost at the moment, take all the time you need we are all here if you need us x

Detective - I think if distance and anonymity was no object (and we didn't worry it might be smothering) you'd have half of mumsnet turn up on your doorstep to bring you cake, hugs, pizza, help distract you - or to do whatever we could to help. Feeling gutted for you -

I had a dream that I gave birth to a rabbit and it started to turn human later on

Big hugs detective. Hope you can feel safe here with us.

Crazy dreams. I woke up cross with DH this morning because he'd left me and dd at the top of a flight of stairs with the pram and we couldn't get down. Been having odd dreams since my bfp.

Welcome Chat and June.

Boof - probably just clumsy shaving technique but call you're if you're worried or having any pain.

I had an awful dream that DS fell out of a fairground ride . I very rarely dream of the DC's let alone anything so real and horrific so I'm attributing it to early pregnancy weirdness.

Had to sneak into his room at 3am for a stealth cuddle .

Hey detective good to see you here, it must be a huge shock. I'm so sorry for you. Just reading your thread yesterday, I really hoped it wasn't you:( we are all here for you if you need to vent. Big cuddles from your little ones will help you through this, as will time. I hope you are able to eat something, times like this usually mean dramatic weight loss that you could do without. Totally shit. Feel so much for you.

I just don't know what to do.

My heart wants this baby. My head tells me don't be a fucking idiot, and get out now while you can.

I am so fucking ANGRY at him making me feel this way. I have no words for it really.

Just marking my place - last week of PhD field research (in schools, joy) and feel exhausted and rotten. Hope to rejoin the land of the living soon.

Detective I am raging on your behalf, sending you massive xx

Detective, i have not more words for you than have already been expressed, just lots of virtual hugs and kisses sent your way, if u ever need an afternoon escape i'm not far away if u need a change of scene x x

If I have this baby, he will be around a hell of a lot more. It won't be as if the baby can go to his. I will need him here in the pregnancy to support me with DS2 and I'll be working FT.

I just can't bear to think about it all.

It's surreal.

I am so sorry Detective

He can support you by taking ds to his and being there to support with childcare, as for your relationship that is clearly over! But thats not to say you cannot cope with a new baby, how os the support from your extended family and friends? Could they support with childcare?

Detective don't make any decisions yet everything is still to raw.. Take some time to really think about what it is you want and what's best for you and your children in the long run. Don't let that man take anything else from you right now... I'm so sorry you are having to deal with any of this it's just crap really really crap x

Detective I'm so so sorry. Can we do anything? Whatever you need. Can I suggest a name change as he seems to think nothing of invading your support space here on mn.
Don't make any decisions about anything yet. Concentrate on breathing in and out, eating, resting etc.
Have you kicked him out? Space is good.
I'm so sorry for you, love.

Detective - I can only echo what everybody else has said and send you lots of hugs and tell you we are here to listen if you need to talk.

Glad you're back Detective. Sending you thoughts and hugs. The others are right, you don't need to make a decision right now, and it's probably best you leave it a week or so when it's less raw, having said that, I have no doubt it will be going around and around in your head with everything else and is never going to be an easy decision . I will say, don't let him weasel his way back into your affections! "Sorry" and him acting like a mopey zoo lion because by some weird spasm in the universe, he made a "mistake" just doesn't cut it in this case. Keep going; you can get through this. x