ooh my girls , its all soooo exciting. oooh pink wow 6/7 mins apart.
Im sitting here trying to get my head around my birth plan. Had an amazing hypnobirthing session yesterday ,made me feel really strong and in control through a long trance hypnosis , I felt FAB for ages after. and my mum said how proud of me she is and how Im doing so well after being unwell the last few years. She gave me an print out of all the things on her previous clients birth plans , so Ive been using it to help me finish mine, but Im getting a bit confused now !!! She suggests breast feeding and waiting to give birth to placenta naturally , its not something I even thought about with dd's birth & they just gave me an injection. IM really not sure what I think about it, a lot of me thinks I just want out, but if Ive managed to birth naturally it seems a shame to have a drug put inside me. She also suggests keeping babs connected to cord for a while so they get used to breathing both ways , but again its all a new concept for me , having such a medicalised 1st birth. My plan all seems a bit mixed up with natural hypnobrithing stuff and if I need it give me all the drugs I need , which doesnt sit well with hypnobrithing culture !!!! see said I was confused.
Unfortunately that FAB feeling was tainted by my DH being an arse again. My hypno lady gave me a lovely touch technique thing for my husband to do during labour and all I got was huffs and puffs when I tried to get him interested in doing it last night . I asked him to straddle the chair so I could show him and he started getting angry with me (what gives with this guy) , he then said Im asking him to do all these ODD things . I never realised how closed and conventional he was about things.He says IM going to far with all these therapys and am I really trying to not have drugs , like Im totally mad and not in touch with what I can acheive. Im really learning alot these days as Im getting stronger in mind and spirit.
sorry I seem to be using this space as therapy too . Its a relief to talk about it.