Due November 2006, Part II

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hi all, hope everyone is well..

Northerner - really sorry to hear the news Take care of yourself x

Northener - i am so sorry to hear your news give your family a great big hug - take care of yourself - eeyore

Northerner I am so sorry to hear your news, will be thinking about you. Take care xxx

Northerner - so to hear what has happened, esp. after everything seemed OK. Will be thinking of you and the TT after MC thread was great for me, hope it can be for you when you are ready again.
Hattie - I felt the same way I thouhgt when I went for my scan that they would say there was nothing in there. I have another scan on your date for a scan as does pinkmagic!

Oh Northerner I am so sorry :( Can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling. Thinking of you x

Today is the 1st anniversary of my beloved Granddad's death. I can't believe a whole year has passed already, feel very down today and just have no motivation at all. Am supposed to be working from home but not done a thing yet.

Northerner I'm so sorry to read your news. :(

Hattie05, I can totally relate to what you're going through. I'm coming up to 9 weeks on Saturday and I've had almost no symptoms at all. At first I thought I was just lucky, but now I'm really starting to worry a bit. We've held off telling our other children until I've seen something at that first scan which will probably be next week or so. I've sort of had a bit of a tum going, but like you I'm thinking it's just some bloating as I seem fine in the morning and then just expand a bit after tea. I suppose we're both going to just have to wait...

Northerner - I am so so sorry to hear your news. I guess you wont be at work for the rest of this week but I will email you separately.

I too have had fresh bleeding today, and this time it is bright red so am feeling quite negative again, sorry to put everyone on a downer.

Northerner - so sorry about your sad news. Hope you can spend lots of time with your family.

Twocatsonthebed - when's your appointment at the FMC? I thought they were really excellent and it's a bonus that you get a 3D picture too! I must admit I am really pleased with the result they gave me - I'm 32 so not exactly a spring chicken but the doctor said that the risks don't get much lower than that so it was a really big relief! Hattie05 - I know exactly what you mean about being worried that they won't see anything in the scan, that is exactly how I felt yesterday just before it started, even though I had a scan at 71/2 weeks and have a sizeable tummy!

Midwife hasn't shown up GRRRRRRRR she was meant to be here at 10 and not heard a peep from her

Northerner, I am really sorry to hear your news, please take care of yourself.

Harrogatemum, have you rang your GP/midwife? I hope it is just one of those things, will be thinking of you.

So sorry Northerner, thinking of you.

I'm from the December thread, edd is dec 5th but I had dd 12 days early so November is a possibility. Just wanted to say hello.

harrogatemum - sorry to hear you are bleeding hope all goes well.

Thanks for your kind words.

Harrogatemum - my email address is work address so don't email me there as ovbiously I wont be able to answer.

As soon as I get round tooaying subs I'll cat you.

Thanks Tinasan and mygirl, nice to know i'm not the only one!

I'm wondering if i feel this way because it is second pg for me. And the novelty and excitement factor isn't the same as first time round so its not on my mind all day long. Because of this when i do think about it, i feel 'less' pregnant if that makes sense.

Harrogatemum, also meant to say that I am keeping fingers crossed for you. I won't say don't worry cause I know you will.

You are right they are lovely in EPU at Hgate, I had a nurse called Debbie and at the time it was all OK as the scan had shown a heartbeat.

Have to go back next Friday to check everything has come away.

So sorry to hear this Northerner... I thought you had the all clear... just goes to show
Hugs to you......

Hattie I would agree with you there, same feelings over here as well.

I find it strange because first time round I wasn't really worried about anything going wrong, I didn't really know anyone who had miscarried then, I didn't realise that there was such a real risk of something going wrong, I suppose I was very nieve, but this time I know so much more about everything, there is literally more to worry about.

Northerner, so sorry to hear of your sad loss.

Hattie05, I can totally relate to how you are feeling. I just can't seem to get as excited this time round. A friend of mine recently had a missed miscarriage and I am terrified that when I have the scan the same will have happened to me. Sorry to be all doom and gloom but I can't seem to get the idea out of my head. Role on the 4th May!

You two are exactly right.

First time round, i was the first of my friends to be pregnant and was blissfully ignorant and unaware of reality.
3 years on, many friends have had pregnancies, some of which have sadly miscarried or had other problems and so i'm more aware i guess.

Harrogatemum - I hope that the bleeding stops soon, have you been able to get hold of a midwife, or get to an EPU?

NatalieJane/Pinkmagic1/Hattie05 - totally agree with you all. The first time round I naively assumed you got pregnant and 9 months later had a baby. This time around I can't really get too excited, there seems to be a lot more to worry about the more you know..

Northener - I am so sorry to hear your news. Take care of yourself and enjoy your DS and DH Hugs to you. :(

Harrogatemum - hugs to you too. Thinking of you - please call your GP for advice.

Esmummy - thinking of you too on your Grandad's anniversary. I lost my Granddad a week ago today so know how you are feeling. Big hug to you too.

I had my scan today and I have 2 pictures of what the lady said was a healthy 9 week baby. :o Apparently, the sac is good, the size of the baby is good etc. I have also seen the midwife who has given me my maternity record and I see my GP tomorrow. It was amazing to see the little dot floating about - I'm afraid I cried quite a lot! can't wait for the next 2 1/2 weeks to go by so I can start telling everybody! The sad news from the others does bring home how fragile this whole thing is though and I am terrified at how much still could go wrong.

It does make you wonder if you are better off not knowing what can go wrong and just spend the whole pregnancy in the safe (if mostly ignorant) bubble of a first time pregnancy!

Sorry meant to say congratulations on the good scan Jen, gives the rest of us hope :) I think I am in for a long wait before I have my scan!

Jen1209 - congratulations on the good scan news :)

NatalieJane - I sometimes wonder that to. During my 1st pregnancy I was told at 20 weeks that my dd might not make it past 24 weeks, if she did she might have chromosomal abnormalities etc... was all doom and gloom from then on. I worried myself silly and was still going to the hospital for checkups practically everyday until 36 weeks (at which point the consultant kept saying I don't understand this!!).

My dd was born, was a little small but 100% fine. I think frankly I could have done without all the stress and all the different consultants prodding me and saying different things...

Having said that it still doesn't stop me wanting to have scans and check everything is okay with this one. So the medical establishment probably can't win with me :)

It is hard, I think I would like to be brave enough to refuse scans and tests but then the other half of me thinks, I would rather know if there is something wrong, if only to be able to deal with it better when the baby is born, then there is another part of me thinking, the chances are everything is fine and well, I have no real reason to think there is anything wrong, and if I did refuse the scans and tests then I am just missing out on the pictures and reassurances IYSWIM?