Sorry for the wait ladies, i've been running around like a headless chicken after DD all day, she's worn me out!
Well, as you all know my DP left me, and it's been a horrible couple of weeks on my own, it really has :( I've been struggling so much with everything and my depression surfaced again so I practically begged my midwife to put me back on my medication. She got me an urgent appointment the same day and i'm back on it now, which has a helped so much.
Anyway as DP and I had to stay in contact I didn't tell him at all how I was feeling and tried to have a positive attitude about life in general because I knew if I didn't then everything would just crumble around me.
I went to stay at my mums for about five days and she paid for me to have a psychic reading. So I asked this psychic what was going on with my DP, and if i'd be able to cope on my own with the two kids.
She replied (in a nutshell) that he was scared and that she could see us sorting things out and raising our children together, but for now to just stay away from him (emotionally).
The morning after that reading, he told me (with no prompting from me at all) that he didn't want to break up with me and wanted to sort things out.
I couldn't believe it, and now we've agreed that we will try and sort things out, although he's not moving back in yet because we're going to have some space apart for a bit, but he'll be coming back before the baby is born. And popping over a few times a week to help out/spend time with DD.
I'm so relieved, as the thought of a 'broken' family terrified me :(
So now i'm a much happier Swiss if not slightly sedated and I wanted to let you ladies know that because you were so supportive when the bastard left me and I couldn't really talk to anyone else.
I hope i'm making the right choice in getting back with him, as i've been so confused about it all but I guess we'll see how things go. :)
As for the baby, I think that's the only part of my life recently that has stayed normal and consistent! The midwife said he sounded very happy when she heard his heartbeat and everything is fine. Lots of kicks and I even felt him hiccupping for the first time while I was at my mums! :)
I hope everyone else is doing well, have I missed anything??