Due in October 2012 - Part 5

[Kyyria]

Just starting us off on a new thread

Hello all,

Had a midwife appointment today and all is fine. Heard the heartbeat for the first time which was nice.
I mentioned that I keep getting concerned about movements (basically yesterday I didn't feel that much, the day before the kicks and wriggles were constant, the day before that, she was a bit more quiet, the day before that she kicked loads for an hour and nothing the rest of the day etc). Basically every time she has a lazy day, I get a bit worried, and then the next day I get furiously kicked and always think 'next time I won't panic'. But I always do.

Anyway, my midwife suggested that I imagine it like she's a small teddy bear inside a balloon. If she's sitting near the edge, I'll feel everything, but is she's parked herself in the middle and is just busy doing her own thing there then I won't feel much- this obviously happens at this stage as they're small enough for that.

Anyway, just thought that was a nice image for anyone who has frequent movement panic like me.

Happy Friday everyone. London is much cooler today- I almost passed out on the Northern line last night. Sorry for those who are still not feeling well.

23 weeks today, #1

Hey there nobbers!

Yomping I love your posts, especially when you?re being self-deprecating, they make me giggle

DameFlat I hate slugs too, they ravage my hard work in my garden and now I want to experiment with salt on them, just to see the effects!!

LondonMrs I got my ?baby on board? badge this morning and I?m going to shove it up everyone?s nose, come the poxy Olympics! And good metaphor from your midwife

londonlivvy sorry to hear you?re still feeling cruddy?not to rub it in, I?m feeling better so there is light at the end of the tunnel Do rest, rest, rest though.

I have finally finished work. Am actually dizzy with tiredness and have fat fingers and cankles from the raised BP. Looking forward to a proper read through and catch up with board when I've slept for about 3 days... x

I bought a dress from Tiffany Rose for a family wedding at the end of Sept (so I'll be 35 weeks preggo) and it just arrived- oh my lord, it's so beautiful. www.tiffanyrose.com/maternity/clothing/LOT.html
Bloody expensive at £185, but I have noticed that they go for almost the new price on ebay...
I am not disappointed!

Yomping, don't worry dear... Mostly I don't specifically respond to posts because I am on both october threads and don't want to look like a total nobber and reply to the wrong person on the wrong thread! I'm also on my phone so name checks are hard.

Ok so my non pregnaANCY DREAMS ARE STRANGE TOO. I DREAMPT I WAS AT A STADUIM AND COLDPLAY WAS THERE AND playing the canadian national anthym....well I.m pretty sure I woke myself and dh up singing oh canada!

Oh and probably tmi... But whatever...
My anus is itchy like hell! Anyone else? Not sure if it.s a healing fissure ir hemmeroids or what but bloody hell! And I.m tired of having to get up 20 min early every morning just to give myself time to poo... And it's a catch 22 in that department too if you ask me! We are mot supposed to push or strain, but we are also not supposed to linger too long on the loo either...sigh.. Ty for listening to my morning bathroom woes (i totally won..t be paranoid or offended if nobody replies to this bit!lol)

Dame UGH on the slug front. Dissolving slugs are gross. NB if you are squeamish skip this bit : my parents used to get lots of slugs in the garden and I recall when aged about 8, we had a race with a slug each down the path and we discovered that it went faster if you put a bit of salt on the tail. But if you added too much it turned into slime. Much gross kid experimentation. Sorry to any animal fans!

loopy glad to know this should be over soon. I started feeling snotty last weekend and have now got to the less snot / more hacking cough phase which is usually the last phase, so hopefully will feel better soon. Still doing the sleep / honey / lemon / paracetomol bit. very exciting stuff.

LondonMrs I like that theory re the baby movements. sounds good to me.

Surely it's far less gross to just pick the (still alive) slug up and put it outside, then wash your hands than it is to melt the poor thing soft hearted.

Aww, poor slug I have to confess being (too) soft-hearted about saving living things too, WantAnOrange. I just move spiders around the house rather than kill them, as long as they're not in the bedroom.

I am on holiday just now on the Isle of Arran, most lazy holiday I've been on as have just been sooooooo tired. DH wanted to go mackerel fishing. I was really worried about being unable to go to the loo for two hours (images of having to pee in a bucket in among the other six fishers on the boat...) but luckily managed. But I did feel a bit sorry for the mackerels - they were the most easy things to catch ever. Also did a rather embarrassing falling out of the boat at the end (it was lucky I didn't need to pee!). I couldn't get my leg up high enough to clear the edge of the boat as my expanding bump got in the way and skinned my knees.

LondonLivvy - was cheered to hear re the models as well

Lisbeth - I know what you mean about feeling guilty, I do feel guilty about going off work for a few months, my team is restructuring as well and I don't want to get pushed aside to a rubbish job in my absence.

Yomping - I liked your thoughts on your unique baby - I also can't wait to see what me and DH have created and what he/she looks like. Having a baby is so everyday and so miraculous, very exciting!

Thank you so much for the reassurance, I was clearly being a total twat paranoid idiot and have given myself a firm talking to! Maybe paranoia should be added to guilt in the list of negative emotions that are caused by pregnancy hormones?

Just back from an InSET day - the first non-stressful day for 3 weeks although control freak me had to review the Year 5 curriculum (that we have totally rewritten this year) with my team and their new year leader (covering me whilst on maternity leave), and he was asking lots of questions about why we do things certain ways and I started to feel quite defensive and protective, like the year 5 curriculum this year has been my baby and how dare he question it or even consider that some things could be done differently . Lol at my own self-importance

Nearly spewing at DameFlat's salty slugs, I'm not squeamish about many things, but slugs properly ming. And agree LondonMrs that that dress is beautiful. I need an outfit for a wedding in a month's time, but I can't do black or bold colours like that - black, white and cold colours make me look ill and that big bold print would wear me rather than the other way round. Will have a look at their other stuff though.

Katla, your holiday sounds gorgeous, I bet the scenery is beautiful .

Beeble, I don't have that sort of itch and I seemed to have moved on from constipation and am (TMI) currently doing very satisfying poos (not as I type, I hasten to add...) BUT I itch constantly all over my bump and my boobs, which is intolerable and it is socially unacceptable to scratch my boobs as much as I am impelled to. But I scratch in the evenings, then I look down and panic as the red marks my fingers have left look like stretch marks. The joys of pregnancy!

yomping I'm sorry too - there's always so many people to reply to and I get overwhelmed and my entries are too long as is! I love your ramble ranty entries and it is great to have someone else on here so into exercise (though I think you put me to shame!)

Not much to report here. Knackered, back hurts, stupidly paranoid about getting SPD even though no pain in pelvis (some in hips/back), patients difficult today, still feel like a part-timer, bump noticeable now even in scrubs. Too braindead to even watch a film. Trying to write a shopping list for tomorrow. If i am organised and motivated I shop at the nearby market, it is cheap as chips and the food is 10x nicer than supermarkets. Been a bit slack recently though. You have to carry everything home.

LondonMrs beautiful dress - almost wish I had an occasion but am determined to buy no more stuff and make do with what I have now.

Yomping i love your posts - you don't hold back. I mentioned you in a Gina Ford comment recently as you had previously confessed to being a control freak - no offence was intended. I do think of you, our funny, give 110% teacher - with the not bad in-laws.

Dameflat glad you are having a rest day. Badly needed. I had a house once that the slugs came in - you could see their slimy trail, yeuch. If you shake salt in the doorway where they come in, inside or out, they wont cross it.

I too like the baby movement advice. Recently I have felt less movement but I have to regularly race to the bathroom to produce an egg cup of wee. I changed my knickers this evening as there was a wiff of wee
I think the bean is using my bladder like a punching bag. In a way I'm a bit relieved as 2yr old DS often climbs over me and jumps and so on. I was getting worried the bean would be born with a black eye. The less movement had me worried.

I can also relate Yomping to the 'do people think I'm mad/bad/sad?' I feel like I'm a kind of nag sometimes on here, offering unsolicited advice. I started on this thread as I couldn't talk about being pregnant in RL. As you know mine is an assisted conception. Well, it involved a lot of appointments and some overseas travel, and several failures. This means you lose some of your privacy. My colleagues are a wonderful group, but I only wanted it between me and DH in RL. Plus I knew very early, I was pregnant. I loved the sharing on this thread from the start - where else can you talk about fissures V piles? I also really want to support other mums on here - we are like a small club and the only criteria for entry is a bun in the oven (due date is not strict, Squid ). We don't have to agree all the time.

Beeble I feel your pain itch. Mine was intolerable. Also a healing bum from the ahem straining but on top of that I had thrush too. Try some piles cream and if that doesn't work may be worth checking that you don't have thrush. You are really susceptible to it when pregnant.

I was going to come on here and brag how I always get a seat on the tube without the silly badge but no bastard would give me a seat today despite stomach rubbing. The swines.

Totally knackered. Been to the gym first thing this morning, been to Wimbledon all day, just picked up DD, can't be arsed to put her to bed, bad Mummy. I may pass out fully clothed on the sofa at this rate. And something I learnt today... Wimbledon is not as much fun without alcohol - FACT.

Yomping you have made me laugh, in a nice way!! Expressing what many of us probably feel about posting!!!! I am v v bad at replying or referencing as I too am mostly on a phone and this is all a bit tricky!! But I love reading everyone's posts, regardless, and am pleased to be among similarly minded stressed out tired whinging ladies who r v excited but bloody overwhelmed by this all!!!

Londonmrs ( i think!!!) I am totally adoring that beautiful gorgeous dress and am so upset and annoyed now that all our money going on renovations and I will be off work unpaid for 4 months, cos I hav never gone to a wedding in a £40 dress in my life!!!!!!!!! Oh I am jealous. In a nice way!!! As long as I'm not said Hippo in Drag in £40 dress I'll survive!!!!

V v swollen ankles today. Just checked BP and is fine. Bit grossed. Hen night is tmrw night and we all hav to wear 'sexy little black number.' Aye right. Ankles and varicose veins will be sexy as.

Well there's my rant for the evening!!

X

Slugs are vile. I make dh deal with them ( I think he puts them out but to be honest have never watched to find out!).
Paranoia is normal I think. I go through phases of not posting - here and on other forums because I feel like anything I might say is going to be too boring for anyone else to read.
And, my own whinge for tonight, I am exhausted. Really really tired. In the last day or two my bump has started really aching when I walk around - even if it's just from the car to the house. Better if lying down and baby still active so am certain its fine but don't really know what it is and it's not very nice. Dreading work next week already.
How do we post bump pics? If someone tells me I might add one!

smileyhappy I too have been mega exhausted all week and bump aching all day today. Hard to describe, ache feels the right word. Bit of pelvic ache too. Bump grown massively this week, went from neat and cute to v v v v obvious and sticking out. Tiring work, evidently. Hope u get some weekend rest, l

hey y'all!

I am back from the wilds of year 7 camp and it has taken me a full three days of little sneaks at my phone to catch up! Got loads I want to say but will forget who said what so forgive me.

yomping well done for being brave enough to say all of that. I
often feel like noone replies to me and get all paranoid about why, but then I am on my phone so don't post as often as other peeps so see that as why. I do often worry that first time Mums maybe feel like unsolicited advice about everything is a bit annoying which I can understand even though I always mean it well so I am sorry if it has ever come across badly. There is just so much I wish someone had told ,e the first time around.. In your case- def don't stop posting, you are brilliant! And as a fellow teacher I can empathise about so much of what you say about work.

RE Gina Ford- she is a running joke between me and my friends with babies because of everyone's bad experiences with her systems. Apparently you are supposed to do 2 activities a day at least in between a list of other stuff so we always text each other things like 'Hush, don't tell Gina, but our 'activities' today have been fighting our way around tesco and accidentally widdling all over Grandad's car'. I don't know anyone who she has worked for! But she wouldn't have sold that many books if it hadn't worked for someone I guess. I totally agree with whoever said routines are hugely restrictive for your family. My brother drives me nuts about how the whole day revolves around his daughter's 'to the minute' routine, even on a special occasion they won't relax it for a minute. i don't mean like we have it perfect, but our boy will eat and sleep pretty much wherever and whenever (in between tantrums etc obviously!) which means we can do fun things and visit friends and camp out and stuff like that.

dame I so know how you feel. Pregnancy and toddler care is a heady mixture, plus the guilt of this new little baby you have made as well and the thought of coping with them both. It scares me too. My DH was working late tonight and DS was being a bit of a monkey. Took all my patience to get through our epic bedtime routine (which the little procrastinator has managed to extend little by little over the years) thinking I could have a sneaky little relax at the end of it al, but as soon as I got him into bed I was ready to collapse myself! I think you are doing a bloody brilliant job juggling everything. You mustn't think your ds will hold it against you-tomorrow morning he will wake and want you right away just like every day. Let yourself off the hook-you are coping with so much right now.

Has anyone else been affected by the floods? It is totally crazy up here and my school is really badly flooded. Year 7 camp got evacuated after I left poor things! Had quite a hard week there really. Tried hard to be sensible accepting lifts rather than walking down muddy slippy hills etc, but found it hard not to let staff teasing me about being lazy get to me. i usually love gorge walking and stuff like that so am quite touchy at the insinuation that I am being a bit gentle. But I know I am generally too sensitive and have to try hard to keep a handle on that at the moment.

Got our prize day tomorrow desoite the floods so that will be interesting. Better try and sleep...

Hope you are all ok. Hugs to all you stressed out or poorly nobbers xx

ps I bloody love the word nobbers and the fact it has become a term of endearment on here!

Bella age 29, 24weeks+1, EDD 18th Oct. dC2

pps Anyone heard from fjord? Hope she is OK.l

Morning ladies who are sporting beautiful bumps - that'll be all of us then

Just quickly - squid I think I've managed to post bump pics but need to update it tomorrow for week 23, if you were interested & I'd quite like to see other people's too please!

londonlivvy are you feeling better yet, hope you're consuming lots of &

LondonMrs I've bought this dress for the August wedding from ebay at a bargainous price and hope to recoup it back afterwards!

35, 22+6, dc#1

Aaaaahhhh, Saturday. 3 hours in bed finishing a book this morning, bliss! Job list as long as my arm for the day, mostly schoolwork but also shopping for things to dip into chocolate fondue tonight, we have our newly-pregnant friends coming to dinner . So far I have thought of:

Fruit: strawberries, raspberries, blueberries, banana, pineapple(?)
Biscuits: flapjacks and mini-shortbreads in little tubs from M&S
Sweets: marshmallow
Cheese (some cheeses actually go quite well with chocolate but need to research which ones. Got cheese and chocolate tasting kit from Hotel Chocolate last Christmas, was lush)

Extra suggestions appreciated - am trying to make it as varied as possible as a) I love variety, b) DH is very suspicious of fruit and won't go near it so needs some alternatives and c) with 2 pregnant ladies, why the hell not?

Thank you all again for the reassurance. I can be overly paranoid sometimes and have learnt over the years that it is better to fess up and risk looking like an idiot when I am feeling like that than it is to stew and worry and store it all up then throw all the untethered emotion at DH when some minor niggle becomes the straw that broke the camel's back. And you have all made me feel better, thank you, .

Sympathy for the aching bumps, Smiley and huffle, have you tried a bump support band - not the cheapo ones from New Look but the structured, elasticated ones from Babies R Us? I find mine really good when the bump is feeling like it's "straining". Wish I had gone for the large size though as the medium is a bit tight on me, I was a size 12 pre-preg but think I would be a 14 now even without bump due to recent massive unrestrained greedinessover zealous eating in the early days to fend off sickness.

Lisbeths, no offence taken, I am aiming to read lots of different advice in books then forge my own path somewhere down the middle. at Bella's version of "activities" - presumably it was the baby that widdled on grandad's car, not you? I'm also with you on the sensitive front, I generally cry when anyone comments on the size of my bump (which is huge but only I'm allowed to say that), and I cry if anyone says anything nice or sympathetic as well. Pathetic hormonal mess of a woman that I am at the moment I have just got the Baby Whisperer sleep book through the post. Slightly horrified to read the suggested routine - had no idea that baby would need to feed and sleep about a million times during the day and could only sustain half an hour of activity at a time - babies are a bit rubbish really

Midget, the bastards not giving you a seat. I am normally very independent and hate people offering to do things for me as my instant paranoid nobber reaction is to feel offended because they must think I can't do it for myself, but am a total hypocrite at the moment and fully expect people to offer - so if I am near a bench that is full and I want a sit down, I sigh loudly and rub my bump shamelessly and get cross if it doesn't cause someone to offer me their seat

So we went to see Snow white and the Huntsman last night. Chris Hemsworth still completely gorgeous (I like to check regularly by seeing him on a very big screen) and film pretty damn good especially if you like epics such as Lord of the Rings, and was excited to recognise parts of Scotland, a bit was filmed at Storr in Skye and I have been there. But the main event of the evening - and I suggest you sit down if you are easily shocked - is that (still can't quite believe it), Ben and Jerry's have discontinued Chocolate Macadamia ice cream in their cinema ice cream counters, and replaced it with some caramel and pecan stuff. . Why? Why would they do that? No warning, just... gone. Makes me wish I had been more sympathetic when they did that with Fossil Fuel which was DH's favourite. If memory serves, I told him to suck it up and quit whinging about it, and choose a different flavour. He wisely didn't return that advice last night Chocolate Macadamia Nut ice cream was perfection in an ice-cream tub. Wondering how many tubs I can fit in the freezer in case they stop selling it in the supermarket too.

I am ashamed to admit I tried the replacement as there was nothing else I wanted for my third scoop, and it was actually not bad. But still. Not the point at all. I might start a Facebook protest group...

Christ, look at the length of this post, have I nothing better to do? Best go and get the slow cooker meal on for tonight.

Morning all,

I decided to post from my laptop today so I could get down with some name checking and do a proper post.

Bella Couldn't agree with you more about structured routines limiting the family more than the child. I used to be able to drag DD everywhere and it made my maternity leave really free and easy. Obviously some babies you can't get away with that as they melt down but IMO imposing a strict routine can really tie you down,. This suits some people but would have driven me crackers. The only time I thought I was a shit Mum was when I tried to follow a book. I prefer my instincts. There are some things I would do differently this time round but largely I will go with the flow this time too. On the flood front - London town is still pretty dry - we did have lots of stabbings last night though. Not the same but still...

Dame I shouted at DD last night for no good reason - not my style at all. I apologised and she said 'lately sometimes you do shout at me'. (Guilty gulp). I was so tired I just had no patience. We kissed and made up and like Bella says DS will still want you in the morning - exhaustion and hormones are a bad combo. I am still exhausted from the gym and Wimbledon yesterday and have most of the day today with DD today. Sometimes she realises how tired I am and goes and gets a blanket and makes me lay down on the sofa. Pretty impressive for a child of 4 me thinks to be looking after me like that. -and she turned out that way without Gina or the baby whisperer

Huffle and Smiley My bump expansion over the last week has been vast. And it does ache when I walk sometimes but I just kind of hold it up. Last time I had a tubigrip round it which did the trick really well - I think it is a bit early for that for me yet but will try and ask the midwife about getting one next time I see her.

Smiley I am also knackered. I want to nap in the day - a lot. Particularly after I eat.

Lisbeth My baby also lives on my bladder. I am still peeing all night (3 times last night)

Yomping don't come on here talking about satisfying pooh's and 3 hours in bed - I could take your eyes out. Poohing is still such hard work for me. Really uck. I made DH buy me pile cream. Poor sod. Back to the piles v fissures no idea what I have but it hurts and it bleeds. Sorry people TMI.... DH looked at his shoes when he went to the chemist and asked if suitable in pregnancy just so the pharmacist was clear he was not the one with bum issues. God love him. I am the same as you with the entitlement thing. I don't feel I need special treatment most of the time but sometimes it really pisses me off when I don't get it. An old lady waved me over for a seat - and then I realised she was waving her 'friend' over. As I thought the friend would be the same age as her I waved her to the seat but it then turned out to be her daughter who was about the same age as me and she bloody took the seat from right under me. I found it quite funny as she spent the rest of the journey moaning about her posh shoes rubbing her ankles as I swayed around sweatily in front of her. the bitch

Squid kindly gentle slap about SPD. Sounds like normal niggles to Dr Midge

Big up to Angelico Will PM but the costume arrived today - DD says it looks beautiful.

London and Loopy I am not even going to look at the link for Tiffany Rose dress - already know there are things I like on there and I have already got a lot of stuff. I also got paid yesterday so if I lookee, I buyee. MUST NOT LOOK. I hate feeling limited to what I can wear. I ordered a load of posh yoga clothes which arrived today - I may be living in them from now on. Really soft comfy fabrics and forgiving waistband.

Katla I am with you with moving things round the house. I catch them and put them outside. Sometimes on the other side of the road. I also have a slug problem sometimes - something to do with the vents and wooden floorboards.

Right I best go and feed DD. Hope all you nobbers are having a lovely day. I am going to be as lazy as I can to make up for over acheivement yesterday. And where is Fjord?

I 2nd the where is fjord motion. Was wondering that last night as I headed to bed. Hope you're ok Fjord!

Thank you all for your kind words. I need to work on being a bit more zen as this pg progresses and I become fatter and grumpier.

yomping about 3 hr lie-in with book. Ooooh yes please!!! It's good you've read the baby whisperer book as it's true - over a 24hr period, babies feed, kick around looking all jerky and funny, and then sleep (sometimes). Or scream instead of sleep if you're super duper lucky like me. It's quite a shock to the system. I reckon babies are well boring (don't tell anyone!) but after a year they get much more fun. DS is so entertaining these days, he's a proper little dude (when I'm not restraining myself from throttling him, of course....!!).

midget your daughter sounds incredibly lovely! May I send DS round for a few lessons?!

bella bedtime is hard work isn't it. Can your DH do it tonight while you have a /?

Slug update: more trails this morning!! How do I stop the little buggers getting in? I've salted all the cracks and openings I can see, but there's obviously something I'm missing. Argh

My bump is gigantonormous. Serious heifer proportions. Am feeling rather karma'd as last time I was titchy and no-one could ever believe how far along I was. I was very pleased with myself at the time, so there you go. Something tells me my tummy will never be the same again after this one. Am religiously slathering myself in bio oil as I am terrified of stretch marks...I know it's genetic and surface creams etc can't really make a difference, but it makes me feel better! I have loads of stretch marks on my hips from where I had a huge growth spurt as a late teen (I'm 5'10"), but I got no stretch marks in my last pg. I feel karma about to bitch-slap me once more....

Oh dear. Made the fatal mistake of looking at the Tiffany Rose site............... Those dresses are so very beautiful and divine. Sigh. Make my ASOS one look like something from a junk shop. Oh dear. And i always spend too much money on lovely dresses for weddings that i never wear again anyhow, why should this one be any different????? And might make me feel nice and glam when look like a whale and everyone else looks fabulous.........Never mind my failing finances. Off to have another look....

Anyone know if Tiffany Rose do a sale?!????

Hello, ladies. It seems like an age since i have been on, and it has been lovely reading all your posts. Such a lot going on with people feeling unwell, struggling with pregnancy and toddlers and moving house and worrying we're ignoring them...i think we all have baby brain and just can't remember who said what. Loved the story about someone's baby having a melt down everytime they pee as the water bed has been deflated and CANNOT believe we are seeing milk already! Am tempted to have a little squeeze to see if my factory is open yet. So jealous of u guys who have not put on too much weight - i have put on 11 kg already :( Going to be hard work losing it and am seriously considering using the breast pump for the next 20 yrs as a weight control strategy :)

Am so happy to be off next week - completely accidentally timed it with 2nd week of wimbledon, so really looking forward to lounging around watching some good matches.

Have been super tired - we have no blinds yet and i am not a great sleeper when it's light. I think i have had a 2nd trimester burst of energy that lasted a weekend 2 weeks ago, so feeling a bit ripped off as i will be leaving the 2nd trimester soon and can't believe there was so much hype about how spritely we're meant to feel

Sympathies to those with itchy anuses, boobs and tummies- mine comes and goes, but it's horrible when it strikes in public. On the subject of the baby on board badges, I like to move away from the tube door and lurk right between the seats on the tube as i find that is the best way to guilt trip people into giving their seat up for u.

34, 1st baby, 24 weeks + 2

I got my Tiffany Rose off eBay - at a quarter of the price

Yomping chuckling hard about husband?s wise decision to not tell you to suck it up re disparition of fave flavour. I am GUTTED when things like that happen (stuck in a rut? Me? Ahem)

Midgetagreed re not wanting to be stuck at home ? particularly as our bambinos being born in winter we will otherwise barely get out of the house in daylight, which doesn?t fill me with happiness.

Agreed re Where is Fjord motion. I hope step children are all toeing the line.

Hufflepuffle agreed re the beauty of tiffany rose dresses. I?ve got a wedding in a month?s time but hoping to squeeze into non-preg (stretchy) dress. This may be blind optimism as have not actually tried it on.

Beccus can you get a blindfold in the meantime? Not the sexiest things in the world, I grant you, but handy for providing darkness.

I am feeling MUCH MUCH better today after an early night and a lie in this morning. And (drum roll) I have passed my exams and I am finally a qualified yoga teacher. YAY!! It has been incredibly hard to do this training alongside a full time job and growing a small person but I really hope that it?ll enable me to work part time once pepe is here and have a bit of a life outside of the family. Current job isn't do-able part time and I don't want to go back to work full time.