Is anyone else just so flippin' excited for the future?!
I was 16 when I had my first, and it is completely different this time! I've waited 10 years for this, as I knew I needed to sort my life out and adding more children was not the right thing to do until I was standing on my own two feet completely. This should have been 3 years ago - but a split with my DS's father at that time, and then being single meant all my carefully laid plans went to pot.
However now, thanks to a wonderful man, my hopes and dreams are being realised. We are in the perfect place to add to our family, and I can't imagine things being better than this.
We are both like little children! Wibbly lips with excitement and happiness! My DP was keen to have children from early in the relationship, but I wanted to enjoy the early years as a couple knowing from experience how things change when a baby comes along. I'm glad we waited til now, it just feels so 'right'.
I already know how loved this baby will be, and through the inevitable torturous first trimester, love and drugs (and my DP being an absolute saint) will get me through. I had terrible hyperemesis first time round - from 5 weeks 6 days til 22 weeks. So I am preparing myself for the worst. Better to be prepared than caught on the hop!
My DS is going to be over the moon too - he has been asking for a sibling for a good few years! He is fantastic with babies and younger children, and for an almost 10 year old, has so much patience and understanding! He's got a real affinity with little ones.
I keep looking longingly in the spare room that I have deliberately kept empty since I moved here 4 years ago, hoping that it would be filled one day! My nursery is already planned in my head!
Its very very early days for me still, but no matter what happens, we'll get through it, and stay strong as a family. I want to get the ball rolling, go and see the local midwife, get my free prescriptions (!) and dental care, get booked at the hospital of my choice. But it would be daft. I'm not even 4 weeks officially!!
I'll give it another 10 days minimum before making an appointment with her. Not that she can tell me anything I don't (or should!) already know - I'm a midwife myself!!
Here is to a happy 9 months and a happy rest of our lives ladies?!