Well, after shock yesterday and thinking it was definitely, definitely the end, I feel more positive today but cautiously so. I hadn't realised how common this was, for a start, and just assumed that as the dates were so far out that was, well, pretty much it.
But today, I've been thinking - the scan was abdominal and I am not skinny (though not massively overweight either, a size 14) and it occurred to me that actually when we went for scan with ds at 6 weeks, they could only pick up the sac abdominally and had to do a transvaginal to get a proper look. My bladder wasn't full either (hadn't thought to do it as assumed would be transvaginal before 7 weeks) so it definitely increases the possibility of there being a greater margin for error. He had said +/- 5 days anyway, which is okay from my LMP (but I was downbeat about it as I was trying to calculate from the conception date by when I got bfp etc).
I am, however, a tad pissed off that I paid £80 for the scan and they didn't do a TV now that I realise that it's really recommended in these early stages.
Trying not to get my hopes up TOO much, as really even with all the thinking around it and plausible explanations of why etc, it is still a waiting game. As I guess really it is for all of us in the first trimester especially, scan or no scan. Literally, even if everything had been swimming at the scan, the odds of not having a miss would be exactly the same. It's just one of those things, you can worry all you want but worry is neither use nor ornament. My friend said to me last night that pregnancy is one of those things that just catapults women back to feeling like they live in a more barbaric age, it really highlights the mysteriousness of your body I think and I suppose we generally like to think we have more control.
This all coincides with me having a period of hating working in the NHS (again) and being uncertain about my job so it is just, well, annoying. But what adult life is about etc! I have to develop my ability to handle uncertainty and lack of control! I think it is central to being a parent 