The CBFM Graduates Vol 1

[StormBird]

We have got to know each other pretty well during our TTC journey's so have created this thread on Chocciechips advice (hope she doesn't mind!!) so we can all contintue to support one another through our pregnancies.

Welcome................

I'm here! I've been trying to relax and am waiting patiently for my 12 week scan in 3 weeks today. I'm so paranoid it's all going wrong and the baby isn't developing but I know these are common thoughts as this is wanted so very much.

I've just had the old owner of our house call at our door. He's always 'popping' round the Street as they lived here for 40 odd years and has called here a couple of times before. They had let the house go and it needed gutting from top to bottom including re-wiring and every room and outside needed attention. We've only been here three years and as you can imagine haven't got round to doing everything yet. He just had the cheek to tell me "looks like you've got some work to do on the house" in a disapproving voice. I was livid. They had cat's piss everywhere and cobwebs at least 6 months old. I almost said 'get off my land!!!'

I'm not even going to blame pregnancy hormones just his rude tone of voice.

Rant over!!

I'm here. And reading every day so think I qualify as a saddo as well boba , but I am so overwhelmed with work I'm keeping writing to a minimum. I'm self-employed, so no maternity leave for me and intense contracts that end in December. I'm trying to finish them before SEPTEMBER when baby is due so I can have some time off without compromising income and future work badly. Have no idea how I'm going to cope going forwards ... trying not to think of it.

I have my consultant appointment tomorrow, feeling worried about that. I've had weird pain just above my pubic bone which isn't my tummy muscles and I can only feel when I walk etc. It's not very comfortbale and gets worse the more I do. Different to ligament pain. Bit worried it might be SPD, and really hoping consultant can put my mind at rest.

missy the first 12 weeks are very scarey but as you can see, the paranoia doesn't go away.

Will update after consultant appointment. But I do read every day, promise (although that isn't much of a dialogue, I know).

Glad you're still here!

God what a cheeky git missy, I hope you slammed the door in his face!

choccie good luck at the consultant. I know how you feel about work. I run my own business & will be taking a couple of months off but I'm dreading the thought of losing control for those few months - although I'll still be checking everthing over few evenings a week - no rest for the wicked eh?!

I'm still here to! Check thread all the time, but don't really have much exciting stuff to post ...glad we are all here, and growing by the day .

Missy no point me saying don't worry, as we all do! especially in the first 12 weeks...but as Choccie says...it never goes away...one day at a time hey, good luck with your scan.

Choccie Hope appointment goes ok...and you get some answers.

Storm your pictures are lovely!! so clear! lovely little man!.

Boba hope you are all good? I had a 3D scan at 18 weeks, early I know but was really paranoid and wanted to check he was ok?...the pictures were fab (have put on my profile page, as dont know how to do link thingy?)...but scan lady said best pictures are around 24-26 weeks? before they get too cramped...would love another scan, but budget is very tight.

Well I'm 25 weeks tomorrow! Yipeeeeee, this second trimester is lasting ages! roll on the 3rd!!!.

Thanks for the advice anytime think I'm gonna go around 26/27 weeks that is all being well at my scan on the 28th.

Is your 20 week scan on the 28th April boba? Mine is not long after - 4 May. Boba have you felt movement yet, since we're around the same sort of stages...?

So, saw the consultant yesterday, and she thinks it might be SPD but was surprised I got it so early, and because its my first DC, and because I am slim (not that I feel slim anymore). Thing is, I'm really uncertain about it being SPD because the pain is just above my pubic bone, not on my pubic bone itself. So might self-refer to physio to get it checked out.

The fibroid is really changing the size of my uterous - I'll be 18 weeks tomorrow, but she says my uterous is measuring about 24 weeks. Seeing her again next month after my scan and will be scanned and checked the month after that as well.

Other weird thing - I have two moles that have almost doubled in size since the BFP. DH very worried about them. Anyone else had this?? So consultant has arranged for me to also see a dermatologist to get them checked or hopefully chopped off - they're huge!

And the good news is I've got a script for anti-sickness medication - I'm still having rotten days. I've been doing all I can to avoid drugs but she said at this stage it should be fine and we're going away to France for a few days and I don't want to be feeling sick all the time.

Whew, miserable story over ... it basically appears that I am hugely sensitive to this pregnanacy lark - feeling quite glad I am half-way through now, just got to grit my teeth and get through the next half.

Is anyone here considering trying hypnobirthing? - I've been thinking about it.

Yes mine is 28th choccie. I'll be 20 weeks on Friday & as far as I'm aware no movement yet I get lot's of little twinges quite a lot but this is more uterus stretching I think. I'm desperate to feel it, what about you?

Re all the side effects of pregnancy, it's not all it's cracked up to be is it I've had lot's of wee niggles too and am dreading looking forward to the next 20 weeks!

p.s re the hypnobirthing there was a really funny OBEM earlier on last series about a girl who was hypnobirthing - she was screaming for drugs after a couple of hours!

I saw that one too boba. DH and I screamed with laughter. I'd never go for hypnobirthing in lieu of an epidural, but just wondering if it will make earlier stages easier. (I have no intention of suffering uneccessarily - brave soul that I am!)

I got my dates wrong, I'm 19 weeks today. The consultant said to only worry about no movement if I get to 21 weeks and still haven't felt anything, so I'm still sort of OK about it.

On another topic - can anyone advise of a really good place to get a strong supporting pregnancy bra (how I WISH I could have my underwires back!). The one I bought at 6 weeks is just not up to the job and I'm tired of my boobs pointing south.

thanks for all your kind wishes - can't believe had failed ICSI then suspected stroke.... not my month!! So lovely to pop on here (v naughty I know) and read how your pregnancies are growing....

bump

Hi Ladies - hope you all had a lovely weekend.

keziah I can't quite believe your luck either - you've had an extraordinarily dreadful time! I hope you're able to take a bit of time out to relax and re-group. If it wasn't a stroke have they been able to tell you what it was?

boba - any movement yet? I feel as if I've started to grow very rapidly. I'm not going to be able to hide this from people for much longer ... but still no movement for me. Where have you been doing your clothes shopping? I was horrified to be told M&S only sell online here, and that John Lewis don't have a range at all in their shop; no shops at the Gyle, and only one little rail at Ocean Terminal. Mothercare is a bit limited for me, and nothing in my size. I did eventually find Jojo Maman Bebe and bought stuff there (some amazing wrap tops) but really have found it very difficult to find decent basic staples to get me through the next four short months. I hate shopping online - I always forget to return stuff!

My bust size has gone from 32DD before BFP to 36F now, and I've been told it could still grow. I've never wanted mahoosive boobs so I'm a bit about this. Do they go back to normal when its all over?

choccie Me too! Bump has doubled in size over last 3 weeks. Turning hard as well which is weird. Still no movement as far as I'm aware but I'm told you won't recognise it at first. Edinburgh is pathetic for maternity shopping isn't it? I'm 5'10'' so have double the trouble! I've got a couple of pairs of maternity jeans from Topshop online & a few tops from ASOS. We had a wedding last week & ended up buying a normal dress from Monsoon in 2 sizes bigger. I went to get remeasured for bra yesterday and am now a 38DD (was a 34D before) I hate them as well, always thought I wanted bigger boobs but they're not all they're cracked up to be are they?!

I'm hoping to not have to buy anymore clothes for summer, maybe a couple of bigger vest tops if we get the warmer weather but it's so expensive isn't it? My mum's boobs went smaller than before when she stopped bfeeding but a couple of my friends have stayed bigger. I'm a bit ashamed at how freaked out I am at all the body changes as this baby was/is so longed for [bublush]

Got scan on Thurs so excited for that & to see how the little one has grown.

Have you managed to tell your friends who lost their baby yet?

Has your scan been moved forward a week?

boba I'm glad I'm not the only one. I saw myself naked from the waist up for the first time on Saturday while trying on new bras (in unflattering fitting room light) and nearly wept. It was a shock. Let's just say that I do NOT look like Demi Moore on the cover of vogue when pregnant!! And looking at my boobs now dropping under the weight - I have a sick feeling I'll be more golf-ball-in-a-sock than big busted when its all over! I've been feeling grumpy and miserable about it all weekend.

We're supposed to be going away over The Wedding weekend and DH keen to take me to a really nice restaurant but I have nothing suitable to wear, and it seems no chance of buying anything suitable in the next two days anyway (we leave Thurs). He drove me through to Livingstone to the retail outlet stores there and believe it or not, as big as it is, I couldn't find maternity wear there either! But I did have one small bright moment - this top - is surprisingly flattering on (so I bought 3 - thinking they may be OK immediately post-PG as well).

Yes, we did talk to friends. Well, DH spoke to the husband (I'll call him 'G') - I still haven't seen them. They are the only people to know we're expecting now, and DH told him we'd only be telling everyone else after the 20 week scan (still set for next week). DH and I both thought giving them ~2 weeks notice before people start chatting about it might help them get used to it a bit, and lessen the shock than if G picked it up in the staff kitchen or something. DH said they talked for over an hour, and I think once G realised our past issues and MCs, he opened up to my DH a lot. So I really hope it helped them a bit. I still get tears in my eyes when I think about it - so sad and so hard.

I'm off out again for last minute effort to find shops with maternity clothes. Will let you know if I find anything anywhere.

choccie DH took me out for my bday at the weekend & I got this dress www.asos.com/Asos/Asos-Maternity-Circle-Hem-Shift-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1314650&cid=6413&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Black for a tenner. Needed an underskirt though. They've got loads of differebt syle dresses quite cheap in their sale & do next day delivery so worth a look.

That top is really nice, are they quite long in the body?

Gosh, lots of nice dresses in there. I've only just got back from town so think I've missed next day delivery options. I've now exhausted Neu Look and H&M as well so I don't think there's anywhere left in Edinburgh for me to look. boba the wrap top wraps around from the front to the back, and then back to the front again to tie, so you can arrange the layers as you go. I am 5'8, and on me, the top did feel like I could pull it low, which I liked. I'm not sure how it will work with a very big bump, but figured a bump-band underneath would extend it a bit more. Jojo Maman Bebe said that if I ordered anything online I could drop off returns back at the shop rather than hassling with post and postage costs. I've got the 3/4 length sleeve one in black and white, and this one to wear with jeans.

Choccie - a type of stroke apparently! And we have same taste in maternity tops, i allowed myself a little look at clothes online when in ivf 2ww, as knew it might be only time to daydream and that top you linked I decided would be what I would choose!!! Next is where most of my colleagues get stuff from for work for maternity - order online, get delivered to local next for free and try on there and either take home or give to them they say! And Bravissimo if huge bust - but sadly I have to go there anyway. And Choccie, my work colleague was slimmer after baby weight than before - so you will be fine, once people know you might feel less self conscious I hope.

Just popping in to say hi to all you growing ladies! Lovely to read your news. Hope all bumps are well and hoping I'll join you all soon.... (right back to cbfm support where I belong)!

Well I don't know about you ladies but I thought the wedding was fantabulous! [cgrin]

Had scan yesterday and all was well. We couldn't really make much out apart from the toes so was a wee bit disappointed but baby was all curled up & facing backways. Have booked 4D scan for end of June so looking forward to that.

We went yesterday and ordered our pram and cot so things starting to feel a wee bit more real !

Hope you all have a lovely holiday weekend. x

Hi Everyone,

I hope you are all well and that you're expanding nicely!!

Boba I too thought the wedding was fabulous. It was such a beautiful thing to be able to watch. Kinda made me feel all gooey and proud to be British!
I'm glad to read your Scan went well. Was that the 20 week one???? You are going to love the 4D Scan its such an experience. Everything does start to feel very real when you start ordering the more expensive and bigger items needed for bringing up baby, its so lovely.

Had a nice BH wknd so far. Although I've managed to burn my back quite badly. I never burn, especially not like this, its very sore and feel a bit like crepe paper which is very annoying when trying to sleep. I can only put it down to my skin being much more sensitive during PG. I must I must I must remember to slap on a high factor from now on.

I've also been suffering from particularly vivid 'going in to labour' dreams!!!!!!!

I even woke up thinking that I thought I'd felt my water break the other night and also remember mid dream, before waking up to realise that it was definatley a dream, flying into a state of extreme panic. Anyway, (TMI) woke up in a pool of sweat and boob leakage LOVELY!!!!!

So all of the following have been whizzing through my mind of late:
what the hell we've done?
how are we going to cope?
I can't give birth? I'm still a child (LOL)
I'm never going to cope with the pain?
I'm going to have a nervous breakdown?
This is going to change our lives forever and nothing will ever be the same?
I'm not sure this is going to be a life enhancing as I thought!!
etc. etc. etc. etc.

You see the thing is the above is totally out of character. I'm normally very laid back about things but I have suddenly come to realise how MASSIVE this whole thing is!! And I can only describe it as a Thing, a situation, a monumental task - when I'm just having a baby, a wonderful little baby boy that we have so desperately wanted and I hate the way I am viewing it at the moment. Am I normal?????????

Urgh! Sorry rant over! and apologies for the extrememly selfish post.

I hope you are all having a lovely weekend. WIll catch up soon.

XXX

Storm no you're not. I have "shit what have we done" moments too. I think it's completely natural as our lives are going to change forever but hopefully for the better?! I feel guilty all the time as I HATE my pregnant body. This baby was so desperately wanted and we went through hell to get here but I seem to be doubling in size every 2 days and I can't stand it! I really hope in the next few weeks as the bump grows things will even out.

On a nicer note felt the ben move last night for the first time. It must be dancing as it's where it's arms were on the scan, unless it's done a backflip?

How many weeks are ou now storm?

Choccie did you end up getting anything to wear? Have you had your 20 week scan yet?

Hi Boba

Thank god its not just me,it makes me feel much better knowing that these must be normal emotions that I'm going through. To top it off I've spent the day weeping at every opportunity, sometimes at the big things that really need worrying about and then other times at the most ridiculously little things. Its definately got to be my hormones. My poor DP doesn't know if he's coming or going - I really feel sorry for him at the moment having to put up with me!!!

I'm 29+5 weeks now! I'm hoping its going to start slowing down a bit now as the past month has gone so quickly! Its going far too fast for my liking!

I remember during the 2nd trimester feeling like I hated my pregnant body Boba ! It was like a real 'is she fat,or is she pregnant' look! It was far too inbetween for me, but as soon as bump popped out properly, which was about 25 weeks it made me feel much better knowing that people could definately see I was preggers!! Hopefully once your at that stage it will feel the same for you. Fingers Crossed.

It's lovely to hear that you have felt baby move, just you wait though, its crazy once you start actually seeing the outside of your stomach move around with the baby.

Boba did you find out what you are having?? or is this going to be a surprise??

Well, I've booked the rest of the week off work as I desperately need a break from all the rushing about and dealing with other peoples crap. Plus I've really got to knuckle down on the old flat hunting as time is quickly passing us by.

I hope you have a good week.

Speak soon

XXXX

storm no we are having a surprise. Part of me doesn't want the 4D scan as I'd rather wait too but I think it will somethig amazing for baby to have when they're older.

Enjoy your week off you lucky sod!

Just back after our long weekend away. boba no, didn't find anything to wear in the end, but it was OK - we skipped fancy pants restaurants and had equally nice meals out anyway - wearing jeans.

Had my 20 week scan today and all is well, which is such a relief. Baby not being very obliging re scan positions today so we still don't know gender, but are OK about that because we are very unsure whether we want to know or not. I have a feeling its a boy, but no reason to think that at all.

Downside is I've contracted a horrible skin thingy over my shoulder and back - I think its shingles and so does GP. But obs at hospital not so sure so I am being treated both for shingles and a bacterial type infection. It's horrible - red circular welts with blisters all over them, and very uncomfortable. But I'm most bothered by the variety of pills I have to take to treat it, especially after seeing how small bean is. But he promises it won't do any harm..

Hi guys

I havent really been on this thread since the early days! Still go on the CBFM thread but having a brief flick through here i can see this is just an extension! Apologies for not really commenting much on individual posts as not time to read everything yet, so a little update from the gargantuan woman here:

Im now about 21/22 weeks with a little boy. It feels like I have a whale in there doing acrobatics. Well, a whale crossed with an alien. I was expecting something more pleasant LOL. Have had worrying few days as had an awful stomach upset and of course yet another thing to worry about, but he had a good old session of backflips and kicks this afternoon which has set my mind at rest.

As of yesterday am now sporting ginormous nursing bras (as I had outgrown yet more bras decided i might as well get nursing ones on the offchance that they fit if and when i get to that stage). I didnt think it possible that breasts could get so large. I did double check and am bemused/alarmed to note that my head fits in my bra cups.

Not much else is new. i dont 'enjoy' pregnancy in the way that some do (allegedly...) but as they go, not having a dreadful one!

Hope everyone is doing well

Liz xxx