My ickle big brother. [sad]

[shelleylou]

My brother was killed early hours of this morning. Dont know too many details as an investigation has been opened only that he would have died almost instantly and he's unmarked.
I feel so guilty i wasnt there for him when he needed me (always been like that with each other)I woke up with a start about that time and knew this morning that something was very wrong. Im going to mortuary later to see him, im dreading it as its going to make it seam more real but i have to do it for him id never forgive myself if i didnt. Atm it doesnt seam real its all just abad dream. RIP bro love you loads

So sorry to hear this Shellylou.
xxxx

So sorry Shelley it sounded very hard , hopefully you can get your questions answered.

oh f*ck shell - I don't know what to say. I saw this thread title yesterday but didn't click on it. Just seen on your FB profile about it.

I know I've been shite, but I'm still here if you want to talk/scream/come over.

I am so sorry for your loss

thinking of you shelley how awful...

Thinking of you and praying for you and your family ShelleyLou

I lost my big brother suddenly, the pain is awful I know wishing you strength x

Many hugs. Many prayers. xx

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. Been to lay flowers where it happened. So surreal got the markings on the road etc. Flowers are at the roadside. A bunch from db, my parents myself and dp and some from ds. Left cards with them too. Mum and dad printed a photo of him of and have attached them to their flowers with a note. The police have now realised his name which should make it seam more real but it only has the opposite effect. Messages of support from our friends and his have been flooding in today. Just had one on my FB from a mutual mate saying he was a great bloke and will surely be missed. My heart literally aches. He was 18 months my junior and we were always so close growing up. My younger bros and i were like the 3 muskateers, always there when one needed the other nd i werent there for him in his hour of need.

So sorry.

{{{{{{{un MN hugs - ones on the phone just don't work}}}

sorry I had to cut the call short just now.

I'll still up late every night if you want to talk later at night, and after tomorrow (exam and leapfrog) will be around as well if you want.

So sorry for your loss. Wishing you and your family lots of strength and support

its ok always. Thanks will probable take you up on that from my ranting. thanks to you all

so sorry shelly. x

aww he had some fantastic friends one of them text him this morning and mum phoned him and told him what had happened. Hes phoned round their mutual mates and told them all. He and some mates had been talking. He'd then rang mum this afternoon to tell hee they are going to hire a function room put on a do charge each person and give my parents the money towards his funeral.

I am so sorry for you and your family

aww Shell that's lovely

sorry for your loss.

i'm so sorry for your loss shellylou.

sending prayers.

it is lovely made me smile that he was though of so highly. Told my mum if they let her know when it will be im going to go. I want to thank him myself

you eaten anything yet? (even if it's just crisps?)

no i havent

oh shelley i don't know you but just want to say i'm so sorry.

(and hopes to god it still works)