Cole's thread for bereaved muumies: like the sands on the beach that never wash away. I watch over my surviving mum, who thinks of me each day.

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Welcome to our santuary and haven ladies.

Many thanks for Frasersmummy for passing the baton onto Cole and I. I am touched and hope I can do all our lo's justice.

For any people wanting to join, don't be shy. We cry, we rant, we smile, we laugh - whatever we feel like we need to do.

hi girls

I had my first official panic yesterday. I took Ross to our local soft play.
They have great security so I dont worry if he leaves my sight for 2 mins .. he will be on a chute or in a tunnel or something.

But yesterday I lost sight of him and he didnt re-appear within a few minutes. Went looking and couldnt find him. Told a member of staff calmly that i couldnt find him. She went looking and couldnt see him. She roped in others and they couldnt find him.

By this time I was hysterical thinking someone had stolen him.

Turns out they found him in the baby area .. had seen a wee girl take her socks off and climb up inside a chute and had copied her. He was siting inside the chute putting his socks back on.

He kept saying calm down mummy I am here. Then he said next time mummy look in the under 5's

i was still shaky in the car on the way back, I could see him in my rear view and he was shaking his head and muttering I was just putting my socks back on.. if you had just waited 5 mins I would have been back

I can laugh now but at the time I could see the headlines about missing kids playing in my head

God - they don't half know how to turn us grey, don't they? You must have been terrified. Boyo has a habit of running off when i'm in the supermarket and hiding round the end of the aisles - my heart skips a beat every time he goes out of my eyeline.

frasersmummy, I had a similar experience with ds1 when he was 4 - I was getting money out at a cashpoint, one minute he was stood next to me holding my coat, the next I suddenly realised he wasn't holding my coat anymore.

I went completely hysterical - luckily found him in less than a minute - he'd needed the loo and wandered into the supermarket to go. I can still feel the rush of panic and everyone staring at me while I completely lost it.

Most people read about child abduction and think "it'll never happen to me". But if you've suffered a loss I think you become very aware of what could happen, and that bad things very definitely do happen to good people.

Glad he came to no harm.

I lost Wilf in the park at Disneyland at Christmas.... he ran off after a float and i lost sight of him! I found a member of staff and they took me to the lost children office, this woman was taking his details and asking what colour his hair was etc.....i just kept saying "please find him, please bring him back!" In the end one of the cleaning ladies brought him back and i was so pleased to see him, he just said "i lost you Mumma" and i said "i know you did!!!"

The cashpoint story reminded me of another Wilf story, when he was about three we went to stay with my stepdaughter in Hastings, i took him out shopping in his pushchair. On the way into the town he started to get fractious so i stopped at the cheap shop to buy him a millenium flag! I then stopped at the cashpoint to get some money. There were two cashpoints side by side, i was just starting my transaction when i was aware of a man beside me. He started to type his number in and then froze with his hands over the keys, i finished and turned round and nearly died, Wilf had slipped his straps and stood up and was poking the man with the wooden handle of his flag........... the poor man must of thought he was being mugged! . I made my excuses and fled quickly with the pushchair, i also thanked my lucky stars that i wouldnt see the man again!!!

morning girls

this is first time I have been first to post.

My darling 3 year old got up at 6.45am and wouldnt go back to bed and my dh declared he had been working all week and was tired so ross and I are up dressed and had breakfast ..

I have decided its too early for parenting and have plonked him in front of the tv

Morning FM...........im not far behind you! Wilf and I are off to the cinema! We have to get the bus just before 9.30 so we are up and about too!!

ooh .. out to the cinema by 9.30 thats adventurous..

enjoy. let us know what you see and if you would recommend it

Up, dressed and out by 9.30? I'm impressed - i really don't do mornings, so i feel your pain, FM!!! Enjoy the cinema Lottie and Wilf!

Today i'm going to pick boyo up (he stayed at his ganga's last night) and take him to football training, then drop him back off at ganga's so i can pack up here some more - who know that a small bungalow could hold so much 'stuff'???

Morning girls - ooooohhhhh I am very tired. At my friends for hours last night trying to help her sort out her relationship....feel like I have a had full of pink frogs this morning

I am bleary eye'd too today, yyyyaaaawwwnnn. Mac's sleeping is all over the show at the moment. He only wakes once in the night and sometimes twice, but never at the same time of night so my body clock is all over the show. I cannot wait until he sleeps through.

Have a good day ladies, once Mac is awake from his nap we're off out for lunch.

Oh and FMN, if you're looking. I hope you can put your feet up for a bit now that your ML has started.

Hi all, please can you spare for a thought for my uncle tonight, my aunt died very suddenly this afternoon I didnt see her very often which i feel very guilty about as she lived quite near. She had been ill for a long time with diabetes and kidney problems. Apparently she said she was going to have a sit down and she died then........She did get to see her son get married last year. I feel desperately sorry for my cousin as she has been helping her dad look after my aunt for a long time and was due to go to New Zealand on a gap year next week
We had had such a good day before i heard that news we had been to the cinema and to JJB sports to get Wilf new trainers(from a size 5 to a 7!!) and Chelsea slippers, i had rung my mum to tell her that he had 20/20 in a science exam when she told me about my aunt.........as i said if you remember my uncle and my cousins.......thanks.......

Oh and we saw Bedtime Stories.....its very good. Wilf liked the Guinea Pig with the bulging eyes!

Oh and we saw Bedtime Stories.....its very good. Wilf liked the Guinea Pig with the bulging eyes!

Sorry to hear your sad news - my mum is diabetic and has started to develop a few problems so she is a constant worry to me. Sending thoughts your way.

sorry for your families loss Lottie xxx

Lottie - i'm so sorry about your Aunt. My condolences to you and your family x

lottie..

your aunt and all your family are in our thoughts and prayers tonight

Morning girls xx

Morning x

Afternoon all...........

we are all very quiet today.. hope we are all ok

the day we built Fraser's cot is the day we lost him.

The cot has been up ever since.. of course within months of losing him we were expecting Ross so its been his for a couple of years

Now he is almost 4 and my young cousin is expecting so today we disassembled the cot and bidded it a fond farewell along with all our other baby equipment

I thought I would have bubbled but instead its more a feeling off.. well its over...

I know its been over for a long time but the fact we have no baby stuff left.. it really is OVER

life moves on...