Toddler in hospital. Need a handhold.

[sobsanta]

DD is 2 and has been ill for about four days with what we presumed to be a heavy cold. She hasn't slept much and today took a turn for the worse where we had to call an ambulance due to her breathing being laboured while sleeping and sucking in under the ribs with every breath. Paramedics think some kind of upper respiratory infection as her chest appears clear. Epiglottitis was mentioned or possibly severe tonsillitis but they didn't want to check her mouth at home in case it panicked her.

DH went to the hospital with her as he's calm and collected and only one parent is allowed due to coronavirus restrictions. She's a daddy's girl anyway so she'll feel safe with him but I'm kicking myself that I can't be with them both. Haven't heard anything yet and they've been gone about an hour.

Am terrified and need distraction as I know there's nothing I can do and she's with the best people.

Message from MNHQ: Please note, very sad update further down the thread

Oh sobsanta. Nothing makes sense at the moment. How can there possibly be a ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ thing to wear to your child’s funeral...I’m sure whatever you wear, whether you decide tonight or throw on something tomorrow, you will do your daughter justice in your goodbye to her. You are Wyatt’s mum, you always will be her mum and you love her. That’s so clear and strong. I’ll be thinking of you and your family tomorrow

I'm so sorry.

You are a wonderful mum. You will get through tomorrow. I hope it is in some way healing, or at least part of the process, or the start of it, I hope you find comfort from the day and the knowledge of the support of all the people who love you and loved your beautiful daughter.

I hope you can get some sleep tonight. And if you can't sleep, rest.

I didn't see this post at the time op. I've read your updates and seen the photos of your beautiful little girl. I'm so so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the devastation and shock. Sending love

I have no words. In terms of something to wear I would possibly choose something that you can keep OR alternatively something you wear every day. I don’t know why really-I think you might either be able to think of the day every day or not every day. That sounds ridiculous because I’m sure you will think of the day every day anyway. Just sending you hugs hugs. I suppose I would want to be utterly comfortable in what I wore so I wasn’t fretting about sitting down/getting in cars etc.

Oh sobsanta I have no words my heart goes out to you sending love and strength ❤️

Sending so much love

Your story is utterly heartbreaking. She's so beautiful and it's such a cruel outcome. Thinking of you tomorrow. As for what to wear, something that would make her smile - her favourite colour? Maybe a necklace of hers if she has one? Mother love is a powerful thing and I hope that you draw from it what you can to get you through tomorrow and the time beyond.

So so sorry for your loss, how horrendous for you all. Many hugs x

Just read this thread and broke down . I can't imagine what you are going through. I'm just so sorry and I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. Take care of yourself xxxx

Sending you so much love and strength for tomorrow and for all the days to come. Xx

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

xx

Wishing you love and strength

The girls have new clothes. DH will wear whatever he pulls out that looks decent. Me? I've got tons of clothes. Swathes and swathes of dark fabrics because at the grand age of 32 I've never really grown out of my goth phase. Pretty much everything is wearable. Nothing feels right. I don't think anything will feel right though. There's no way to dress to bury your child. Whatever I wear, I'll feel wrong. That's an issue for tomorrow but it's all I can think of tonight.

I've not been sleeping well for the past few nights. Today I've had a cry at Rob Delaney's post on his Instagram and interviews where he spoke about grieving his son (his son Henry died at the age of 2). It helps me feel less like a freak, at least. I don't think I'll sleep well tonight either so I'm planning to hole up on the sofa with the tv and the dog so DH can get some uninterrupted sleep. He's not good on broken sleep and he'll need all the strength he has to get through tomorrow.

Things are happening from around 12:30. I can't believe it's happening at all.

I've just read your whole thread OP. I'm so very very sorry for the loss of your beautiful Wyatt. What a cheeky lovely little girl.

Thinking of you and sending all the love in the world. ❤️

Thinking of you sobsanta. You will get through it. Everyone around you will be willing you on, they are there to support you. Everyone on this thread will be thinking of you too.

Wear something comfortable, familiar. Something you don't have to think about or "manage". Comfy shoes in case you feel a bit wobbly. Bag that you can fit tissues in.
Extra layers because you will feel cold.

Wishing you the strength to get through tomorrow. I'll be thinking of wyatt xx

Laura, I'm sobbing my heart out. I read your story previously on WOL and was heartbroken then, now came across your thread and words are stuck in my throat. I am sending you so much love. I lost three babies in pregnancy, but what you've described is honestly beyond. You're stronger than you think you are and you will move forward from this as a family, with your beautiful Wyatt always with you. I'm not based far from you, I hope my hugs can reach you right now. Lots and lots of love and I'm so incredibly sorry ❤❤❤ xxxxxx

I just saw your update after reading your initial post weeks ago. I'm at so devastated for your loss, every parents worst nightmare. Words cannot express my deepest sympathies for you and your family. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

I'll be thinking of you all, tomorrow ❤️

Sending you so much love and thoughts. We are all with you.

I'm thinking of you @sobsanta - your love for your beautiful little girl and your family is awe inspiring. We are all with you
tomorrow, sending you strength, support and a huge handhold xx

Hello everyone.
A new thread has been opened up here for us all to hold sobsanta's hand today.
Sending loving thoughts to everyone who has been bereaved, especially recently, and colossal love to sobsanta and her family for today. x