Toddler in hospital. Need a handhold.

[sobsanta]

DD is 2 and has been ill for about four days with what we presumed to be a heavy cold. She hasn't slept much and today took a turn for the worse where we had to call an ambulance due to her breathing being laboured while sleeping and sucking in under the ribs with every breath. Paramedics think some kind of upper respiratory infection as her chest appears clear. Epiglottitis was mentioned or possibly severe tonsillitis but they didn't want to check her mouth at home in case it panicked her.

DH went to the hospital with her as he's calm and collected and only one parent is allowed due to coronavirus restrictions. She's a daddy's girl anyway so she'll feel safe with him but I'm kicking myself that I can't be with them both. Haven't heard anything yet and they've been gone about an hour.

Am terrified and need distraction as I know there's nothing I can do and she's with the best people.

Message from MNHQ: Please note, very sad update further down the thread

@sobsanta a big big big big big hug for you xx

I hope you’ve found some comfort tonight being with close friends and celebrating something lovely. I’m not surprised everything feels surreal. What has happened is massive and shocking and heart breaking... yet at the same time, life is going on, all those normal everyday things.
I looked at your photos of Wyatt again tonight. She’s lovely and will never be forgotten.

Oh SobSanta. There are no words. Shocked to see these updates and have just prayed for all of you. I can't imagine what you're all going through. Sending you lots and lots of love and support through this terrible time. Please keep posting for support - we are all here for you. Rest in peace, beautiful little Wyatt.

Sending you so much love I hope you had a good evening. Rest in perfect peace sweet girl.

I'm so sorry. I'm sending all my love and prayers for you. Xx

Sobsonta sending lots of love, hugs and strength to you and your family. My heart is hurting for you all.
My daughter passed away in august 2018 and her bedroom is more or less exactly as it was when she was last in it. I do try now and again to sort it out to donate things etc and in that numb phase I very nearly had my friends take it all out. I’m very glad they said no as I go in there to be close to her.

Don’t rush to do anything or make any decisions yet as how I felt changed continously.
I would have found it harder had I rashly done something I couldn’t reverse later.

Take each moment as it comes as however you feel or want to do is perfectly natural

Thinking of you all x

@sobsanta sending you all love at this utterly heart breaking time xxx

I'm so sorry for your loss. I was just looking at the photos you posted, Wyatt was such a beautiful little girl, it's clear to see how full of life and love she was. The picture of your dog snuggling her as a baby is gorgeous. I'm not sure what else to say, just sorry

I had a dream about her last night. The first one. She was alive and things were great and then I woke up and there's this hole in my chest that makes me feel absolutely sick all of the time.

@Biscuitmonster2318 Nothing has been donated yet. Her room is exactly as she left it, albeit with far more toys in there that were relocated from the main living areas up there so I don't have to look at them. Nothing is being moved for a long time. We've shut the door on it as we can't face it but it's still there and nothing has changed inside that room. I'm so sorry for your loss.

We’re in first day of self isolation awaiting Covid test results and I came across your thread. My heart breaks for you and your family OP, but I am full of admiration for the way you are documenting it all so eloquently. As I read more of your posts, I have no doubt that you will realise your goal of teaching/writing for a living. You write beautifully and will hold your family in my heart always. Sending love and light @sobsanta xxx

Thinking of you. We recently buried my daughter in St Woolos cemetery Newport in a grave for us to share eventually and there was no charge. We don’t have to pay until we die which hopefully gives us time to save up!

I remember the numbness, I’m sure it’s the brain’s way of helping us cope with the unbearable but I found it worse than the sadness.

Hoping for a peaceful day for you.

@sobsanta

I've just stumbled across your thread and I just want to tell you how incredibly sorry I am. I didn't know your beautiful girl, but hearing about her passing, seeing her beautiful pictures made me cry. I just want to send you all the strength in the world. Be kind to yourself. Hugs and lots of love from Birmingham.

What a beautiful girl. I'm so sorry.

The coroner called. The preliminary report is back with no cause of death. Samples have been taken and are being sent out to the relevant labs for further investigation. This could take months and I feel so angry and frustrated and sad because I'd psyched myself up for a hopeful clear cause of death and we're still none the wiser.

Utterly horrible horrible day.

@Hoowhoowho that's where Wyatt will be buried. We've been told there's a £1350 charge to pay upfront. I will double check this.

Oh @sobsanta I'm so so sorry to hear that, I can't imagine how difficult it must be not having an explanation. So sorry you're going through this. Still thinking of you and your beautiful girl daily.

So sorry to hear you still don't have an answer.

I'm so sorry to hear that, sobsanta.

💔I am so sorry for your loss xxx

@sobsanta do check, the cemetery warden was lovely and we have a plot with a garden and didn’t have to pay a penny until we die. I suspect our girls will be close to each other. I will look out for Wyatt though I’m so sorry it has to be this way. Nobody should lose a child.

@sobsanta I’m so sorry you’re no further forward in getting answers. I’m thinking about Wyatt and your family every day

Sorry things are so rubbish on top of your grief, I can't imagine.

Thinking of you all and hoping you receive the clarification you need soon X

@sobsanta I've been thinking about you and and all your family daily. In a weird way I was looking forward to you having the report from the coroner so that you had one less thing on your mind, so I'm really really sorry to read your update on that. My 2 year son was in hospital today for an operation and I've been a mess. You have been on my mind even more so than normal today.

@sobsanta I am so sorry you are going through this. I can't imagine the pain. And the added cruelty that you thought today you would have some answers but you still don't. You've been in my thoughts a lot since I first read your thread, as has little Wyatt.