My husband has died

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He died today. He was 42. He had recently been diagnosed with a heart condition and spent a month in hospital but we believed he was going to be okay. He went upstairs for a rest and they think he had a heart attack. He didn't cry out, they think it would have been fairly instant. I found him when I went to check on him a few hours later and I knew he had gone, I did CPR but I knew it was too late.

He was my soul mate, my other half, the true love of my life. We have a little girl who is almost 3. If it wasn't for her I would kill myself. I can't imagine life ever having any meaning without him.

Here and checking in on you too Peach xx

Please just hang on in there Peach . Lyla needs her Mummy so much . If you cannot cope at all please ask your family for more help...it will get easier but it is really early days ..thinking of you so much.Xx💐💕

Thinking of you Peach xx

Thinking about you.

I'm so sorry for your sudden and tragic loss. Grief is so hard, it has such a physicality. I can't imagine how one deals with and process when it happens so suddenly. Sending love

Just wanted to let you know you are still in my thoughts.

Morning everyone. I managed to get moved in though still loads of unpacking to do obviously. Am really struggling this morning though. I miss him so much, it's almost unbearable. I can't believe this is my life now, constantly missing him. I'm so sad I don't have more videos of him, even though they hurt too much to watch right now. I want to hear him sing again, he had such a beautiful voice. God, I was so happy and it's all just gone.

Hi Peach my love xxx
Big hugs xx
Just give yourself time.. You're still grieving xxx

Thankyou for popping in, Peach.

It will come....eventually, there’s no timeline. I also found videos too painful to watch, it took me 2 years and from memory it was almost 3 that I could watch them with a smile.

Give time time x

You're doing great Peach. You're so strong. You can do this, for you, for Lyla & for Mike.

This will take a long time, but it will become easier. You are so strong and you can do this with lovely Lyla.

Well done on getting sorted, peach. You really are doing so well, even if it feels like you aren't. "Give time time" is a good thought.

Evenings are always easier which is a comfort as I don't go to sleep feeling desperate. Lyla has nursery tomorrow and my sister in law is coming down so that will really help especially as my brother and his wife have to go home which I'm dreading. They've been amazing.

I have nothing useful to say, but I have been thinking of you and wish you and your little girl strength and healing.

Still thinking of you and Lyla.

You were very much in my thoughts yesterday, sending you strength and peace 💐

Thinking of you lovely xx

Still thinking of you each day Peach

Still thinking of you Peach.

Hi Peach, just dropping in to say I'm thinking of you xx

Thank you everyone. I keep thinking I'm coping okay and then it hits me all over again and I don't know how to go on without him. It's just agonising. I can't imagine ever being loved the way he loved me and I just miss him as a person so, so much. I almost can't cry about it now, I'm too hollow. I've been working so hard to make our new place nice but I've realised I'm doing it for him and he's not here to see it. I just don't know how to go on even though I know I have to. Fuck. This is just so, so fucking hard. And he was so, so beautiful.

Tonight is very, very hard. I miss him so much. I can't imagine going on without him. I know I have to. But I just feel so bereft.

peach, I’m listening and sending love to you.

I can’t make it better, no one can. But I’m listening.

Me too Peach. I think the only way is one day at a time, just get through today and then think about tomorrow xx

You don't have to think you're coping though, my love, you just have to concentrate on putting one foot in front of another. No-one expects you to be coping right now either. People always say that time is a great healer and it's true, but it takes longer than a few weeks to even begin to heal, so be gentle with yourself