My husband has died

[peachgreen]

He died today. He was 42. He had recently been diagnosed with a heart condition and spent a month in hospital but we believed he was going to be okay. He went upstairs for a rest and they think he had a heart attack. He didn't cry out, they think it would have been fairly instant. I found him when I went to check on him a few hours later and I knew he had gone, I did CPR but I knew it was too late.

He was my soul mate, my other half, the true love of my life. We have a little girl who is almost 3. If it wasn't for her I would kill myself. I can't imagine life ever having any meaning without him.

I'm so sorry OP. I can't imagine how awful it is right now and that's ok, it's supposed to be shit. It has been said that the grief is the price of love. If you didn't love him so much, you wouldn't grieve so much now... In time you will be ok. Your little girl needs you more than ever and one day you can even be happy. But for now, let the grieving happen, use your friends and family to help you get through. Look after yourself. xxx

Sending sympathy. That is a brutal blow. I know that life can turn around in extraordinary ways after disaster but when you are in the eye of the storm it can be impossible to see a way forward. Have faith that you and your child will come through . People will come to you and hold you and guide you . Good luck . Hold on tight X

OP, I am truly sorry for your loss. Life can be so cruel. My thoughts are with you and your little girl x

I am so so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. Lost, desperate, alone. The Physical pain is too much. Your baby girl needs you. Take each day as it comes. Try to eat something small each day. Cry all you need too. Life won't always feel so excruciating. Sending love.x

I followed your other thread and what really shone through was your deep love for each other. I’m so very sorry. Sending love and strength x

I'm so so sorry

So very very sorry, truly terrible news. My thoughts are with you and your family xx

@peachgreen I'm so sorry for your loss. I read your previous thread and your love for your husband was there in every line. I wish you all the strength you'll need to get through this, and the support from your lovely family.

So sorry for your loss, I followed the original thread and was so happy when he came home. Life can be so cruel.

Sending love and strength to you and your family x

I am so sorry to hear this. Sending much love to you and your daughter.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Life can be so bloody cruel sometimes. Sending you lots of love and strength. 🌹X

So so sorry, I can't imagine your shock and distress especially when it looked like he was over the worst

I am so very sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your little girl today.

I too followed your thread from the beginning @peachgreen. This is tragic news. I’m so sorry.

Heartbreaking, I am so sorry

Hi Op l am so so sorry how awful this is, surround yourself with caring loving good friends and good family members, your husband lives on through your daughter and happy memories you had together and as a family.take care xxxx

I am so, so sorry for your loss, sending a lot of strength and love to you and your daughter

Oh my love, I am so sorry this has happened to you. I just wish I could give you a big hug but I can’t so I am thinking of you and sending prayers.
Have you got someone you can talk to? Cry with? ❤️❤️❤️

I'm so so sorry for your loss. I read your other thread from the outset and thought of you and Mike often. I was so incredibly sad to hear that he had passed away.

I have not experienced such immense grief so cannot add much to the many wise words already said, but please take every second/minute/hour as it comes and allow your friends and family to carry you through. And use us whenever you need to; there are always people about to talk, even in the depths of the night when things can feel truly unbearable.

@thosetalesofunexpected
That’s such a lovely thing to say and so right... ❤️

So sorry for you xx. The grief you feel matches the love you had, but he will live on both in your heart and through your little girl . The pain of loss is the hardest thing to endure x

I’m so sorry to hear this. I read your original thread, and caught up with the end of it recently.

Let other people help you. Doing practical things will help them too.

@peachgreen

How can I do this? I want to die. I don't know how to be without him. This has to be some kind of sick joke.

I'm so very sorry. You will get through this because your DC need you. Go one hour at a time until you are able to do one day at a time. After a while you will then be able to do one week a time and so on. The grief won't leave, but it will soften slightly over time and be less raw. Hard to see now, so for now just take each minute/hour as it comes.

So very sorry for your tragic loss. It’s not fair.